Originally Posted by
JBI
She voluntarily sees herself as weak and plain and unlovable as a means of justifying her petty existence, and creating a reason for self-pity. Her notions of her own plainess are used by her to deprecate herself, and therefore justify her own self loathing. Yes, I would call that self-torture, especially when it gets mixed up with the obscure romance, of which she can never feel herself capable of being loved, or being worth notice. I believe the Torcher instead of torture was a typo when I guess I wasn't thinking - sorry for the mistake. I must have been preoccupied with the books ending, and trying to add that to my argument, and had missed the fact that I substituted the homophone in there.