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THE GOLDEN DUSTMAN AT HIS WORST
The breakfast table at Mr Boffin's was usually a very pleasant one,
and was always presided over by Bella. As though he began each
new day in his healthy natural character, and some waking hours
were necessary to his relapse into the corrupting influences of his
wealth, the face and the demeanour of the Golden Dustman were
generally unclouded at that meal. It would have been easy to
believe then, that there was no change in him. It was as the day
went on that the clouds gathered, and the brightness of the
mornmg became obscured. One might have said that the shadows
of avarice and distrust lengthened as his own shadow lengthened,
and that the night closed around him gradually.
But, one morning long afterwards to be remembered, it was black
midnight with the Golden Dustman when he first appeared. His
altered character had never been so grossly marked. His bearing
towards his Secretary was so charged with insolent distrust and
arrogance, that the latter rose and left the table before breakfast
was half done. The look he directed at the Secretary's retiring
figure was so cunningly malignant, that Bella would have sat
astounded and indignant, even though he had not gone the length
of secretly threatening Rokesmith with his clenched fist as he
closed the door. This unlucky morning, of all mornings in the year,
was the morning next after Mr Boffin's interview with Mrs
Lammle in her little carriage.
Bella looked to Mrs Boffin's face for comment on, or explanation
of, this stormy humour in her husband, but none was there. An
anxious and a distressed observation of her own face was all she
could read in it. When they were left alone together--which was
not until noon, for Mr Boffin sat long in his easy-chair, by turns
jogging up and down the breakfast-room, clenching his fist and
muttering--Bella, in consternation, asked her what had happened,
what was wrong? 'I am forbidden to speak to you about it, Bella
dear; I mustn't tell you,' was all the answer she could get. And
still, whenever, in her wonder and dismay, she raised her eyes to
Mrs Boffin's face, she saw in it the same anxious and distressed
observation of her own.
Oppressed by her sense that trouble was impending, and lost in
speculations why Mrs Boffin should look at her as if she had any
part in it, Bella found the day long and dreary. It was far on in the
afternoon when, she being in her own room, a servant brought her
a message from Mr Boffin begging her to come to his.
Mrs Boffin was there, seated on a sofa, and Mr Boffin was jogging
up and down. On seeing Bella he stopped, beckoned her to him,
and drew her arm through his. 'Don't be alarmed, my dear,' he
said, gently; 'I am not angry with you. Why you actually tremble!
Don't be alarmed, Bella my dear. I'll see you righted.'
'See me righted?' thought Bella. And then repeated aloud in a tone
of astonishment: 'see me righted, sir?'
'Ay, ay!' said Mr Boffin. 'See you righted. Send Mr Rokesmith
here, you sir.'
Bella would have been lost in perplexity if there had been pause
enough; but the servant found Mr Rokesmith near at hand, and he
almost immediately presented himself.
'Shut the door, sir!' said Mr Boffin. 'I have got something to say to
you which I fancy you'll not be pleased to hear.'
'I am sorry to reply, Mr Boffin,' returned the Secretary, as, having
closed the door, he turned and faced him, 'that I think that very
'What do you mean?' blustered Mr Boffin.
'I mean that it has become no novelty to me to hear from your lips
what I would rather not hear.'
'Oh! Perhaps we shall change that,' said Mr Boffin with a
threatening roll of his head.
'I hope so,' returned the Secretary. He was quiet and respectful;
but stood, as Bella thought (and was glad to think), on his
'Now, sir,' said Mr Boffin, 'look at this young lady on my arm.
Bella involuntarily raising her eyes, when this sudden reference
was made to herself, met those of Mr Rokesmith. He was pale
and seemed agitated. Then her eyes passed on to Mrs Boffin's, and
she met the look again. In a flash it enlightened her, and she
began to understand what she had done.
'I say to you, sir,' Mr Boffin repeated, 'look at this young lady on
'I do so,' returned the Secretary.
As his glance rested again on Bella for a moment, she thought
there was reproach in it. But it is possible that the reproach was
'How dare you, sir,' said Mr Boffin, 'tamper, unknown to me, with
this young lady? How dare you come out of your station, and your
place in my house, to pester this young lady with your impudent
'I must decline to answer questions,' said the Secretary, 'that are
so offensively asked.'
'You decline to answer?' retorted Mr Boffin. 'You decline to
answer, do you? Then I'll tell you what it is, Rokesmith; I'll
answer for you. There are two sides to this matter, and I'll take 'em
separately. The first side is, sheer Insolence. That's the first side.'
The Secretary smiled with some bitterness, as though he would
have said, 'So I see and hear.'
'It was sheer Insolence in you, I tell you,' said Mr Boffin, 'even to
think of this young lady. This young lady was far above YOU.
This young lady was no match for YOU. This young lady was
lying in wait (as she was qualified to do) for money, and you had
Bella hung her head and seemed to shrink a little from Mr Boffin's
'What are you, I should like to know,' pursued Mr Boffin, 'that you
were to have the audacity to follow up this young lady? This
young lady was looking about the market for a good bid; she
wasn't in it to be snapped up by fellows that had no money to lay
out; nothing to buy with.'
'Oh, Mr Boffin! Mrs Boffin, pray say something for me!'
murmured Bella, disengaging her arm, and covering her face with
'Old lady,' said Mr Boflin, anticipating his wife, 'you hold your
tongue. Bella, my dear, don't you let yourself be put out. I'll right
'But you don't, you don't right me!' exclaimed Bella, with great
emphasis. 'You wrong me, wrong me!'
'Don't you be put out, my dear,' complacently retorted Mr Boffin.
'I'll bring this young man to book. Now, you Rokesmith! You
can't decline to hear, you know, as well as to answer. You hear me
tell you that the first side of your conduct was Insolence--Insolence
and Presumption. Answer me one thing, if you can. Didn't this
young lady tell you so herself?'
'Did I, Mr Rokesmith?' asked Bella with her face still covered. 'O
say, Mr Rokesmith! Did I?'
'Don't be distressed, Miss Wilfer; it matters very little now.'
'Ah! You can't deny it, though!' said Mr Boffin, with a knowing
shake of his head.
'But I have asked him to forgive me since,' cried Bella; 'and I
would ask him to forgive me now again, upon my knees, if it
would spare him!'
Here Mrs Boffin broke out a-crying.
'Old lady,' said Mr Boffin, 'stop that noise! Tender-hearted in
you, Miss Bella; but I mean to have it out right through with this
young man, having got him into a corner. Now, you Rokesmith. I
tell you that's one side of your conduct--Insolence and
Presumption. Now, I'm a-coming to the other, which is much
worse. This was a speculation of yours.'
'I indignantly deny it.'
'It's of no use your denying it; it doesn't signify a bit whether you
deny it or not; I've got a head upon my shoulders, and it ain't a
baby's. What!' said Mr Boffin, gathering himself together in his
most suspicious attitude, and wrinkling his face into a very map of
curves and corners. 'Don't I know what grabs are made at a man
with money? If I didn't keep my eyes open, and my pockets
buttoned, shouldn't I be brought to the workhouse before I knew
where I was? Wasn't the experience of Dancer, and Elwes, and
Hopkins, and Blewbury Jones, and ever so many more of 'em,
similar to mine? Didn't everybody want to make grabs at what
they'd got, and bring 'em to poverty and ruin? Weren't they forced
to hide everything belonging to 'em, for fear it should be snatched
from 'em? Of course they was. I shall be told next that they didn't
know human natur!'
'They! Poor creatures,' murmured the Secretary.
'What do you say?' asked Mr Boffin, snapping at him. 'However,
you needn't be at the trouble of repeating it, for it ain't worth
hearing, and won't go down with ME. I'm a-going to unfold your
plan, before this young lady; I'm a-going to show this young lady
the second view of you; and nothing you can say will stave it off.
(Now, attend here, Bella, my dear.) Rokesmith, you're a needy
chap. You're a chap that I pick up in the street. Are you, or ain't
'Go on, Mr Boflin; don't appeal to me.'
'Not appeal to YOU,' retorted Mr Boffin as if he hadn't done so.
'No, I should hope not! Appealing to YOU, would be rather a rum
course. As I was saying, you're a needy chap that I pick up in the
street. You come and ask me in the street to take you for a
Secretary, and I take you. Very good.'
'Very bad,' murmured the Secretary.
'What do you say?' asked Mr Boffin, snapping at him again.
He returned no answer. Mr Boffin, after eyeing him with a
comical look of discomfited curiosity, was fain to begin afresh.
'This Rokesmith is a needy young man that I take for my Secretary
out of the open street. This Rokesmith gets acquainted with my
affairs, and gets to know that I mean to settle a sum of money on
this young lady. "Oho!" says this Rokesmith;' here Mr Boffin
clapped a finger against his nose, and tapped it several times with
a sneaking air, as embodying Rokesmith confidentially
confabulating with his own nose; '"This will be a good haul; I'll go
in for this!" And so this Rokesmith, greedy and hungering, begins
a-creeping on his hands and knees towards the money. Not so bad
a speculation either: for if this young lady had had less spirit, or
had had less sense, through being at all in the romantic line, by
George he might have worked it out and made it pay! But
fortunately she was too many for him, and a pretty figure he cuts
now he is exposed. There he stands!' said Mr Boffin, addressing
Rokesmith himself with ridiculous inconsistency. 'Look at him!'
'Your unfortunate suspicions, Mr Boffin--' began the Secretary.
'Precious unfortunate for you, I can tell you,' said Mr Boffin.
'--are not to be combated by any one, and I address myself to no
such hopeless task. But I will say a word upon the truth.'
'Yah! Much you care about the truth,' said Mr Boffin, with a snap
of his fingers.
'Noddy! My dear love!' expostulated his wife.
'Old lady,' returned Mr Boffin, 'you keep still. I say to this
Rokesmith here, much he cares about the truth. I tell him again,
much he cares about the truth.'
'Our connexion being at an end, Mr Boffin,' said the Secretary, 'it
can be of very little moment to me what you say.'
'Oh! You are knowing enough,' retorted Mr Boffin, with a sly
look, 'to have found out that our connexion's at an end, eh? But
you can't get beforehand with me. Look at this in my hand. This
is your pay, on your discharge. You can only follow suit. You
can't deprive me of the lead. Let's have no pretending that you
discharge yourself. I discharge you.'
'So that I go,' remarked the Secretary, waving the point aside with
his hand, 'it is all one to me.'
'Is it?' said Mr Boffin. 'But it's two to me, let me tell you.
Allowing a fellow that's found out, to discharge himself, is one
thing; discharging him for insolence and presumption, and
likewise for designs upon his master's money, is another. One and
one's two; not one. (Old lady, don't you cut in. You keep still.)'
'Have you said all you wish to say to me?' demanded the Secretary.
'I don't know whether I have or not,' answered Mr Boffin. 'It
'Perhaps you will consider whether there are any other strong
expressions that you would like to bestow upon me?'
'I'll consider that,' said Mr Boffin, obstinately, 'at my convenience,
and not at yours. You want the last word. It may not be suitable
to let you have it.'
'Noddy! My dear, dear Noddy! You sound so hard!' cried poor
Mrs Boffin, not to be quite repressed.
'Old lady,' said her husband, but without harshness, 'if you cut in
when requested not, I'll get a pillow and carry you out of the room
upon it. What do you want to say, you Rokesmith?'
'To you, Mr Boffin, nothing. But to Miss Wilfer and to your good
kind wife, a word.'
'Out with it then,' replied Mr Boffin, 'and cut it short, for we've
had enough of you.'
'I have borne,' said the Secretary, in a low voice, 'with my false
position here, that I might not be separated from Miss Wilfer. To
be near her, has been a recompense to me from day to day, even for
the undeserved treatment I have had here, and for the degraded
aspect in which she has often seen me. Since Miss Wilfer rejected
me, I have never again urged my suit, to the best of my belief, with
a spoken syllable or a look. But I have never changed in my
devotion to her, except--if she will forgive my saying so--that it is
deeper than it was, and better founded.'
'Now, mark this chap's saying Miss Wilfer, when he means L.s.d.!'
cried Mr Boffin, with a cunning wink. 'Now, mark this chap's
making Miss Wilfer stand for Pounds, Shillings, and Pence!'
'My feeling for Miss Wilfer,' pursued the Secretary, without
deigning to notice him, 'is not one to be ashamed of. I avow it. I
love her. Let me go where I may when I presently leave this house,
I shall go into a blank life, leaving her.'
'Leaving L.s.d. behind me,' said Mr Boffin, by way of commentary,
with another wink.
'That I am incapable,' the Secretary went on, still without heeding
him, 'of a mercenary project, or a mercenary thought, in connexion
with Miss Wilfer, is nothing meritorious in me, because any prize
that I could put before my fancy would sink into insignificance
beside her. If the greatest wealth or the highest rank were hers, it
would only be important in my sight as removing her still farther
from me, and making me more hopeless, if that could be. Say,'
remarked the Secretary, looking full at his late master, 'say that
with a word she could strip Mr Boffin of his fortune and take
possession of it, she would be of no greater worth in my eyes than
'What do you think by this time, old lady,' asked Mr Boffin,
turning to his wife in a bantering tone, 'about this Rokesmith here,
and his caring for the truth? You needn't say what you think, my
dear, because I don't want you to cut in, but you can think it all the
same. As to taking possession of my property, I warrant you he
wouldn't do that himself if he could.'
'No,' returned the Secretary, with another full look.
'Ha, ha, ha!' laughed Mr Boffin. 'There's nothing like a good 'un
while you ARE about it.'
'I have been for a moment,' said the Secretary, turning from him
and falling into his former manner, 'diverted from the little I have
to say. My interest in Miss Wilfer began when I first saw her;
even began when I had only heard of her. It was, in fact, the cause
of my throwing myself in Mr Boffin's way, and entering his
service. Miss Wilfer has never known this until now. I mention it
now, only as a corroboration (though I hope it may be needless) of
my being free from the sordid design attributed to me.'
'Now, this is a very artful dog,' said Mr Boffin, with a deep look.
'This is a longer-headed schemer than I thought him. See how
patiently and methodically he goes to work. He gets to know about
me and my property, and about this young lady, and her share in
poor young John's story, and he puts this and that together, and he
says to himself, "I'll get in with Boffin, and I'll get in with this
young lady, and I'll work 'em both at the same time, and I'll bring
my pigs to market somewhere." I hear him say it, bless you! I
look at him, now, and I see him say it!'
Mr Boffin pointed at the culprit, as it were in the act, and hugged
himself in his great penetration.
'But luckily he hadn't to deal with the people he supposed, Bella,
my dear!' said Mr Boffin. 'No! Luckily he had to deal with you,
and with me, and with Daniel and Miss Dancer, and with Elwes,
and with Vulture Hopkins, and with Blewbury Jones and all the
rest of us, one down t'other come on. And he's beat; that's what he
is; regularly beat. He thought to squeeze money out of us, and he
has done for himself instead, Bella my dear!'
Bella my dear made no response, gave no sign of acquiescence.
When she had first covered her face she had sunk upon a chair
with her hands resting on the back of it, and had never moved
since. There was a short silence at this point, and Mrs Boffin
softly rose as if to go to her. But, Mr Boffin stopped her with a
gesture, and she obediently sat down again and stayed where she
'There's your pay, Mister Rokesmith,' said the Golden Dustman,
jerking the folded scrap of paper he had in his hand, towards his
late Secretary. 'I dare say you can stoop to pick it up, after what
you have stooped to here.'
'I have stooped to nothing but this,' Rokesmith answered as he
took it from the ground; 'and this is mine, for I have earned it by
the hardest of hard labour.'
'You're a pretty quick packer, I hope,' said Mr Boffin; 'because the
sooner you are gone, bag and baggage, the better for all parties.'
'You need have no fear of my lingering.'
'There's just one thing though,' said Mr Boffin, 'that I should like to
ask you before we come to a good riddance, if it was only to show
this young lady how conceited you schemers are, in thinking that
nobody finds out how you contradict yourselves.'
'Ask me anything you wish to ask,' returned Rokesmith, 'but use
the expedition that you recommend.'
'You pretend to have a mighty admiration for this young lady?' said
Mr Boffin, laying his hand protectingly on Bella's head without
looking down at her.
'I do not pretend.'
'Oh! Well. You HAVE a mighty admiration for this young lady--
since you are so particular?'
'How do you reconcile that, with this young lady's being a weak-
spirited, improvident idiot, not knowing what was due to herself,
flinging up her money to the church-weathercocks, and racing off
at a splitting pace for the workhouse?'
'I don't understand you.'
'Don't you? Or won't you? What else could you have made this
young lady out to be, if she had listened to such addresses as
'What else, if I had been so happy as to win her affections and
possess her heart?'
'Win her affections,' retorted Mr Boffin, with ineffable contempt,
'and possess her heart! Mew says the cat, Quack-quack says the
duck, Bow-wow-wow says the dog! Win her affections and
possess her heart! Mew, Quack-quack, Bow-wow!'
John Rokesmith stared at him in his outburst, as if with some faint
idea that he had gone mad.
'What is due to this young lady,' said Mr Boffin, 'is Money, and
this young lady right well knows it.'
'You slander the young lady.'
'YOU slander the young lady; you with your affections and hearts
and trumpery,' returned Mr Boffin. 'It's of a piece with the rest of
your behaviour. I heard of these doings of yours only last night, or
you should have heard of 'em from me, sooner, take your oath of it.
I heard of 'em from a lady with as good a headpiece as the best,
and she knows this young lady, and I know this young lady, and
we all three know that it's Money she makes a stand for--money,
money, money--and that you and your affections and hearts are a
'Mrs Boffin,' said Rokesmith, quietly turning to her, 'for your
delicate and unvarying kindness I thank you with the warmest
gratitude. Good-bye! Miss Wilfer, good-bye!'
'And now, my dear,' said Mr Boffin, laying his hand on Bella's
head again, 'you may begin to make yourself quite comfortable,
and I hope you feel that you've been righted.'
But, Bella was so far from appearing to feel it, that she shrank
from his hand and from the chair, and, starting up in an incoherent
passion of tears, and stretching out her arms, cried, 'O Mr
Rokesmith, before you go, if you could but make me poor again!
O! Make me poor again, Somebody, I beg and pray, or my heart
will break if this goes on! Pa, dear, make me poor again and take
me home! I was bad enough there, but I have been so much worse
here. Don't give me money, Mr Boffin, I won't have money. Keep
it away from me, and only let me speak to good little Pa, and lay
my head upon his shoulder, and tell him all my griefs. Nobody
else can understand me, nobody else can comfort me, nobody else
knows how unworthy I am, and yet can love me like a little child.
I am better with Pa than any one--more innocent, more sorry, more
glad!' So, crying out in a wild way that she could not bear this,
Bella drooped her head on Mrs Boffin's ready breast.
John Rokesmith from his place in the room, and Mr Boffin from
his, looked on at her in silence until she was silent herself. Then
Mr Boffin observed in a soothing and comfortable tone, 'There, my
dear, there; you are righted now, and it's ALL right. I don't
wonder, I'm sure, at your being a little flurried by having a scene
with this fellow, but it's all over, my dear, and you're righted, and
it's--and it's ALL right!' Which Mr Boffin repeated with a highly
satisfied air of completeness and finality.
'I hate you!' cried Bella, turning suddenly upon him, with a stamp
of her little foot--'at least, I can't hate you, but I don't like you!'
'HUL--LO!' exclaimed Mr Boffin in an amazed under-tone.
'You're a scolding, unjust, abusive, aggravating, bad old creature!'
cried Bella. 'I am angry with my ungrateful self for calling you
names; but you are, you are; you know you are!'
Mr Boffin stared here, and stared there, as misdoubting that he
must be in some sort of fit.
'I have heard you with shame,' said Bella. 'With shame for myself,
and with shame for you. You ought to be above the base tale-
bearing of a time-serving woman; but you are above nothing now.'
Mr Boffin, seeming to become convinced that this was a fit, rolled
his eyes and loosened his neckcloth.
'When I came here, I respected you and honoured you, and I soon
loved you,' cried Bella. 'And now I can't bear the sight of you. At
least, I don't know that I ought to go so far as that--only you're a--
you're a Monster!' Having shot this bolt out with a great
expenditure of force, Bella hysterically laughed and cried together.
'The best wish I can wish you is,' said Bella, returning to the
charge, 'that you had not one single farthing in the world. If any
true friend and well-wisher could make you a bankrupt, you would
be a Duck; but as a man of property you are a Demon!'
After despatching this second bolt with a still greater expenditure
of force, Bella laughed and cried still more.
'Mr Rokesmith, pray stay one moment. Pray hear one word from
me before you go! I am deeply sorry for the reproaches you have
borne on my account. Out of the depths of my heart I earnestly and
truly beg your pardon.'
As she stepped towards him, he met her. As she gave him her
hand, he put it to his lips, and said, 'God bless you!' No laughing
was mixed with Bella's crying then; her tears were pure and
'There is not an ungenerous word that I have heard addressed to
you--heard with scorn and indignation, Mr Rokesmith--but it has
wounded me far more than you, for I have deserved it, and you
never have. Mr Rokesmith, it is to me you owe this perverted
account of what passed between us that night. I parted with the
secret, even while I was angry with myself for doing so. It was
very bad in me, but indeed it was not wicked. I did it in a moment
of conceit and folly--one of my many such moments--one of my
many such hours--years. As I am punished for it severely, try to
'I do with all my soul.'
'Thank you. O thank you! Don't part from me till I have said one
other word, to do you justice. The only fault you can be truly
charged with, in having spoken to me as you did that night--with
how much delicacy and how much forbearance no one but I can
know or be grateful to you for--is, that you laid yourself open to be
slighted by a worldly shallow girl whose head was turned, and
who was quite unable to rise to the worth of what you offered her.
Mr Rokesmith, that girl has often seen herself in a pitiful and poor
light since, but never in so pitiful and poor a light as now, when
the mean tone in which she answered you--sordid and vain girl that
she was--has been echoed in her ears by Mr Boffin.'
He kissed her hand again.
'Mr Boffin's speeches were detestable to me, shocking to me,' said
Bella, startling that gentleman with another stamp of her little foot.
'It is quite true that there was a time, and very lately, when I
deserved to be so "righted," Mr Rokesmith; but I hope that I shall
never deserve it again!'
He once more put her hand to his lips, and then relinquished it, and
left the room. Bella was hurrying back to the chair in which she
had hidden her face so long, when, catching sight of Mrs Boffin by
the way, she stopped at her. 'He is gone,' sobbed Bella indignantly,
despairingly, in fifty ways at once, with her arms round Mrs
Boffin's neck. 'He has been most shamefully abused, and most
unjustly and most basely driven away, and I am the cause of it!'
All this time, Mr Boffin had been rolling his eyes over his loosened
neckerchief, as if his fit were still upon him. Appearing now to
think that he was coming to, he stared straight before him for a
while, tied his neckerchief again, took several long inspirations,
swallowed several times, and ultimately exclaimed with a deep
sigh, as if he felt himself on the whole better: 'Well!'
No word, good or bad, did Mrs Boffin say; but she tenderly took
care of Bella, and glanced at her husband as if for orders. Mr
Boffin, without imparting any, took his seat on a chair over against
them, and there sat leaning forward, with a fixed countenance, his
legs apart, a hand on each knee, and his elbows squared, until
Bella should dry her eyes and raise her head, which in the fulness
of time she did.
'I must go home,' said Bella, rising hurriedly. 'I am very grateful
to you for all you have done for me, but I can't stay here.'
'My darling girl!' remonstrated Mrs Boffin.
'No, I can't stay here,' said Bella; 'I can't indeed.--Ugh! you vicious
old thing!' (This to Mr Boffin.)
'Don't be rash, my love,' urged Mrs Boffin. 'Think well of what
'Yes, you had better think well,' said Mr Boffin.
'I shall never more think well of YOU,' cried Bella, cutting him
short, with intense defiance in her expressive little eyebrows, and
championship of the late Secretary in every dimple. 'No! Never
again! Your money has changed you to marble. You are a hard-
hearted Miser. You are worse than Dancer, worse than Hopkins,
worse than Blackberry Jones, worse than any of the wretches. And
more!' proceeded Bella, breaking into tears again, 'you were wholly
undeserving of the Gentleman you have lost.'
'Why, you don't mean to say, Miss Bella,' the Golden Dustman
slowly remonstrated, 'that you set up Rokesmith against me?'
'I do!' said Bella. 'He is worth a Million of you.'
Very pretty she looked, though very angry, as she made herself as
tall as she possibly could (which was not extremely tall), and
utterly renounced her patron with a lofty toss of her rich brown
'I would rather he thought well of me,' said Bella, 'though he swept
the street for bread, than that you did, though you splashed the
mud upon him from the wheels of a chariot of pure gold.--There!'
'Well I'm sure!' cried Mr Boffin, staring.
'And for a long time past, when you have thought you set yourself
above him, I have only seen you under his feet,' said Bella--'There!
And throughout I saw in him the master, and I saw in you the
man--There! And when you used him shamefully, I took his part
and loved him--There! I boast of it!'
After which strong avowal Bella underwent reaction, and cried to
any extent, with her face on the back of her chair.
'Now, look here,' said Mr Boffin, as soon as he could find an
opening for breaking the silence and striking in. 'Give me your
attention, Bella. I am not angry.'
'I AM!' said Bella.
'I say,' resumed the Golden Dustman, 'I am not angry, and I mean
kindly to you, and I want to overlook this. So you'll stay where you
are, and we'll agree to say no more about it.'
'No, I can't stay here,' cried Bella, rising hurriedly again; 'I can't
think of staying here. I must go home for good.'
'Now, don't be silly,' Mr Boffin reasoned. 'Don't do what you can't
undo; don't do what you're sure to be sorry for.'
'I shall never be sorry for it,' said Bella; 'and I should always be
sorry, and should every minute of my life despise myself if I
remained here after what has happened.'
'At least, Bella,' argued Mr Boffin, 'let there be no mistake about it.
Look before you leap, you know. Stay where you are, and all's
well, and all's as it was to be. Go away, and you can never come
'I know that I can never come back, and that's what I mean,' said
'You mustn't expect,' Mr Boffin pursued, 'that I'm a-going to settle
money on you, if you leave us like this, because I am not. No,
Bella! Be careful! Not one brass farthing.'
'Expect!' said Bella, haughtily. 'Do you think that any power on
earth could make me take it, if you did, sir?'
But there was Mrs Boffin to part from, and, in the full flush of her
dignity, the impressible little soul collapsed again. Down upon her
knees before that good woman, she rocked herself upon her breast,
and cried, and sobbed, and folded her in her arms with all her
'You're a dear, a dear, the best of dears!' cried Bella. 'You're the
best of human creatures. I can never be thankful enough to you,
and I can never forget you. If I should live to be blind and deaf I
know I shall see and hear you, in my fancy, to the last of my dim
Mrs Boffin wept most heartily, and embraced her with all
fondness; but said not one single word except that she was her dear
girl. She said that often enough, to be sure, for she said it over and
over again; but not one word else.
Bella broke from her at length, and was going weeping out of the
room, when in her own little queer affectionate way, she half
relented towards Mr Boffin.
'I am very glad,' sobbed Bella, 'that I called you names, sir,
because you richly deserved it. But I am very sorry that I called
you names, because you used to be so different. Say good-bye!'
'Good-bye,' said Mr Boffin, shortly.
'If I knew which of your hands was the least spoilt, I would ask
you to let me touch it,' said Bella, 'for the last time. But not
because I repent of what I have said to you. For I don't. It's true!'
'Try the left hand,' said Mr Boffin, holding it out in a stolid
manner; 'it's the least used.'
'You have been wonderfully good and kind to me,' said Bella, 'and
I kiss it for that. You have been as bad as bad could be to Mr
Rokesmith, and I throw it away for that. Thank you for myself,
'Good-bye,' said Mr Boffin as before.
Bella caught him round the neck and kissed him, and ran out for
She ran up-stairs, and sat down on the floor in her own room, and
cried abundantly. But the day was declining and she had no time
to lose. She opened all the places where she kept her dresses;
selected only those she had brought with her, leaving all the rest;
and made a great misshapen bundle of them, to be sent for
'I won't take one of the others,' said Bella, tying the knots of the
bundle very tight, in the severity of her resolution. 'I'll leave all the
presents behind, and begin again entirely on my own account.'
That the resolution might be thoroughly carried into practice, she
even changed the dress she wore, for that in which she had come to
the grand mansion. Even the bonnet she put on, was the bonnet
that had mounted into the Boffin chariot at Holloway.
'Now, I am complete,' said Bella. 'It's a little trying, but I have
steeped my eyes in cold water, and I won't cry any more. You have
been a pleasant room to me, dear room. Adieu! We shall never
see each other again.'
With a parting kiss of her fingers to it, she softly closed the door
and went with a light foot down the great staircase, pausing and
listening as she went, that she might meet none of the household.
No one chanced to be about, and she got down to the hall in quiet.
The door of the late Secretary's room stood open. She peeped in as
she passed, and divined from the emptiness of his table, and the
general appearance of things, that he was already gone. Softly
opening the great hall door, and softly closing it upon herself, she
turned and kissed it on the outside--insensible old combination of
wood and iron that it was!--before she ran away from the house at
a swift pace.
'That was well done!' panted Bella, slackening in the next street,
and subsiding into a walk. 'If I had left myself any breath to cry
with, I should have cried again. Now poor dear darling little Pa,
you are going to see your lovely woman unexpectedly.'
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