Hobbes

High school is difficult for a lot of people many different reasons. You have to be able to socialize and keep your grades up, and it's hard to do when you don't easily fit into the environment you're in. If you're the least bit different and you know it and you wear it around on your sleeve, you're going to have a tough time. And the reality is that people are mean sometimes. You've got to form your own group, and help each other. Not everyone is going to like you or accept you everywhere you go. This happens in high school, and it happens in the work world. And there are going to be people who sit there and wait for your first stupid mistake and then they make fun of you for it months, even years on end. It doesn't matter if you really are smarter than them or if you've studied harder or deserve it more. And it's not always about race or ethnicity. I am white, and you probably don't want to hear this from me, but I would discourage you from assuming that it's always about your race or ethnicity every time this happens to you. I am not denying that there aren't fools out there who will give you grief just because you are Hispanic, but it would be unwise to assume that all white people are going to treat you like this and i think in the end it will hold you back. I say this because I recently left a job where I was the one who was treated like CRAP and the main reason for most of it was because those women just did not like me from the word go. And we were all white. In your case, it may be a race issue - I don't know. Somestimes people instinctually pick up on your insecurities and if they feel threatened by your looks, or your intelligence then they will do whatever they can to put you down.

Kids suck- I know, I am one, and I am a highschool dropout. It's not fair. And it's not just kids, it's not just highschool. Racial differences are going to haunt you through the rest of your life.

Kids in groups suck. Individually, they're entirely different beings.

This is why I kept it a secret that I was in Highschool all this time.

I was sorry to read this Hobbes. As others have said, highschool is rough, and kids are just mean. I was one of the kids who was taking all the honors and AP classes when I was in school, and in retrospect I see that the kids in my classes were more cruel than anyone else. I'll let you in on a small secret that I wish I had known when I was still in highschool. Nine times out of ten, they are jealous that someone may be more intelligent than them. It isn't about race, though they may use it as a way to hurt you, it is merely about their own insecurities. I look like I could be a memeber of the Arian Brotherhood, and I was still tormented endlessly. It still sucks, trust me, from personal experience I know how bad it can be. I went through school with no friends because I was in classes with the same type of people you are, and they HATED me. There isn't a kinder or gentler way to word it than that. My advice, keep your head high and show the snotty brats who really deserves to be there. There is a measure of satisfaction in that if nothing else. Good luck to you. ~Meg~

i know exactly what you mean. I don't know if there will ever come a day when people will stop judging people because ,they are different, in one way or the other to make themselves feel good. Racism will never be truly over come until people realize its source and correct it which is loving yourself. And i felt that was so beautiful what you said about your brown eyes. I feel like all eyes black ,white, chinese, asian, hispanic, jewish what ever the race maybe our eyes are beautiful. But i also think our real eye is exactly the same color and that eye is with in us the one that see without lookin,g but by feeling and that eye is the heart.