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Its one thing to go through heartbreak and anxiety and suicidal thoughts. Its entirely another to go through them as a favoured item of local, almost regional gossip. Just because of my looks and my art I am now known as the guy who went through said heartbreak, said anxiety and said brush with wanting to die.
Thank you community for not respecting my privacy. Thank you for making me known as a disaster. It is really helping now that I'm trying to put the pieces of my life back together.
^- Some of us attract gossip as if we were magnets. One should expect no mercy from the thereabouts and the hereabouts.
September's near. Not the best month around, but it's in every year and one has to go through it in the clashing rays of the burning sundowns
The fall is a better time for me. Plus my best friend is due to return from his long absence.Quote:
Originally Posted by Maximilianus
When enough people lie about you and misunderstand you it sometimes gets hard to know who you are and to understand yourself. I'm not sure if that makes sense to anyone, but its something I grapple with.
Its hard to accept myself when so many other people do not accept me.
I am thinking how ugly and derelict those statues of people wherever they are end up looking after they have been exposed to the element.
Rust dirt and birds waste. Not a very nice site.
Statues? I know people who look like that
Do you.:yawnb:Quote:
Originally Posted by MystyrMystyry
Yes, because they work. The mechanics and truckies are covered in oil and rust. The gardeners are covered in mud and dirt. The zookeepers are covered in all sorts of animal and bird sh*t.
Do you know anyone who works?
I think so yes but the difference is that a statue is put and a person 'worker' isn't.Quote:
Originally Posted by MystyrMystyry
One moves and the other doesn't.
Quantum Physics. Do you know it?
Yes'm. Do the electrons vibrating in the atoms count as movement, or not? If they do, then statues move surely? And also the Earth is in spinning motion and orbiting around the sun in a galaxy that's moving through the universe at astronomical speed, and the statues are on the Earth so therefore the difference in movement between the workers and statues is completely negligible?
Thats it - I'm going to be a statue!
They can move...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OUoYrJvtGBc
This has led me to what I'm thinking now.
The moving rocks of Death Valley:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u1hoiHvOeGc
What have you just subjected me to Gilliatt!? How am I going to get to sleep now having to think about that!?
Let's add one more to your sheep counting and I'll leave it at that.
In the movie "Spirit of St. Louis" movie, Jimmy Stewart (A former pilot himself - flew B-17's in WWII) notices a fly in the cockpit and wonders if the fly adds to the weight of the aircraft as it flies about inside the plane.
It does happen that way. They make you believe they know you better than you know yourself and they often succeed because one allows it. It's a sort of legal social brainwash against which developing a carapace is fundamental; something easier said than done.Quote:
Originally Posted by Darcy88
@ Darcy- I can understand because that's happened to someone in my family. It is extremely painful and disturbing even to see this. Some people suggest to ignore those malicious voices; as if you really can. Nonsense! So I've learned from that experience that if you want to stay who you are and to understand yourself, you've to express yourself, talk about yourself, counter their rumors with truth. It's not easy but a slow healing process. You can't change everyone's mind but some will surely come to understand you.
Are you? LOL :lol:Quote:
Originally Posted by MystyrMystyry
Oh no but why?!! LOL
Ok why does one count sheep before going to sleep?
Why not goats or chicken?
You make good points. But I'm non-confrontational, and so I just let them go on spouting rumours. Now people know I have issues with dark suicidal thoughts they might shut up out of pity, but I doubt it. Most people see weakness and pounce like rabid dogs.Quote:
Originally Posted by aliengirl
Thank you for caring.
Darcy man, keep up the struggle! I like to say-keep on keepin' on. No one to take care of us except ourselves... and all the usual BS that goes with this.
Despite tomorrow being the last day before school starts, everything is super! (And I mean that with a Jim Carey exhalation.)
I will miss them when they are gone.
Is water mixed with wine still wine?
Yes. It's called watery wine, or wet wine in the vernacular.
Also I didn't turn into a statue, but I certainly slept like a log. At least I did until I woke up and realised I was still asleep.
Flies On A Flyer? Sounds like a scary movie indeed...
Watery wine and not winy water oh good :lol:Quote:
Originally Posted by MystyrMystyry
Mystyr haha I am glad you are not a statue and I never thought you were either ;)
Scary movie never heard of it not that I understand the title either.
What does a fly on a flyer mean?
A flie hovering on a saucer?
Oh and what do you call white wine mixed with red? not a combo right?
Pink wine.
the Flyer thing was due to Gilliatt's post.
Grrr,its time to get up.
Hehe here is something I have thought about
Mentally how long is a piece of string?
In other words can one say how long is a number mentally.
I have to study :banghead:
Welcome.Quote:
Originally Posted by Darcy88
Nice observation. Adding it to my quote bag. Actually the family member whom I mentioned is non-confrontational and I had to speak up for her. It's earned me a few nicknames but she is more important. Over the years she has changed and has learned to speak out.
BTW, I'm very happy today. Had a great time at my friend's wedding, got a book I was looking for (from an unlikely source), and an old friend sent me a very sweet note. This was a GREAT day. :)
I love how there are kind people everywhere. I know this sound silly, but I'm glad for every nice person I encounter.
Aw that's sweet! I'm thinking how much longer do I have to drink vegetable juice :flare:Quote:
Originally Posted by Themis
Just when I think life can't get worse, cancer strikes my family, and then my brother gets evicted from the place he's been at for 7 years.
Football soccer the same and different.
After going through some difficult times I feel very calm and cheerful. I'm grateful for FN. She has become the guiding star of my life.
Is there a better film for all the family than Babe? I don't think so.
I might die today. I'm working way too hard and too fast. Have been for ages. Writing this on my iPhone, in the loo. If today doesn't kill me, then I'll never die from work-related stress.
How ironical that yesterday I was so cheerful and today was one of the saddest day of my life. I keep losing those whom I love. I wonder is death jealous of me?
Life is a journey?
Who said?
I thougt life was a game and easy ride you get on get off chill then do it again.
A jouney sounds tiresome!
Why doesn't The Wheel appear in nature?
The Wheel? Which one?Quote:
Originally Posted by prendrelemick
Not the Fortune one I hope.
Insurgency is it as a result of a state being reconized through the united nations.
In other words no recognition of state no insurgency of it any kind.
How can I scrap 100 pages of my novel? But alas, it must be done.