day in a life

I am a very selfish person when it comes to my son. I had to kick myself today when I realized this. I try to find fun stuff for us to do after school so he won't be bored and ask to go visit someone. He has two good friends and they are very sweet boys and their parents are great. They encourage the boys to play together as much as possible. I never suggest it to my boy that maybe he should go visit a friend, if he asks I of course let him if possible and when they call him I say yes of course but I don't encourage it cause I want him to be at home with me as much as possible. He is like me in many ways and doesn't like to much action and enjoys playing with Lego or drawing so I encourage that cause these things I can do with him.

as a kid I never had that many friends, there was always one or maybe two and I often preferred to stay in my room doing things on my own. Well today I missed a call from his friends mom and when I saw she had called my first thought was to stay quiet, then I kicked myself and called her back cause he wanted of course to play with his friend I know that I am just selfish and needy....

Now my birthday was yesterday and it was OK. I went to school and none of my friends remembered.... I don't like my birthday but it's kinda worse when people don't even remember it. they knew when it was cause just two weeks ago we had been talking about it, I blame Facebook cause it reminds people about these things. I don't have FB so nobody gets a reminder and that 'forces' people to remember on their own and that can be hard in todays world. Anyway I didn't say anything and I didn't say anything today neither. when one girl in this 'group' had a birthday about 3 weeks ago everybody of course remembered, we even bought her a little cake. I am not being bitter, honest just pointing out that they did remember her birthday and did something for her to celebrate.

but that doesn't matter I prefer the birthday wishes I get here anyway, I atleast feel like I am more honest here then with them so it may be better. the only problem is that they are in the 'real world'...

I had dinner with my family and that was nice and then I went home to watch the season two premier of Game of thrones and that really was the only thing I wanted to do on my birthday.