At a Loss

I'm at a loss with this emptiness;
something feels misplaced.
I search my mind for things
I could have forgot,
like my phone or an email.
Ah, now I recall.
He is with someone.
The news told by a third party,
who knows my feelings, but not truly.
I feigned my true interest
to protect myself if I was wrong.
And yet me inner heart was hopeful,
and that was the chink in my armor;
like the heel of Achilles that betrayed him,
so my inner heart has done to me.
Why do I feel rejected,
when there was not the hope of acceptance?
I ache inside - it feels hollow
in my chest. Help me forget!