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Awkward, Prince Charming & Dreams...

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I feel weird...I'm indeed happy,but in the same time I'm confused...My feelings about what's around me are ineffable...However big and drastic that might sound,it's true.While I generally know what I want from life,while I generally know how to deal with important questions that arise:literature,matters of spirit,perhaps politics,I can't seem to handle the simplest of things.And I seriusly don't know how to describe it.Making friends is difficult for me since I'm really shy time to time and when it comes to love matters...I suck...

Well,I guess I might as well say why this all started.Today I met him,that guy,the one that gave me goose bumps for two and a half years and is still continuing to do so.

I saw him today and I felt light.I felt cute,I felt girlish...I walked towards him and I felt hopeful.He hugged me and it was like old times were back;those old times when we were still friends,when he wasn't aware of my love,when we had those long weird conversations everyone on the school considered overly geekish...

I realised that all my imagination these past years has been working on this.See,I always imagine stories,events,ideas where a couple is always central.Even in the most philosophical of my thoughts,love is always there.My eternal quest for Prince Charming...Yes,he exists.In my dreams.And I love him.I love my dreams.Now the question remains...how can I make them real?...
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  1. Virgil's Avatar
    Remarkable, when it comes to love, 95% of us suck, so you are definitely not alone. What a touching blog entry. It's so nice to see the workings of a young, sweet mind. Don't lose your dreams; they are beautiful.
  2. maraki16's Avatar
    i ask myself the same question everyday. and the simplest things in life are the most difficult to solve you know. sometimes i think they are called simple ironically.
    i don't know how you can make your dreams true, it is the only true, honest answer i can give you. but it is good that you love your dreams. it means that you love yourself. because we are made of our dreams, of our thoughts. our dreams reflect our inner selves. the only think i can tell you, is to fight for the one you love. try till you have no more chances. and then you can dream on. but with someone else playing the prince-part.
    i wish you a happy valentines day.
  3. Virgil's Avatar
    To Remarkable and Mari, one just tries and tries and tries. One always has the power to change things when one is unhappy, and there is no guarentee that it will change so that all your dreams come true. But life is not that short really, and over tme with trying and trying one can find some of one's dreams to come true. But if a person doesn't try, then things can't change.
  4. maraki16's Avatar
    so right, once again my dear virgil....i am tired to always read right and mature answers from you! say something silly for once! something that will make me disagree and call you immature!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  5. Virgil's Avatar
    Hahaha, I've said plenty of immature things. Next time I do so, I'll point it out.
  6. Remarkable's Avatar
    Thanks,both of you!
    Virgil,next time you're immature...Next time...I guess it'd be the first time!

    Maraki,you see,I'm the fighter type,at least when it comes to love.It's just that my fighting techinques absolutely suck.They haven't got me anywhere this far.But still,I know I'm too much of a dreamer to give up.And I know there's always going to be a Prince Charming.My Price Charming is a mix of many men I know,or whom I have seen in TV or for whom I have read in books.Every time I meet someone new and interesting,someone that has a certain wonderful feature,that feature goes directly into my dreams.My Prince Charming is real as well as a fantasy because he lives in the shape of many people I know but in the same time he could never be because what one has the other lacks.

    Virgil,as Maraki said,you're right.And I swear I have tried.I try and try.I'm in a constant trying situation.I try to win,I try to write,I try to talk,I try to dream...I try to overcome my fears,I try to love...These tries work very often...And equally often they don't...But as you said,in the end,one has plenty of time to continue trying.I truly believe that!

    I am happy in my own way.Occasionally,like today(but that is a completely other story),I get upset.I worry of what can happen to me,to the world around and far away from me...But I always know that there's no point on whinning,since the best thing to do is to go out there and just be...

    Sorry for the philosophical tone.I'm simply feeling too introspective lately.Seemingly as a result of having no one to whom I can send un-anonymous love letters!
    Updated 02-14-2009 at 07:09 PM by Remarkable