Am i selfish or crazy in love?
The best way I can explain this is that you are the manager and I’m a sales associate of a business that has gotten farther and farther each month from its year goal to where we are going to have to close the store we have love for. I’ve been trying to get you to understand something to benefit the business for the past year, but it has been in some negative and extreme manners that strays you away from even taking the time to listen to what that idea of benefitting the business is. Both coming to a point at different times of not being super happy about the business we want to thrive, which diminishes some self-confidence to go above and beyond to make this business work how its suppose to. As you are putting a lot of work to manage the store, I have been so concentrated on this idea of how the business will thrive and have a future. However , it has taken away from me selling to customers, which really effects how you are getting credit for managing. This whole time I have been trying to formulate ways for you to understand this idea that would allow each other to thrive together and benefit who we are as employees and the business. You as a manager have believed in so long that I would come to my senses and go back to the sales associate you hired me as, which was the time the business was doing well. So now our investor for the business is about to shut down our store we put so much work in, and all there is left to blame is me the sales associate because I wasn’t reaching sales for the past half year. However, for the time i was lagging I have been trying to get to you to understand this new concept for the business that would rebrand and open up the doors to what our business was plus more to have a future with it. I have believed for so long and tried to formulate ways to see eye to eye on this value-driven idea, that once you understood it we would thrive. Towards the tail end of the business about to close, I have been feeling the pain of losing loyal customers and the motivation to sell because of this thought of something beyond making goal. The more time of sitting on that, the worse i became at selling and i would take it out on you, my manager because I didn’t want to just reach goal however I had to make some numbers so thats what I did to stay an employee with you and be somewhat happy. The longer of time went on with that, the harder it was for me to stay at ease by showing you I will make sales and that I’m motived to do so where I know we could be. And the aggression would come out with little demand from you to just do your job, which I regret to the fullest and was a immature move. I should’ve been upfront and clear a while ago about showing you this concept in a way that you could grasp it at a time where the business was meeting ends and going a little above goal. I wish more then anything that I could’ve conformed everything that I have come to understanding more and clearly towards the end of our business about to be closed. This is where we are, that I wasn’t selling enough to meet goal which effected you harshly enough to fire me. here I am trying to get to you that I should’ve been more mature to try harder to meet goals. but thinking for myself for the only part i can, its that you never wanted to come down to a salesman mindset and change the way you managed the store. In addition to that, that if thats the case I should’ve been more mature to take myself out of the job and let you hire on someone who I know could do the job under your management so you could be happy enough to feel comfortable with the business meeting goal. But I keep going back and forth with that idea. and I haggle you one last time hoping that you didn’t make the decision to close the store, that you could listen to me and fully grasp that I never meant to hurt you as my partner for this business. I miss the comfort for the both of us of meeting our goals enough to feel at ease. But it isn’t enough to tell the investor to stay with it. so at the hardest and very very end of this business ending. I am hoping you will trust or understand this idea i have been wanting for so long so the business will still be funded, where then we start our partnership to reaching our full potential for our individual selves and for the business we have held onto for so long to naturally drive and rebrand it to the greater potential it can reach to. If I get shut off from even you listening to me in the beginning then I will have to back off and go with a new business and partnership that would only be 2nd as good as the potential of what the original could’ve been unless i come to terms that my view on our business and partnership was only a learning lesson for the both of us. being mainly you on what type of businesses make you happy and what kind of partnerships (employees) reach that true partnership. Im still pushing under the gnarliest of situations for you to not see the business plan but to trust that the investor will take it so we can thrive.
