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Impetied from the inside.
Peaceful . . .
trapped in that unbearable moment before an anxiety crisis explodes...
Had a wonderful day to myself which has not happened in years guess I should do it more often. Hope you are over the anxiety Keltic Banshee! If not hope it passes soon.
....Tranquil(I feel I'm improving and slowly getting better):)..and thanks for your kind wishes Ancestor;)
Smilie had too much sugar today and tommorow Im going away for two days for the first time TOTALLY alone.isnt that great?? :D
its my birthday gift to myself .... :banana:
Still gests at home and more are coming today. I feel pressur and duty coming.
@Night: Where are you going?
Ad Topic: I am feelind tired. And itchy ... somehow
Oh, that seems to be beautiful!
useless and unmotivated and a bit frustrated...and most of all wasted and wasting.
Thanks for the best wishes...Quote:
Originally Posted by Ancestor
As for how I feel today... slowly getting over too many things... still feeling about to explode, but... slowly getting over it...
Excitedly and nervously in deep anticipation . . .
Inspiered but to do what Im not sure?
now bored depressed and guilty and wanting...what i can't have
Content with doing nothing at all, at the moment .. well, more like too lazy to do anything, so, somehow content with it...
useless, anxious, sleepy for having slept very little cos of depressive thoughts. it had been a while since it last happened, and in a way it was so familiar... but unproductive anyway.
feeling fine today. had a very peaceful weekend, but was very anxious to come at work and see what's new here at the forum. missed you guys.... :)
eheh kaltrina you're addicted already....
im feeling a bit better now, solved one thing... but still when i'll turn off the pc I'll feel useless and unproductive again cos im not going on with my work...nor with my life...
oh Koa there are some times when I feel like that too, in fact not some times, but very often... for example whenever I think about my exams, I feel like a big nothing, because I don't have enough time to study, but I always tend to look at the bright side. and I'm sure everything you think is not going to good, is only in your head. try to look at the bright side or maybe from another point of view as if those weren't your problems or difficulties and u'll feel more calmed. at least I think you will.... :D
yeah i know infact i feel much better than one year ago... but i have this paper to write and i just can't, cos i get so distracted... and i want to find a job but first i want my paper to be almost ready cos i want to graduate in november...i have less than 2 months to write it... so i never know if i should stay and stare the pc and try to write or go out and look for a job (and i dont know what i want to do but i dont want to study anymore so i must find something to do)... and this all makes me feel like i dont have a life... plus another thing which i dont want to talk about again cos it's stupid but sometimes it's really bad....
:mad:
drowning in my own self, despite all my efforts to simply float until I find a way to get myself out of this mess... I feel like shouting "a couple" (ok, a couple hundreds of dozens would be closer) of "not nice but true things" to someone who doesn't even listen to me... I feel like... I feel like I want to be myself again, but I can't find how to, because I forgot who I am... anyone else for "Depressed and Lost Anonymous"?
sick from allergies i now have a cough and sore throat and my first exam in statastics is tonight and i feel like crap i emailed her trying to get out of it but i dont know yet
Busy, busy, busy getting prepared for school, and very hungry. :p
Koa and Keltic Banshee I know how hard it is to shake feelings of depression. It is a hard road to walk and not everyone can understand that but know you do not walk that road alone. I have more good days then days but I still struggle with it each day. You both opened up here and that is a good small step believe it or not. Anytime you two need to talk I am and others here will listen to you anytime. Do not know if I can help but my shoulders are free anytime. Hang in there and I shall send out positive thoughts for you two to feel better. :)
@Ancestor: thanks for your post ;-) Positive thinking much appreciated, as right now I find it pretty hard to be positive myself (though I keep trying, when I remember to do so...)
Regarding how I feel today... still sleepy, and that seems to be my best mood of the day... *yaaaaaaaaaawn*
you know I feel really melancholic today but as I was checking my e-mail I saw that a friend had sent me a small story about a blind woman who was always happy and when they told her something she was happy before she new the end of it, and when they asked her why is she so happy , she said that she chooses every morning how will her mood be all day long and she almost always chooses happines. and that is true...although we feel down it is us who can make that better... and I will try to do that, so should you Keltic and Koa....always here to listen... :D
Dreamy(it's night here so I'm going to bed to sleep soon)..Goodnight everyone!:)
I am feeling happy. :) Mainly because I think it's going to start raining soon and the air is already full of that smell (err... the wet smell... smell of rain.... I have no idea how to say this). I just really like that kind of smell.
Full of anticipation . . .
Was still down today... felt better after some shopping with my mum, but now I have that old thing called envy making me :mad: again
i know how you feel koa last weekend i went shopping for clothes and had to get yet another bigger size so i decided to go on a diet yet again. i wish i was little again. :( i miss being small and petite and wearing whatever i wanted. i guess we should accept ourselves for who we are koa its probably for the best :)
Excited! :)
tierd too tierd to stay on I should have kept to my intentions and not come on till tommorrow bye :wave:
downwinded...as in downwind of the outhouse
lol how I wish I was small... but in my case there's no diet or anything cos I'll always be bigger than a small girl, in height and structure :DQuote:
Originally Posted by shortysweetp
Btw I wasnt even referring to that this time but yeah I wasnt clear...nevermind.
As for me today... just normal, a bit worried about how to get my life on the right track but at least today I DID something about it so I need a couple of days of uselesness before I feel depressed again LOL ;)
Full of questions..
Confuzzled... hell of a lot confuzzled...
Happy and chearfull.
happy but tired. I'm busy packing, for two reasons a) I'm moving into my own place. b) I'm going to London in a few days.... good things happening.