Life-giving suicide note from a hopeful prisoner

The old man has to die in order for the new one to live. I encourage you to write your own life-gving suicide note of a person who has screwed-up but works to change his life for the better in this thread. ;) (In case anyone gets confused this is not my suicide note)


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Dear Beth,

I'm sorry for the pain I caused you and the problems I put you and your mother in. I'm sorry for wasting away all our money and made us move to a cheap apartment in Dankers Street. I just want you to know that I am grateful for having a daughter and wife who care about me so much. Thank you for your letters and visits. Thank you for your patience even when I panicked and started screaming at you both. Thank you for forgiving me and still holding on to me as if I were still that father that you knew before the gambling, the casinos, the paranoia! I thank christ everyday for showing me enough mercy to have such a wonderful and beautiful family, one of which I am not worthy of due to my screw-ups. It's been four years now of five-year sentence. I'll be coming back soon baby. I'll get to see you go to prom. I'll be there when you go to college. If you and your mother will give me another chance I'll be there for you and never leave you again. Hours and hours of wasting money trying to hit the jackpot when all the time I already hit it with you guys. I'm ready to help us get back together and back into a home that's ours. I'm ready to come back and hug you and kiss you and tell you how much I love you. I promise you the stupid old man inside of me has died and I'm ready to show you and the world this new young man who plans to contribute to all who surround him. I know I'm going off like a deranged intellectual but the truth is I'm no longer counting the days that I have to endure vast amounts of pyschological torture. I'm counting the days where we will be back together and never separated again. Don't lose your patience. I'll be there baby girl.

Sincerely.
Jonathen Gates

I can feel the cynicism, the reluctance and yearning wish to believe everything will be just as he says it will. Al-Ateen here I come...

First of all thank you for your feedback which is most appreciated and will help me be a better author. Sadly it seems I have work to do. The point of calling it a suicide note was not for him to kill him physically but personality wise. It was meant to show that people can change and kill the old person within themselves. Sorry if I was misleading and screwed it all up. He didn't actually kill himself.

I get that. I wrote this because of the way your note affected me. When somebody is hurt by the one they love, their faith is tested. For the teen wanting to believe her father yet not being sure is painful more than life giving. There's every chance she has self-destructive patterns of behaviour like her father. She would be wise to join Al-ateen as a life-giving response to her father's note because she too can make better choices to help her future relationships.

There's your short story...

This is a beautiful note. It is pretty sad as Jonathan seems to have ruined his life through all too human mistakes. However, it is still beautiful that he wants his daughter to find happiness despite him.