Blacked Out

Alcohol has made a big impact on my life. It’s changed me, and the perception others have of who i am. And it’s brought so much darkness to my life. I’ve tried putting the bottle down, but i can’t. I need it to drown the mistake of me away. I’ve done things to myself I’m not proud of. I’ve done things to myself that I’m not proud of. I’m constantly hurting myself and the ones closest to me. I’m not a stranger to the dark, ive only become excepting of it. Excepting of where my fate is leading me. The reality of the situation is I’m killing myself. And in that moment where i feel like I’m dying, I’m flying. That’s what a burning sensation down my throat does to me. I’m addicted to what I’d slowly killing me. And i desperately need to leave this nightmare i call life.