It IS lovely, isn't it? It is why we (?) write poetry, I think: to say things that might be too painful to say otherwise. Thank you for your caring, but as Afro-Americans discovered long ago via the blues and their Spirituals, writing or singing about pain alleviates it, as if to assert that one has not been destroyed by it.
Do you know, for instance
Sometimes I feel like a motherless child
I'm goingto tell God all my troubles
Another Man done Gone
sung (my preference) either by Paul Robeson or Odetta