In memory of my true angel "Rachel"
To write, how I would like to; to describe, how I would love to; to tell, so I can inform you; to speack, I'm impotant to do so. Why has been the question; why was the question; why is always the question that many would like to find an answer to. Why I can't do so is still a "why" without a reason; why I live far appart from those I love is still unanswered; and why Rachel has left us is still a mistery not solved.
Here is astory dear friend of a woman. A woman? And how can be there a story without a woman in it? Yes, there always be a woman in a story to call it a story. Are not they history in themselves? I believe they are. Don't you agree? As you wish, each has his or her opinion and we are not here to argue. We are here to ... ah the story!
It began in the past, and ended in the past. It starts with pain and ends with pain. It was a long time ago when a young man came across a beautiful lady. Beautiful! Oh yes, very. Her beauty can't be compared to any beauty for each has its beauty. Her beauty can only be seen by those who ever met her soul, who ever talked to her and who ever has been charmed and healed by the power that God bestowed on her, the power to heal and strenthen weak helpless souls of those like the man I was talking about. He was very weak indeed. He was bailing for help, for mercy, for someone to take him far from his suffering, and trusted that there would be no such a person. In short, he didn't believe in miracales. Do you? If not, then you are like this man. He believed that there was no place safe for him in this world except a grave where he would lie forever. Helpless, he was all but alive. Then, as I told you, he met this beautiful lady that had that angelic power of healing. She told him that she would heal him and in her heart welcome him to live forever in peace and joy. She told him that she would end his suffering and make of him a happy man forever. He didn't trust a word of her and laughed at her as would anyone who does not believe in miracales. But in a moment he was transformed to a tiny man and, though he could not believe his eyes, saw a light coming out of the chest of that angelic woman. It was a door opened to welcome him in that paradise where he found many people like him merry and leading a happy life. It was a paradise, it was beyound what he could imagine. How I'd love to describe it to you but I've not been there yet, so I have no idea how it looks like.
The hapiest of men he was, the sad of women she was. I know that you would ask me how such a woman is sad? It's so because even she could heal, all people's burden she carry. All those she saved and took off their misery, it was upon her was reflected and bear it in silence. Where is she I don't know. Why is she not with us is a "why" question that, as I told you before, I could not afford an answer to. Poor Rachel now gone, all those she saved are roming aimlessly in her heart for it was she who gided them and loved them and took great care of them.
My heart can't cry for it bleeds
My eyes can't see for I'm blind
My hands can't write for they shake
At your sight and I freak
Dear angel oh angel of mine
Though gone in my heart you draw a line
"On thee I bestow peace and grace
Till my Lord call thee to your place"
May her memory be always carried in our hearts.