de Renal

My life has entered a quiet phase. After many years of turbulences, reaching the bottoms and climbing heavens, I am now settled on a level of harmony. Everything I ever wanted is mine, and, observing from the distance, one could say I’m happy. Or, at least, undisturbed.
I didn’t have it all when I was a child, or, maybe I should say – I’ve learned the life a hard way. Unlike most of my friends, the sweet fruits of youth were forbidden when I needed them most. And not much is what I wanted – some knowledge, and a chance to travel from time to time. So I ended up finishing college I never even thought I might like; the circumstances I found myself surrounded by were so unexpected that I considered myself lucky enough to be given the opportunity, without thinking about the consequences.
There was a moment in my life when I found myself completely lost. I couldn’t tell the difference between right and wrong; the world I once knew turned into the distorted projection of something I thought I should settle with, and, with all the people around me telling me I couldn’t go farther than that, I did.
But, it’s funny how life always finds its way to get you back on the right path!
Maybe it was the revolt in me that made me rethink my deeds and redo my thoughts, or maybe just pure human urge to survive and stay sane at the same time; I don’t know – when the walls closed down on me, I jumped into the whirl hoping to be strong enough to swim out alive and well. And I did.
But often, when I lie in my bed before going to sleep, I think how thin the line is between staying at the bottom and coming out in one piece; and I’m thankful I chose to fight for the latter.