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Chapter 33


When Mr. St. John went, it was beginning to snow; the whirling storm
continued all night.  The next day a keen wind brought fresh and
blinding falls; by twilight the valley was drifted up and almost
impassable.  I had closed my shutter, laid a mat to the door to
prevent the snow from blowing in under it, trimmed my fire, and
after sitting nearly an hour on the hearth listening to the muffled
fury of the tempest, I lit a candle, took down "Marmion," and
beginning -

"Day set on Norham's castled steep,
And Tweed's fair river broad and deep,
And Cheviot's mountains lone;
The massive towers, the donjon keep,
The flanking walls that round them sweep,
In yellow lustre shone" -

I soon forgot storm in music.

I heard a noise:  the wind, I thought, shook the door.  No; it was
St. John Rivers, who, lifting the latch, came in out of the frozen
hurricane--the howling darkness--and stood before me:  the cloak
that covered his tall figure all white as a glacier.  I was almost
in consternation, so little had I expected any guest from the
blocked-up vale that night.

"Any ill news?" I demanded.  "Has anything happened?"

"No.  How very easily alarmed you are?" he answered, removing his
cloak and hanging it up against the door, towards which he again
coolly pushed the mat which his entrance had deranged.  He stamped
the snow from his boots.

"I shall sully the purity of your floor," said he, "but you must
excuse me for once."  Then he approached the fire.  "I have had hard
work to get here, I assure you," he observed, as he warmed his hands
over the flame.  "One drift took me up to the waist; happily the
snow is quite soft yet."

"But why are you come?" I could not forbear saying.

"Rather an inhospitable question to put to a visitor; but since you
ask it, I answer simply to have a little talk with you; I got tired
of my mute books and empty rooms.  Besides, since yesterday I have
experienced the excitement of a person to whom a tale has been half-
told, and who is impatient to hear the sequel."

He sat down.  I recalled his singular conduct of yesterday, and
really I began to fear his wits were touched.  If he were insane,
however, his was a very cool and collected insanity:  I had never
seen that handsome-featured face of his look more like chiselled
marble than it did just now, as he put aside his snow-wet hair from
his forehead and let the firelight shine free on his pale brow and
cheek as pale, where it grieved me to discover the hollow trace of
care or sorrow now so plainly graved.  I waited, expecting he would
say something I could at least comprehend; but his hand was now at
his chin, his finger on his lip:  he was thinking.  It struck me
that his hand looked wasted like his face.  A perhaps uncalled-for
gush of pity came over my heart:  I was moved to say -

"I wish Diana or Mary would come and live with you:  it is too bad
that you should be quite alone; and you are recklessly rash about
your own health."

"Not at all," said he:  "I care for myself when necessary.  I am
well now.  What do you see amiss in me?"

This was said with a careless, abstracted indifference, which showed
that my solicitude was, at least in his opinion, wholly superfluous.
I was silenced.

He still slowly moved his finger over his upper lip, and still his
eye dwelt dreamily on the glowing grate; thinking it urgent to say
something, I asked him presently if he felt any cold draught from
the door, which was behind him.

"No, no!" he responded shortly and somewhat testily.

"Well," I reflected, "if you won't talk, you may be still; I'll let
you alone now, and return to my book."

So I snuffed the candle and resumed the perusal of "Marmion."  He
soon stirred; my eye was instantly drawn to his movements; he only
took out a morocco pocket-book, thence produced a letter, which he
read in silence, folded it, put it back, relapsed into meditation.
It was vain to try to read with such an inscrutable fixture before
me; nor could I, in impatience, consent to be dumb; he might rebuff
me if my he liked, but talk I would.

"Have you heard from Diana and Mary lately?"

"Not since the letter I showed you a week ago."

"There has not been any change made about your own arrangements?
You will not be summoned to leave England sooner than you expected?"

"I fear not, indeed:  such chance is too good to befall me."
Baffled so far, I changed my ground.  I bethought myself to talk
about the school and my scholars.

"Mary Garrett's mother is better, and Mary came back to the school
this morning, and I shall have four new girls next week from the
Foundry Close--they would have come to-day but for the snow."


"Mr. Oliver pays for two."

"Does he?"

"He means to give the whole school a treat at Christmas."

"I know."

"Was it your suggestion?"


"Whose, then?"

"His daughter's, I think."

"It is like her:  she is so good-natured."


Again came the blank of a pause:  the clock struck eight strokes.
It aroused him; he uncrossed his legs, sat erect, turned to me.

"Leave your book a moment, and come a little nearer the fire," he

Wondering, and of my wonder finding no end, I complied.

"Half-an-hour ago," he pursued, "I spoke of my impatience to hear
the sequel of a tale:  on reflection, I find the matter will be
better managed by my assuming the narrator's part, and converting
you into a listener.  Before commencing, it is but fair to warn you
that the story will sound somewhat hackneyed in your ears; but stale
details often regain a degree of freshness when they pass through
new lips.  For the rest, whether trite or novel, it is short.

"Twenty years ago, a poor curate--never mind his name at this
moment--fell in love with a rich man's daughter; she fell in love
with him, and married him, against the advice of all her friends,
who consequently disowned her immediately after the wedding.  Before
two years passed, the rash pair were both dead, and laid quietly
side by side under one slab.  (I have seen their grave; it formed
part of the pavement of a huge churchyard surrounding the grim,
soot-black old cathedral of an overgrown manufacturing town in -
shire.)  They left a daughter, which, at its very birth, Charity
received in her lap--cold as that of the snow-drift I almost stuck
fast in to-night.  Charity carried the friendless thing to the house
of its rich maternal relations; it was reared by an aunt-in-law,
called (I come to names now) Mrs. Reed of Gateshead.  You start--did
you hear a noise?  I daresay it is only a rat scrambling along the
rafters of the adjoining schoolroom:  it was a barn before I had it
repaired and altered, and barns are generally haunted by rats.--To
proceed.  Mrs. Reed kept the orphan ten years:  whether it was happy
or not with her, I cannot say, never having been told; but at the
end of that time she transferred it to a place you know--being no
other than Lowood School, where you so long resided yourself.  It
seems her career there was very honourable:  from a pupil, she
became a teacher, like yourself--really it strikes me there are
parallel points in her history and yours--she left it to be a
governess:  there, again, your fates were analogous; she undertook
the education of the ward of a certain Mr. Rochester."

"Mr. Rivers!" I interrupted.

"I can guess your feelings," he said, "but restrain them for a
while:  I have nearly finished; hear me to the end.  Of Mr.
Rochester's character I know nothing, but the one fact that he
professed to offer honourable marriage to this young girl, and that
at the very altar she discovered he had a wife yet alive, though a
lunatic.  What his subsequent conduct and proposals were is a matter
of pure conjecture; but when an event transpired which rendered
inquiry after the governess necessary, it was discovered she was
gone--no one could tell when, where, or how.  She had left
Thornfield Hall in the night; every research after her course had
been vain:  the country had been scoured far and wide; no vestige of
information could be gathered respecting her.  Yet that she should
be found is become a matter of serious urgency:  advertisements have
been put in all the papers; I myself have received a letter from one
Mr. Briggs, a solicitor, communicating the details I have just
imparted.  Is it not an odd tale?"

"Just tell me this," said I, "and since you know so much, you surely
can tell it me--what of Mr. Rochester?  How and where is he?  What
is he doing?  Is he well?"

"I am ignorant of all concerning Mr. Rochester:  the letter never
mentions him but to narrate the fraudulent and illegal attempt I
have adverted to.  You should rather ask the name of the governess--
the nature of the event which requires her appearance."

"Did no one go to Thornfield Hall, then?  Did no one see Mr.

"I suppose not."

"But they wrote to him?"

"Of course."

"And what did he say?  Who has his letters?"

"Mr. Briggs intimates that the answer to his application was not
from Mr. Rochester, but from a lady:  it is signed 'Alice Fairfax.'"

I felt cold and dismayed:  my worst fears then were probably true:
he had in all probability left England and rushed in reckless
desperation to some former haunt on the Continent.  And what opiate
for his severe sufferings--what object for his strong passions--had
he sought there?  I dared not answer the question.  Oh, my poor
master--once almost my husband--whom I had often called "my dear

"He must have been a bad man," observed Mr. Rivers.

"You don't know him--don't pronounce an opinion upon him," I said,
with warmth.

"Very well," he answered quietly:  "and indeed my head is otherwise
occupied than with him:  I have my tale to finish.  Since you won't
ask the governess's name, I must tell it of my own accord.  Stay!  I
have it here--it is always more satisfactory to see important points
written down, fairly committed to black and white."

And the pocket-book was again deliberately produced, opened, sought
through; from one of its compartments was extracted a shabby slip of
paper, hastily torn off:  I recognised in its texture and its stains
of ultra-marine, and lake, and vermillion, the ravished margin of
the portrait-cover.  He got up, held it close to my eyes:  and I
read, traced in Indian ink, in my own handwriting, the words "JANE
EYRE"--the work doubtless of some moment of abstraction.

"Briggs wrote to me of a Jane Eyre:" he said, "the advertisements
demanded a Jane Eyre:  I knew a Jane Elliott.--I confess I had my
suspicions, but it was only yesterday afternoon they were at once
resolved into certainty.  You own the name and renounce the alias?"

"Yes--yes; but where is Mr. Briggs?  He perhaps knows more of Mr.
Rochester than you do."

"Briggs is in London.  I should doubt his knowing anything at all
about Mr. Rochester; it is not in Mr. Rochester he is interested.
Meantime, you forget essential points in pursuing trifles:  you do
not inquire why Mr. Briggs sought after you--what he wanted with

"Well, what did he want?"

"Merely to tell you that your uncle, Mr. Eyre of Madeira, is dead;
that he has left you all his property, and that you are now rich--
merely that--nothing more."


"Yes, you, rich--quite an heiress."

Silence succeeded.

"You must prove your identity of course," resumed St. John
presently:  "a step which will offer no difficulties; you can then
enter on immediate possession.  Your fortune is vested in the
English funds; Briggs has the will and the necessary documents."

Here was a new card turned up!  It is a fine thing, reader, to be
lifted in a moment from indigence to wealth--a very fine thing; but
not a matter one can comprehend, or consequently enjoy, all at once.
And then there are other chances in life far more thrilling and
rapture-giving:  THIS is solid, an affair of the actual world,
nothing ideal about it:  all its associations are solid and sober,
and its manifestations are the same.  One does not jump, and spring,
and shout hurrah! at hearing one has got a fortune; one begins to
consider responsibilities, and to ponder business; on a base of
steady satisfaction rise certain grave cares, and we contain
ourselves, and blood over our bliss with a solemn brow.

Besides, the words Legacy, Bequest, go side by side with the words,
Death, Funeral.  My uncle I had heard was dead--my only relative;
ever since being made aware of his existence, I had cherished the
hope of one day seeing him:  now, I never should.  And then this
money came only to me:  not to me and a rejoicing family, but to my
isolated self.  It was a grand boon doubtless; and independence
would be glorious--yes, I felt that--that thought swelled my heart.

"You unbend your forehead at last," said Mr. Rivers.  "I thought
Medusa had looked at you, and that you were turning to stone.
Perhaps now you will ask how much you are worth?"

"How much am I worth?"

"Oh, a trifle!  Nothing of course to speak of--twenty thousand
pounds, I think they say--but what is that?"

"Twenty thousand pounds?"

Here was a new stunner--I had been calculating on four or five
thousand.  This news actually took my breath for a moment:  Mr. St.
John, whom I had never heard laugh before, laughed now.

"Well," said he, "if you had committed a murder, and I had told you
your crime was discovered, you could scarcely look more aghast."

"It is a large sum--don't you think there is a mistake?"

"No mistake at all."

"Perhaps you have read the figures wrong--it may be two thousand!"

"It is written in letters, not figures,--twenty thousand."

I again felt rather like an individual of but average gastronomical
powers sitting down to feast alone at a table spread with provisions
for a hundred.  Mr. Rivers rose now and put his cloak on.

"If it were not such a very wild night," he said, "I would send
Hannah down to keep you company:  you look too desperately miserable
to be left alone.  But Hannah, poor woman! could not stride the
drifts so well as I:  her legs are not quite so long:  so I must
e'en leave you to your sorrows.  Good-night."

He was lifting the latch:  a sudden thought occurred to me.  "Stop
one minute!" I cried.


"It puzzles me to know why Mr. Briggs wrote to you about me; or how
he knew you, or could fancy that you, living in such an out-of-the-
way place, had the power to aid in my discovery."

"Oh!  I am a clergyman," he said; "and the clergy are often appealed
to about odd matters."  Again the latch rattled.

"No; that does not satisfy me!" I exclaimed:  and indeed there was
something in the hasty and unexplanatory reply which, instead of
allaying, piqued my curiosity more than ever.

"It is a very strange piece of business," I added; "I must know more
about it."

"Another time."

"No; to-night!--to-night!" and as he turned from the door, I placed
myself between it and him.  He looked rather embarrassed.

"You certainly shall not go till you have told me all," I said.

"I would rather not just now."

"You shall!--you must!"

"I would rather Diana or Mary informed you."

Of course these objections wrought my eagerness to a climax:
gratified it must be, and that without delay; and I told him so.

"But I apprised you that I was a hard man," said he, "difficult to

"And I am a hard woman,--impossible to put off."

"And then," he pursued, "I am cold:  no fervour infects me."

"Whereas I am hot, and fire dissolves ice.  The blaze there has
thawed all the snow from your cloak; by the same token, it has
streamed on to my floor, and made it like a trampled street.  As you
hope ever to be forgiven, Mr. Rivers, the high crime and
misdemeanour of spoiling a sanded kitchen, tell me what I wish to

"Well, then," he said, "I yield; if not to your earnestness, to your
perseverance:  as stone is worn by continual dropping.  Besides, you
must know some day,--as well now as later.  Your name is Jane Eyre?"

"Of course:  that was all settled before."

"You are not, perhaps, aware that I am your namesake?--that I was
christened St. John Eyre Rivers?"

"No, indeed!  I remember now seeing the letter E. comprised in your
initials written in books you have at different times lent me; but I
never asked for what name it stood.  But what then?  Surely--"

I stopped:  I could not trust myself to entertain, much less to
express, the thought that rushed upon me--that embodied itself,--
that, in a second, stood out a strong, solid probability.
Circumstances knit themselves, fitted themselves, shot into order:
the chain that had been lying hitherto a formless lump of links was
drawn out straight,--every ring was perfect, the connection
complete.  I knew, by instinct, how the matter stood, before St.
John had said another word; but I cannot expect the reader to have
the same intuitive perception, so I must repeat his explanation.

"My mother's name was Eyre; she had two brothers; one a clergyman,
who married Miss Jane Reed, of Gateshead; the other, John Eyre,
Esq., merchant, late of Funchal, Madeira.  Mr. Briggs, being Mr.
Eyre's solicitor, wrote to us last August to inform us of our
uncle's death, and to say that he had left his property to his
brother the clergyman's orphan daughter, overlooking us, in
consequence of a quarrel, never forgiven, between him and my father.
He wrote again a few weeks since, to intimate that the heiress was
lost, and asking if we knew anything of her.  A name casually
written on a slip of paper has enabled me to find her out.  You know
the rest."  Again he was going, but I set my back against the door.

"Do let me speak," I said; "let me have one moment to draw breath
and reflect."  I paused--he stood before me, hat in hand, looking
composed enough.  I resumed -

"Your mother was my father's sister?"


"My aunt, consequently?"

He bowed.

"My uncle John was your uncle John?  You, Diana, and Mary are his
sister's children, as I am his brother's child?"


"You three, then, are my cousins; half our blood on each side flows
from the same source?"

"We are cousins; yes."

I surveyed him.  It seemed I had found a brother:  one I could be
proud of,--one I could love; and two sisters, whose qualities were
such, that, when I knew them but as mere strangers, they had
inspired me with genuine affection and admiration.  The two girls,
on whom, kneeling down on the wet ground, and looking through the
low, latticed window of Moor House kitchen, I had gazed with so
bitter a mixture of interest and despair, were my near kinswomen;
and the young and stately gentleman who had found me almost dying at
his threshold was my blood relation.  Glorious discovery to a lonely
wretch!  This was wealth indeed!--wealth to the heart!--a mine of
pure, genial affections.  This was a blessing, bright, vivid, and
exhilarating;--not like the ponderous gift of gold:  rich and
welcome enough in its way, but sobering from its weight.  I now
clapped my hands in sudden joy--my pulse bounded, my veins thrilled.

"Oh, I am glad!--I am glad!" I exclaimed.

St. John smiled.  "Did I not say you neglected essential points to
pursue trifles?" he asked.  "You were serious when I told you you
had got a fortune; and now, for a matter of no moment, you are

"What can you mean?  It may be of no moment to you; you have sisters
and don't care for a cousin; but I had nobody; and now three
relations,--or two, if you don't choose to be counted,--are born
into my world full-grown.  I say again, I am glad!"

I walked fast through the room:  I stopped, half suffocated with the
thoughts that rose faster than I could receive, comprehend, settle
them:- thoughts of what might, could, would, and should be, and that
ere long.  I looked at the blank wall:  it seemed a sky thick with
ascending stars,--every one lit me to a purpose or delight.  Those
who had saved my life, whom, till this hour, I had loved barrenly, I
could now benefit.  They were under a yoke,--I could free them:
they were scattered,--I could reunite them:  the independence, the
affluence which was mine, might be theirs too.  Were we not four?
Twenty thousand pounds shared equally would be five thousand each,
justice--enough and to spare:  justice would be done,--mutual
happiness secured.  Now the wealth did not weigh on me:  now it was
not a mere bequest of coin,--it was a legacy of life, hope,

How I looked while these ideas were taking my spirit by storm, I
cannot tell; but I perceived soon that Mr. Rivers had placed a chair
behind me, and was gently attempting to make me sit down on it.  He
also advised me to be composed; I scorned the insinuation of
helplessness and distraction, shook off his hand, and began to walk
about again.

"Write to Diana and Mary to-morrow," I said, "and tell them to come
home directly.  Diana said they would both consider themselves rich
with a thousand pounds, so with five thousand they will do very

"Tell me where I can get you a glass of water," said St. John; "you
must really make an effort to tranquillise your feelings."

"Nonsense! and what sort of an effect will the bequest have on you?
Will it keep you in England, induce you to marry Miss Oliver, and
settle down like an ordinary mortal?"

"You wander:  your head becomes confused.  I have been too abrupt in
communicating the news; it has excited you beyond your strength."

"Mr. Rivers! you quite put me out of patience:  I am rational
enough; it is you who misunderstand, or rather who affect to

"Perhaps, if you explained yourself a little more fully, I should
comprehend better."

"Explain!  What is there to explain?  You cannot fail to see that
twenty thousand pounds, the sum in question, divided equally between
the nephew and three nieces of our uncle, will give five thousand to
each?  What I want is, that you should write to your sisters and
tell them of the fortune that has accrued to them."

"To you, you mean."

"I have intimated my view of the case:  I am incapable of taking any
other.  I am not brutally selfish, blindly unjust, or fiendishly
ungrateful.  Besides, I am resolved I will have a home and
connections.  I like Moor House, and I will live at Moor House; I
like Diana and Mary, and I will attach myself for life to Diana and
Mary.  It would please and benefit me to have five thousand pounds;
it would torment and oppress me to have twenty thousand; which,
moreover, could never be mine in justice, though it might in law.  I
abandon to you, then, what is absolutely superfluous to me.  Let
there be no opposition, and no discussion about it; let us agree
amongst each other, and decide the point at once."

"This is acting on first impulses; you must take days to consider
such a matter, ere your word can be regarded as valid."

"Oh! if all you doubt is my sincerity, I am easy:  you see the
justice of the case?"

"I DO see a certain justice; but it is contrary to all custom.
Besides, the entire fortune is your right:  my uncle gained it by
his own efforts; he was free to leave it to whom he would:  he left
it to you.  After all, justice permits you to keep it:  you may,
with a clear conscience, consider it absolutely your own."

"With me," said I, "it is fully as much a matter of feeling as of
conscience:  I must indulge my feelings; I so seldom have had an
opportunity of doing so.  Were you to argue, object, and annoy me
for a year, I could not forego the delicious pleasure of which I
have caught a glimpse--that of repaying, in part, a mighty
obligation, and winning to myself lifelong friends."

"You think so now," rejoined St. John, "because you do not know what
it is to possess, nor consequently to enjoy wealth:  you cannot form
a notion of the importance twenty thousand pounds would give you; of
the place it would enable you to take in society; of the prospects
it would open to you:  you cannot--"

"And you," I interrupted, "cannot at all imagine the craving I have
for fraternal and sisterly love.  I never had a home, I never had
brothers or sisters; I must and will have them now:  you are not
reluctant to admit me and own me, are you?"

"Jane, I will be your brother--my sisters will be your sisters--
without stipulating for this sacrifice of your just rights."

"Brother?  Yes; at the distance of a thousand leagues!  Sisters?
Yes; slaving amongst strangers!  I, wealthy--gorged with gold I
never earned and do not merit!  You, penniless!  Famous equality and
fraternisation!  Close union!  Intimate attachment!"

"But, Jane, your aspirations after family ties and domestic
happiness may be realised otherwise than by the means you
contemplate:  you may marry."

"Nonsense, again!  Marry!  I don't want to marry, and never shall

"That is saying too much:  such hazardous affirmations are a proof
of the excitement under which you labour."

"It is not saying too much:  I know what I feel, and how averse are
my inclinations to the bare thought of marriage.  No one would take
me for love; and I will not be regarded in the light of a mere money
speculation.  And I do not want a stranger--unsympathising, alien,
different from me; I want my kindred:  those with whom I have full
fellow-feeling.  Say again you will be my brother:  when you uttered
the words I was satisfied, happy; repeat them, if you can, repeat
them sincerely."

"I think I can.  I know I have always loved my own sisters; and I
know on what my affection for them is grounded,--respect for their
worth and admiration of their talents.  You too have principle and
mind:  your tastes and habits resemble Diana's and Mary's; your
presence is always agreeable to me; in your conversation I have
already for some time found a salutary solace.  I feel I can easily
and naturally make room in my heart for you, as my third and
youngest sister."

"Thank you:  that contents me for to-night.  Now you had better go;
for if you stay longer, you will perhaps irritate me afresh by some
mistrustful scruple."

"And the school, Miss Eyre?  It must now be shut up, I suppose?"

"No.  I will retain my post of mistress till you get a substitute."

He smiled approbation:  we shook hands, and he took leave.

I need not narrate in detail the further struggles I had, and
arguments I used, to get matters regarding the legacy settled as I
wished.  My task was a very hard one; but, as I was absolutely
resolved--as my cousins saw at length that my mind was really and
immutably fixed on making a just division of the property--as they
must in their own hearts have felt the equity of the intention; and
must, besides, have been innately conscious that in my place they
would have done precisely what I wished to do--they yielded at
length so far as to consent to put the affair to arbitration.  The
judges chosen were Mr. Oliver and an able lawyer:  both coincided in
my opinion:  I carried my point.  The instruments of transfer were
drawn out:  St. John, Diana, Mary, and I, each became possessed of a

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