
Originally Posted by
Whifflingpin
In the following, Dori, I am making some totally unwarranted assumptions - if I make sense, then good, if not then ignore me.
"I generally hold people of genuine faith in high regard, for some reason or another."
I would say that there is no intrinsic merit in faith, or belief. It is the behaviour that arises from that belief that matters, at least to other humans. For example, the faith that inspired Francis of Assissi was the same that inspired Torquemada, and both held that faith equally deeply. God may judge them to be both the same, who knows? I would admire St Francis, but would hold Torquemada in very low esteem.
"It's difficult for me to fathom how I, at one point in time, was actually a Christian."
As a child you believed what you were told by people whom you trusted. How could you not?
"I miss my former self. Those were the good ol' days "
They were days of certainty, when you accepted the beliefs of those around you and felt a strong sense of belonging. Once you start to question those beliefs, you are on your own, with no certainties and with divisions from those close to you whom you have been brought up to love and respect. This is not comfortable.
"(these days are also good, but in a different way, if that makes sense)."
Of course it makes sense. It's good to be secure and accepted, but it is also good, and even necessary, to break away from security and test alternatives.
Don't hang on to a belief that no longer makes any sense to you, and don't feel bad about abandoning such a belief.
On the other hand, if there is something you feel you ought to believe, but don't, then act as if you believed it. "La coeur a ses raisons que la raison ne connait pas" Sometimes the heart grasps a truth that the brain cannot. Behave as if you believe, and then either the belief will come or you will see that the belief is simply wrong.