What are you thinking now?

Var, what a hell of a place! :( I wish I could help you! Pity I'm totally broke myself. I can understand the family thing, pretty much like mine too. One can't count on relatives at all :frown2:

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Originally Posted by Varenne Rodin

I am on the verge of prostitution or suicide. I just want to get the hell out of here now.

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Don't fall in that pit. Be strong! http://fc01.deviantart.net/fs12/i/20..._by_cindre.gif

Maybe I should get dressed

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Originally Posted by Varenne Rodin

115 degree heat in the summer. Power outages at least once a week. No AC. Freezing winters. I get snowed in for weeks at a time. The county doesn't plow the roads to my house. I can't hire a private plow because they say the roads are too steep and uneven. Power is almost always out in winter and I have no fireplace. The heater stopped working and no one will come out this far to fix it and it doesn't work in the outages anyway. My neighbors are insane. One man walks around at all hours of the day and night shouting about being near to killing someone with a shotgun. The nearest hospital is an hour away. This is an area prone to wildfires. I get evacuated multiple times a year because lightning and people keep setting the forest on fire. Now there are issues with the water being contaminated so I have to use bottled water for absolutely everything that requires water. I'm tired. I want to leave. I have a $2200 deposit on this place, but I can't raise the $2,000 or so I need to move out so I can then get that $2200 back. My bills cost more than that just to survive out here. My family doesn't seem to understand the horror of this situation. I have lent them tens of thousands of dollars over the years, but now no one will give me a loan. I have even offered to pay them back $500 up and over whatever they loan me by December. Pretty nice Christmas present, but they say no. I can't do another winter here. I almost died last year. I am listing all of my art for sale, but I only have internet for short bursts here and there because the only internet out here is satellite. I am on the verge of prostitution or suicide. I just want to get the hell out of here now.

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Don't let the bastards grind you down

I am glad her bus arrived.

I kinda wonder if I'm spending too much time on the internet if

this:

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Originally Posted by Volya

I am glad her bus arrived.

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makes me think of that: http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/PutOnABus

Thank you, Max and Mick. Friendly words really help. It'll be ok somehow. Luck can change.

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Originally Posted by Themis

I kinda wonder if I'm spending too much time on the internet if

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makes me think of that: http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/PutOnABus

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Nothing like that lol

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Originally Posted by Themis

I kinda wonder if I'm spending too much time on the internet if

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makes me think of that: http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/PutOnABus

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TVTropes! =D

mujhe sab hai yaad zara zara. tumhain yaad ho ke na yaad ho!

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Originally Posted by SkyCetacean

TVTropes! =D

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Ah, a fellow addict? ;-)

@Volya: Thought so! But thanks for clearing it up.

@Pensive: What are you saying? I want to know, please!

I don't sleep now. I want to. It doesn't happen. How long does it take for sleep deprivation to kill a person?

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Originally Posted by Varenne Rodin

I don't sleep now. I want to. It doesn't happen. How long does it take for sleep deprivation to kill a person?

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Hi Varenne what time is it now where you are?

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Originally Posted by cacian

Hi Varenne what time is it now where you are?

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It's 5:12AM. I have been awake in my bed in the dark all night. Every night. I don't know how many days this has been. I haven't slept much at all in many months. Ten minutes every couple of days or so. It is making me very unwell, I fear.

...what time is it in London, Cacian?

I didn't know Cacian was a time of day... In London it's 13:21