Cheers, amigo. Here's to being losers.
The upshot is that this reader probably wouldn't trade. That is, if every element within a person precariously comes together to make the person who she or he is, like a walker on a tightrope, and there's a risk of losing some essential 'person-ness' by lack of the smallest part...
Well, there have been experiences and there is a vision of living that this reader wouldn't want to give up.
"The path to salvation is narrow and as difficult to walk as a razor's edge."
-W. Somerset Maugham
... taking salvation in a non traditional sense, anyways. More aesthetic than deontological.
J