He collected 45's until he found the 78's.
Arranging reunions in school halls
with wine in plastic cups, beer bellies,
bald heads, banners, balloons
and self loathing.
He bought toys, scalextric, meccano,
corgi racers and plastic tracks.
On wet sundays he roasted lunch
basking in gravy and chicken
and the steamed up windows
of his youth.
Friends slowly drifted away
tired of 'back then'
and 'do you remember when?'
In afternoons he lowered shades
watched monochrome movies
smiling sadly
in the flickering grey.
One Sunday, after lunch
he drove to the wood
to a tree he once climbed
scraping skin, ripping clothes
in the sweat of middle age
he failed to reach those heights.
Returning home he bathed
his cuts and humiliation
fell to bed
and a fevered sleep.
He awoke to a familiar scent
his mother's prescence beside him.
He clung to her maternity
while she caressed his fevered brow.
Slipping under musty sheets
between his mothers knees
undoing time and age
until newborn, slickly wet
and crying to return.
Her loving hands guided him home
to her womb.
