'Tho I get home how la

This is one of my poems for my literature exam this June, could do with some fresh eyes to give me any ideas about it.

Tho' I get home how late how late


Tho' I get home how late -- how late --
So I get home - 'twill compensate --
Better will be the Ecstasy
That they have done expecting me --
When Night -- descending -- dumb -- and dark --
They hear my unexpected knock --
Transporting must the moment be --
Brewed from decades of Agony!

To think just how the fire will burn --
Just how long-cheated eyes will turn --
To wonder what myself will say,
And what itself, will say to me --
Beguiles the Centuries of way!


To me Dickinson is imagining the consequences of her going against the norm, breaking rules and what punishment she will receive for it. I don't feel Dickinson is actually writing from true experience but rather imagining and day dreaming about what it would be like to have freedom.

I also feel it could be interpreted to be about death, the 'decades of agony' her family feel because of her death, therefore the 'knock' is 'unexpected'.

If anyone has any more opinions it would be much much appreciated !