maraki16

life is not easy. it has never been, and it will never be. there might be some people whose lives seem perfect, but yet, luck does not always smile on them.
by the way, i think i should apologize for my sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooo long absence. you've missed me? no, i don't think so, but thank you anyway :P oh yeah baby, the cynic is back! lol!
what is really funny, is the fact that not only life disappoints us, due to the turning points and the ups and downs, the unpredictable aspect, but the people we care about even disappoint us in the most striking, unbelievable ways. friendships can be destroyed, because people don't realize and accept their mistakes, because they don't know how to love someone the way he needs to. love is essential in human relationships, but love is not enough. you also need to express it in the right way. otherwise, it might be taken for jealousy, obsession, empathy, indifference.
loving relationships can also bring you down. some situations are really ridiculous. people nowadays have really lost the meaning of some words and some ideas, which have been the slates on which human relationships have written their long long stories. what does love mean? how easily can you tell someone that you love him and wait for a similar reply? can we give 'love' many different meanings? has it come to mean 'i like you'?or maybe 'i care for you a bit i think'. and how can you measure what you feel in accordance to real love? can you give percentages?
another word. 'care'. what does this word mean? and how can we express our care towards others? does it mean i care for you 24h/day, or can it mean i care for you maybe 20 mins a day, or maybe i care for you when we are together?
'i miss you'. has it become something like the greeting we give to the butcher or the baker when we pass in front of them in the morning, without really wanting to get involved iinto a conversation? or maybe like the mechanical 'bye' we say?
to cut a long story short, what i mean is that i think, i think, that our words should be in some accordance to our actions. and not once or twice a week. everyday of the week.
disappointment. yes, disappointment. life is full of this word. yes, i know, many will hast to say that life is beautiful, 'life is wonderful, alalalalalala, life is wonderful...', but i have got tired of this song anyway so you need not remind me these lyrics. no, life is not wonderful. at least it is not most of the times, and not for everyone. it is full of illusions, which may be considered as some bright moments, but when you remove their light form life, all that is left are the shadows. the shadows of some past dreams, broken and shuttered long ago...
you reach to a point in your life when you say that perhaps things have finally started to get better, and you start to bring back to your memory all these things you had learned about the wheel of fortune and you happily start to whistle, feeling ready to conquer the world again. the world that you had started to conquer, but mother fortune took your strength away, because you were a bad kid :P
imagine whistling and suddenly someone pulling your tongue out, with a barbarous way. you can also add to the picture someone stubbing you on the back and then try to get the feeling. how's life now? wonderful? or maybe, alalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
disappointment. everyone lets you down, as i had said long ago. even the ones that say they won't hurt you, the truth is they do. i think i should end this chapter here, for if i continue, then i am afraid i might be tempted to open a new one, named 'lies'. and then i am going to be even more cynic.
thank you for listening/reading. goodnight.