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Chapter 25


The month of courtship had wasted:  its very last hours were being
numbered.  There was no putting off the day that advanced--the
bridal day; and all preparations for its arrival were complete.  I,
at least, had nothing more to do:  there were my trunks, packed,
locked, corded, ranged in a row along the wall of my little chamber;
to-morrow, at this time, they would be far on their road to London:
and so should I (D.V.),--or rather, not I, but one Jane Rochester, a
person whom as yet I knew not.  The cards of address alone remained
to nail on:  they lay, four little squares, in the drawer.  Mr.
Rochester had himself written the direction, "Mrs. Rochester,--
Hotel, London," on each:  I could not persuade myself to affix them,
or to have them affixed.  Mrs. Rochester!  She did not exist:  she
would not be born till to-morrow, some time after eight o'clock
a.m.; and I would wait to be assured she had come into the world
alive before I assigned to her all that property.  It was enough
that in yonder closet, opposite my dressing-table, garments said to
be hers had already displaced my black stuff Lowood frock and straw
bonnet:  for not to me appertained that suit of wedding raiment; the
pearl-coloured robe, the vapoury veil pendent from the usurped
portmanteau.  I shut the closet to conceal the strange, wraith-like
apparel it contained; which, at this evening hour--nine o'clock--
gave out certainly a most ghostly shimmer through the shadow of my
apartment.  "I will leave you by yourself, white dream," I said.  "I
am feverish:  I hear the wind blowing:  I will go out of doors and
feel it."

It was not only the hurry of preparation that made me feverish; not
only the anticipation of the great change--the new life which was to
commence to-morrow:  both these circumstances had their share,
doubtless, in producing that restless, excited mood which hurried me
forth at this late hour into the darkening grounds:  but a third
cause influenced my mind more than they.

I had at heart a strange and anxious thought.  Something had
happened which I could not comprehend; no one knew of or had seen
the event but myself:  it had taken place the preceding night.  Mr.
Rochester that night was absent from home; nor was he yet returned:
business had called him to a small estate of two or three farms he
possessed thirty miles off--business it was requisite he should
settle in person, previous to his meditated departure from England.
I waited now his return; eager to disburthen my mind, and to seek of
him the solution of the enigma that perplexed me.  Stay till he
comes, reader; and, when I disclose my secret to him, you shall
share the confidence.

I sought the orchard, driven to its shelter by the wind, which all
day had blown strong and full from the south, without, however,
bringing a speck of rain.  Instead of subsiding as night drew on, it
seemed to augment its rush and deepen its roar:  the trees blew
steadfastly one way, never writhing round, and scarcely tossing back
their boughs once in an hour; so continuous was the strain bending
their branchy heads northward--the clouds drifted from pole to pole,
fast following, mass on mass:  no glimpse of blue sky had been
visible that July day.

It was not without a certain wild pleasure I ran before the wind,
delivering my trouble of mind to the measureless air-torrent
thundering through space.  Descending the laurel walk, I faced the
wreck of the chestnut-tree; it stood up black and riven:  the trunk,
split down the centre, gasped ghastly.  The cloven halves were not
broken from each other, for the firm base and strong roots kept them
unsundered below; though community of vitality was destroyed--the
sap could flow no more:  their great boughs on each side were dead,
and next winter's tempests would be sure to fell one or both to
earth:  as yet, however, they might be said to form one tree--a
ruin, but an entire ruin.

"You did right to hold fast to each other," I said:  as if the
monster-splinters were living things, and could hear me.  "I think,
scathed as you look, and charred and scorched, there must be a
little sense of life in you yet, rising out of that adhesion at the
faithful, honest roots:  you will never have green leaves more--
never more see birds making nests and singing idyls in your boughs;
the time of pleasure and love is over with you:  but you are not
desolate:  each of you has a comrade to sympathise with him in his
decay."  As I looked up at them, the moon appeared momentarily in
that part of the sky which filled their fissure; her disk was blood-
red and half overcast; she seemed to throw on me one bewildered,
dreary glance, and buried herself again instantly in the deep drift
of cloud.  The wind fell, for a second, round Thornfield; but far
away over wood and water, poured a wild, melancholy wail:  it was
sad to listen to, and I ran off again.

Here and there I strayed through the orchard, gathered up the apples
with which the grass round the tree roots was thickly strewn; then I
employed myself in dividing the ripe from the unripe; I carried them
into the house and put them away in the store-room.  Then I repaired
to the library to ascertain whether the fire was lit, for, though
summer, I knew on such a gloomy evening Mr. Rochester would like to
see a cheerful hearth when he came in:  yes, the fire had been
kindled some time, and burnt well.  I placed his arm-chair by the
chimney-corner:  I wheeled the table near it:  I let down the
curtain, and had the candles brought in ready for lighting.  More
restless than ever, when I had completed these arrangements I could
not sit still, nor even remain in the house:  a little time-piece in
the room and the old clock in the hall simultaneously struck ten.

"How late it grows!" I said.  "I will run down to the gates:  it is
moonlight at intervals; I can see a good way on the road.  He may be
coming now, and to meet him will save some minutes of suspense."

The wind roared high in the great trees which embowered the gates;
but the road as far as I could see, to the right hand and the left,
was all still and solitary:  save for the shadows of clouds crossing
it at intervals as the moon looked out, it was but a long pale line,
unvaried by one moving speck.

A puerile tear dimmed my eye while I looked--a tear of
disappointment and impatience; ashamed of it, I wiped it away.  I
lingered; the moon shut herself wholly within her chamber, and drew
close her curtain of dense cloud:  the night grew dark; rain came
driving fast on the gale.

"I wish he would come!  I wish he would come!" I exclaimed, seized
with hypochondriac foreboding.  I had expected his arrival before
tea; now it was dark:  what could keep him?  Had an accident
happened?  The event of last night again recurred to me.  I
interpreted it as a warning of disaster.  I feared my hopes were too
bright to be realised; and I had enjoyed so much bliss lately that I
imagined my fortune had passed its meridian, and must now decline.

"Well, I cannot return to the house," I thought; "I cannot sit by
the fireside, while he is abroad in inclement weather:  better tire
my limbs than strain my heart; I will go forward and meet him."

I set out; I walked fast, but not far:  ere I had measured a quarter
of a mile, I heard the tramp of hoofs; a horseman came on, full
gallop; a dog ran by his side.  Away with evil presentiment!  It was
he:  here he was, mounted on Mesrour, followed by Pilot.  He saw me;
for the moon had opened a blue field in the sky, and rode in it
watery bright:  he took his hat off, and waved it round his head.  I
now ran to meet him.

"There!" he exclaimed, as he stretched out his hand and bent from
the saddle:  "You can't do without me, that is evident.  Step on my
boot-toe; give me both hands:  mount!"

I obeyed:  joy made me agile:  I sprang up before him.  A hearty
kissing I got for a welcome, and some boastful triumph, which I
swallowed as well as I could.  He checked himself in his exultation
to demand, "But is there anything the matter, Janet, that you come
to meet me at such an hour?  Is there anything wrong?"

"No, but I thought you would never come.  I could not bear to wait
in the house for you, especially with this rain and wind."

"Rain and wind, indeed!  Yes, you are dripping like a mermaid; pull
my cloak round you:  but I think you are feverish, Jane:  both your
cheek and hand are burning hot.  I ask again, is there anything the

"Nothing now; I am neither afraid nor unhappy."

"Then you have been both?"

"Rather:  but I'll tell you all about it by-and-bye, sir; and I
daresay you will only laugh at me for my pains."

"I'll laugh at you heartily when to-morrow is past; till then I dare
not:  my prize is not certain.  This is you, who have been as
slippery as an eel this last month, and as thorny as a briar-rose?
I could not lay a finger anywhere but I was pricked; and now I seem
to have gathered up a stray lamb in my arms.  You wandered out of
the fold to seek your shepherd, did you, Jane?"

"I wanted you:  but don't boast.  Here we are at Thornfield:  now
let me get down."

He landed me on the pavement.  As John took his horse, and he
followed me into the hall, he told me to make haste and put
something dry on, and then return to him in the library; and he
stopped me, as I made for the staircase, to extort a promise that I
would not be long:  nor was I long; in five minutes I rejoined him.
I found him at supper.

"Take a seat and bear me company, Jane:  please God, it is the last
meal but one you will eat at Thornfield Hall for a long time."

I sat down near him, but told him I could not eat.  "Is it because
you have the prospect of a journey before you, Jane?  Is it the
thoughts of going to London that takes away your appetite?"

"I cannot see my prospects clearly to-night, sir; and I hardly know
what thoughts I have in my head.  Everything in life seems unreal."

"Except me:  I am substantial enough--touch me."

"You, sir, are the most phantom-like of all:  you are a mere dream."

He held out his hand, laughing.  "Is that a dream?" said he, placing
it close to my eyes.  He had a rounded, muscular, and vigorous hand,
as well as a long, strong arm.

"Yes; though I touch it, it is a dream," said I, as I put it down
from before my face.  "Sir, have you finished supper?"

"Yes, Jane."

I rang the bell and ordered away the tray.  When we were again
alone, I stirred the fire, and then took a low seat at my master's

"It is near midnight," I said.

"Yes:  but remember, Jane, you promised to wake with me the night
before my wedding."

"I did; and I will keep my promise, for an hour or two at least:  I
have no wish to go to bed."

"Are all your arrangements complete?"

"All, sir."

"And on my part likewise," he returned, "I have settled everything;
and we shall leave Thornfield to-morrow, within half-an-hour after
our return from church."

"Very well, sir."

"With what an extraordinary smile you uttered that word--'very
well,' Jane!  What a bright spot of colour you have on each cheek!
and how strangely your eyes glitter!  Are you well?"

"I believe I am."

"Believe!  What is the matter?  Tell me what you feel."

"I could not, sir:  no words could tell you what I feel.  I wish
this present hour would never end:  who knows with what fate the
next may come charged?"

"This is hypochondria, Jane.  You have been over-excited, or over-

"Do you, sir, feel calm and happy?"

"Calm?--no:  but happy--to the heart's core."

I looked up at him to read the signs of bliss in his face:  it was
ardent and flushed.

"Give me your confidence, Jane," he said:  "relieve your mind of any
weight that oppresses it, by imparting it to me.  What do you fear?-
-that I shall not prove a good husband?"

"It is the idea farthest from my thoughts."

"Are you apprehensive of the new sphere you are about to enter?--of
the new life into which you are passing?"


"You puzzle me, Jane:  your look and tone of sorrowful audacity
perplex and pain me.  I want an explanation."

"Then, sir, listen.  You were from home last night?"

"I was:  I know that; and you hinted a while ago at something which
had happened in my absence:- nothing, probably, of consequence; but,
in short, it has disturbed you.  Let me hear it.  Mrs. Fairfax has
said something, perhaps? or you have overheard the servants talk?--
your sensitive self-respect has been wounded?"

"No, sir."  It struck twelve--I waited till the time-piece had
concluded its silver chime, and the clock its hoarse, vibritting
stroke, and then I proceeded.

"All day yesterday I was very busy, and very happy in my ceaseless
bustle; for I am not, as you seem to think, troubled by any haunting
fears about the new sphere, et cetera:  I think it a glorious thing
to have the hope of living with you, because I love you.  No, sir,
don't caress me now--let me talk undisturbed.  Yesterday I trusted
well in Providence, and believed that events were working together
for your good and mine:  it was a fine day, if you recollect--the
calmness of the air and sky forbade apprehensions respecting your
safety or comfort on your journey.  I walked a little while on the
pavement after tea, thinking of you; and I beheld you in imagination
so near me, I scarcely missed your actual presence.  I thought of
the life that lay before me--YOUR life, sir--an existence more
expansive and stirring than my own:  as much more so as the depths
of the sea to which the brook runs are than the shallows of its own
strait channel.  I wondered why moralists call this world a dreary
wilderness:  for me it blossomed like a rose.  Just at sunset, the
air turned cold and the sky cloudy:  I went in, Sophie called me
upstairs to look at my wedding-dress, which they had just brought;
and under it in the box I found your present--the veil which, in
your princely extravagance, you sent for from London:  resolved, I
suppose, since I would not have jewels, to cheat me into accepting
something as costly.  I smiled as I unfolded it, and devised how I
would tease you about your aristocratic tastes, and your efforts to
masque your plebeian bride in the attributes of a peeress.  I though
how I would carry down to you the square of unembroidered blond I
had myself prepared as a covering for my low-born head, and ask if
that was not good enough for a woman who could bring her husband
neither fortune, beauty, nor connections.  I saw plainly how you
would look; and heard your impetuous republican answers, and your
haughty disavowal of any necessity on your part to augment your
wealth, or elevate your standing, by marrying either a purse or a

"How well you read me, you witch!" interposed Mr. Rochester:  "but
what did you find in the veil besides its embroidery?  Did you find
poison, or a dagger, that you look so mournful now?"

"No, no, sir; besides the delicacy and richness of the fabric, I
found nothing save Fairfax Rochester's pride; and that did not scare
me, because I am used to the sight of the demon.  But, sir, as it
grew dark, the wind rose:  it blew yesterday evening, not as it
blows now--wild and high--but 'with a sullen, moaning sound' far
more eerie.  I wished you were at home.  I came into this room, and
the sight of the empty chair and fireless hearth chilled me.  For
some time after I went to bed, I could not sleep--a sense of anxious
excitement distressed me.  The gale still rising, seemed to my ear
to muffle a mournful under-sound; whether in the house or abroad I
could not at first tell, but it recurred, doubtful yet doleful at
every lull; at last I made out it must be some dog howling at a
distance.  I was glad when it ceased.  On sleeping, I continued in
dreams the idea of a dark and gusty night.  I continued also the
wish to be with you, and experienced a strange, regretful
consciousness of some barrier dividing us.  During all my first
sleep, I was following the windings of an unknown road; total
obscurity environed me; rain pelted me; I was burdened with the
charge of a little child:  a very small creature, too young and
feeble to walk, and which shivered in my cold arms, and wailed
piteously in my ear.  I thought, sir, that you were on the road a
long way before me; and I strained every nerve to overtake you, and
made effort on effort to utter your name and entreat you to stop--
but my movements were fettered, and my voice still died away
inarticulate; while you, I felt, withdrew farther and farther every

"And these dreams weigh on your spirits now, Jane, when I am close
to you?  Little nervous subject!  Forget visionary woe, and think
only of real happiness!  You say you love me, Janet:  yes--I will
not forget that; and you cannot deny it.  THOSE words did not die
inarticulate on your lips.  I heard them clear and soft:  a thought
too solemn perhaps, but sweet as music--'I think it is a glorious
thing to have the hope of living with you, Edward, because I love
you.'  Do you love me, Jane?--repeat it."

"I do, sir--I do, with my whole heart."

"Well," he said, after some minutes' silence, "it is strange; but
that sentence has penetrated by breast painfully.  Why?  I think
because you said it with such an earnest, religious energy, and
because your upward gaze at me now is the very sublime of faith,
truth, and devotion:  it is too much as if some spirit were near me.
Look wicked, Jane:  as you know well how to look:  coin one of your
wild, shy, provoking smiles; tell me you hate me--tease me, vex me;
do anything but move me:  I would rather be incensed than saddened."

"I will tease you and vex you to your heart's content, when I have
finished my tale:  but hear me to the end."

"I thought, Jane, you had told me all.  I thought I had found the
source of your melancholy in a dream."

I shook my head.  "What! is there more?  But I will not believe it
to be anything important.  I warn you of incredulity beforehand.  Go

The disquietude of his air, the somewhat apprehensive impatience of
his manner, surprised me:  but I proceeded.

"I dreamt another dream, sir:  that Thornfield Hall was a dreary
ruin, the retreat of bats and owls.  I thought that of all the
stately front nothing remained but a shell-like wall, very high and
very fragile-looking.  I wandered, on a moonlight night, through the
grass-grown enclosure within:  here I stumbled over a marble hearth,
and there over a fallen fragment of cornice.  Wrapped up in a shawl,
I still carried the unknown little child:  I might not lay it down
anywhere, however tired were my arms--however much its weight
impeded my progress, I must retain it.  I heard the gallop of a
horse at a distance on the road; I was sure it was you; and you were
departing for many years and for a distant country.  I climbed the
thin wall with frantic perilous haste, eager to catch one glimpse of
you from the top:  the stones rolled from under my feet, the ivy
branches I grasped gave way, the child clung round my neck in
terror, and almost strangled me; at last I gained the summit.  I saw
you like a speck on a white track, lessening every moment.  The
blast blew so strong I could not stand.  I sat down on the narrow
ledge; I hushed the scared infant in my lap:  you turned an angle of
the road:  I bent forward to take a last look; the wall crumbled; I
was shaken; the child rolled from my knee, I lost my balance, fell,
and woke."

"Now, Jane, that is all."

"All the preface, sir; the tale is yet to come.  On waking, a gleam
dazzled my eyes; I thought--Oh, it is daylight!  But I was mistaken;
it was only candlelight.  Sophie, I supposed, had come in.  There
was a light in the dressing-table, and the door of the closet,
where, before going to bed, I had hung my wedding-dress and veil,
stood open; I heard a rustling there.  I asked, 'Sophie, what are
you doing?'  No one answered; but a form emerged from the closet; it
took the light, held it aloft, and surveyed the garments pendent
from the portmanteau.  'Sophie!  Sophie!'  I again cried:  and still
it was silent.  I had risen up in bed, I bent forward:  first
surprise, then bewilderment, came over me; and then my blood crept
cold through my veins.  Mr. Rochester, this was not Sophie, it was
not Leah, it was not Mrs. Fairfax:  it was not--no, I was sure of
it, and am still--it was not even that strange woman, Grace Poole."

"It must have been one of them," interrupted my master.

"No, sir, I solemnly assure you to the contrary.  The shape standing
before me had never crossed my eyes within the precincts of
Thornfield Hall before; the height, the contour were new to me."

"Describe it, Jane."

"It seemed, sir, a woman, tall and large, with thick and dark hair
hanging long down her back.  I know not what dress she had on:  it
was white and straight; but whether gown, sheet, or shroud, I cannot

"Did you see her face?"

"Not at first.  But presently she took my veil from its place; she
held it up, gazed at it long, and then she threw it over her own
head, and turned to the mirror.  At that moment I saw the reflection
of the visage and features quite distinctly in the dark oblong

"And how were they?"

"Fearful and ghastly to me--oh, sir, I never saw a face like it!  It
was a discoloured face--it was a savage face.  I wish I could forget
the roll of the red eyes and the fearful blackened inflation of the

"Ghosts are usually pale, Jane."

"This, sir, was purple:  the lips were swelled and dark; the brow
furrowed:  the black eyebrows widely raised over the bloodshot eyes.
Shall I tell you of what it reminded me?"

"You may."

"Of the foul German spectre--the Vampyre."

"Ah!--what did it do?"

"Sir, it removed my veil from its gaunt head, rent it in two parts,
and flinging both on the floor, trampled on them."


"It drew aside the window-curtain and looked out; perhaps it saw
dawn approaching, for, taking the candle, it retreated to the door.
Just at my bedside, the figure stopped:  the fiery eyes glared upon
me--she thrust up her candle close to my face, and extinguished it
under my eyes.  I was aware her lurid visage flamed over mine, and I
lost consciousness:  for the second time in my life--only the second
time--I became insensible from terror."

"Who was with you when you revived?"

"No one, sir, but the broad day.  I rose, bathed my head and face in
water, drank a long draught; felt that though enfeebled I was not
ill, and determined that to none but you would I impart this vision.
Now, sir, tell me who and what that woman was?"

"The creature of an over-stimulated brain; that is certain.  I must
be careful of you, my treasure:  nerves like yours were not made for
rough handling."

"Sir, depend on it, my nerves were not in fault; the thing was real:
the transaction actually took place."

"And your previous dreams, were they real too?  Is Thornfield Hall a
ruin?  Am I severed from you by insuperable obstacles?  Am I leaving
you without a tear--without a kiss--without a word?"

"Not yet."

"Am I about to do it?  Why, the day is already commenced which is to
bind us indissolubly; and when we are once united, there shall be no
recurrence of these mental terrors:  I guarantee that."

"Mental terrors, sir!  I wish I could believe them to be only such:
I wish it more now than ever; since even you cannot explain to me
the mystery of that awful visitant."

"And since I cannot do it, Jane, it must have been unreal."

"But, sir, when I said so to myself on rising this morning, and when
I looked round the room to gather courage and comfort from the
cheerful aspect of each familiar object in full daylight, there--on
the carpet--I saw what gave the distinct lie to my hypothesis,--the
veil, torn from top to bottom in two halves!"

I felt Mr. Rochester start and shudder; he hastily flung his arms
round me.  "Thank God!" he exclaimed, "that if anything malignant
did come near you last night, it was only the veil that was harmed.
Oh, to think what might have happened!"

He drew his breath short, and strained me so close to him, I could
scarcely pant.  After some minutes' silence, he continued, cheerily

"Now, Janet, I'll explain to you all about it.  It was half dream,
half reality.  A woman did, I doubt not, enter your room:  and that
woman was--must have been--Grace Poole.  You call her a strange
being yourself:  from all you know, you have reason so to call her--
what did she do to me? what to Mason?  In a state between sleeping
and waking, you noticed her entrance and her actions; but feverish,
almost delirious as you were, you ascribed to her a goblin
appearance different from her own:  the long dishevelled hair, the
swelled black face, the exaggerated stature, were figments of
imagination; results of nightmare:  the spiteful tearing of the veil
was real:  and it is like her.  I see you would ask why I keep such
a woman in my house:  when we have been married a year and a day, I
will tell you; but not now.  Are you satisfied, Jane?  Do you accept
my solution of the mystery?"

I reflected, and in truth it appeared to me the only possible one:
satisfied I was not, but to please him I endeavoured to appear so--
relieved, I certainly did feel; so I answered him with a contented
smile.  And now, as it was long past one, I prepared to leave him.

"Does not Sophie sleep with Adele in the nursery?" he asked, as I
lit my candle.

"Yes, sir."

"And there is room enough in Adele's little bed for you.  You must
share it with her to-night, Jane:  it is no wonder that the incident
you have related should make you nervous, and I would rather you did
not sleep alone:  promise me to go to the nursery."

"I shall be very glad to do so, sir."

"And fasten the door securely on the inside.  Wake Sophie when you
go upstairs, under pretence of requesting her to rouse you in good
time to-morrow; for you must be dressed and have finished breakfast
before eight.  And now, no more sombre thoughts:  chase dull care
away, Janet.  Don't you hear to what soft whispers the wind has
fallen? and there is no more beating of rain against the window-
panes:  look here" (he lifted up the curtain)--"it is a lovely

It was.  Half heaven was pure and stainless:  the clouds, now
trooping before the wind, which had shifted to the west, were filing
off eastward in long, silvered columns.  The moon shone peacefully.

"Well," said Mr. Rochester, gazing inquiringly into my eyes, "how is
my Janet now?"

"The night is serene, sir; and so am I."

"And you will not dream of separation and sorrow to-night; but of
happy love and blissful union."

This prediction was but half fulfilled:  I did not indeed dream of
sorrow, but as little did I dream of joy; for I never slept at all.
With little Adele in my arms, I watched the slumber of childhood--so
tranquil, so passionless, so innocent--and waited for the coming
day:  all my life was awake and astir in my frame:  and as soon as
the sun rose I rose too.  I remember Adele clung to me as I left
her:  I remember I kissed her as I loosened her little hands from my
neck; and I cried over her with strange emotion, and quitted her
because I feared my sobs would break her still sound repose.  She
seemed the emblem of my past life; and he I was now to array myself
to meet, the dread, but adored, type of my unknown future day.

Charlotte Bronte