Hi Max, you're sounding better; hope you're happier. I've been all over mood wise...trying to do too much in too little time, I guess. Yes, I hear my dad will have to have dialysis 3 times a week. I guess it's painful when you have to get a needle each time; usually, after a while, they do a procedure on your arm so that the blood can go through a shunt. Dialysis is hard on the heart, it's removing 1/3 the volume of blood at a time, so it really tires a person. They are tired for one day, feel well the next and begin to get toxic on the third. I used to have to get blood transfusions alot and about the most annoying thing is sitting for several hours... I remember I would go in so weak and feel like I was so strong after. I'll write a bit more later, Kisses and hugs, Gail
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Dialysis has to do with kidney malfunctions, right? I have an aunt with the same problem. Some people say it's painful, while others claim to feel no pain when they go through such procedure. I hope your dad won't suffer much pain with it. You're in my thoughts too. Please take care and keep in touch. Now that my computer is healed I will try to come more often
Hi dear Gail. I've been away from the Internet due to a computer virus that entered my system and caused much trouble. Apparently all is solved by now. Come to think of it, I'm too attached to my computer, so I know what you mean about feeling attached to certain things that may not mean much to others, but a lot to us. After all, my computer and I have been through a lot together as well I've seen that levels of commitment vary within a wide range of possibilities, according to each person. I find that the toughest part of letting go is the fact of not being sure of why their commitment wasn't as committed as they made it appear at first. But I guess one must keep an open mind and try to understand that there's a whole bunch of reasons for people doing what they do, and most likely we are not aware of all of them.
I think the mo difficult thing about losing love, is that you are never sure that they won't return; at least, you go on hoping they will. I think I am often attracted to "villans" because they can read people well enough to present exactly what that person needs at the time. I am not a terribly insightful person; and by the time I find out what the person really is, I am already hopelessly attached. Thank you for your kind words of sympathy about my mother. It seems that my father will have to be on dialysis from now on; but my sister-in-law tells me he seems happier than he has in months...eating like a horse. Keep in touch and know you are in my thoughts.
I am so glad to hear from you, Sweet Max, and very sorry to hear that you have been unhappy lately. It is very difficult to deal with family and personal problems at the same time. I have always wondered if people who "let go" easily were ever quite as commited in the beginning as we are. I know that I never quite let go of someone I love; and I also become very attached to valuless personal items (I am very attached to my 10 year old car with its dents and rust spots...we've been through alot together)
Hi dear Gail, thanks for remembering the old happy guy though I haven't been very happy lately. Family troubles to sort out and personal ones to adapt to as well. I guess I need to learn how to let people go when they have to, though I find myself in deep trouble at mastering such an ability. I know what you mean about people being oddly wired. I've heard the words of those claiming to be attracted to villains. I don't really get such type of attraction... maybe I'm the weird one... because I've always felt attracted to darlings and sweeties I must be out of my mind, because all of my dear people are darlings to some extent... and they hardly ever killed anyone... well... maybe a roach or two I'm sorry to know about your mom's recent departure, and I hope your dad is better. Is he any better? You keep in touch too. I hope everything keeps in good order Many Hugs
Your reaction of finding bad people repugnant is appropriate; it is what we should all feel. Who knows why some people are attracted to dangerous animals, bad people, climbing K2, going to disease infested countries to mingle, missionary or adopt children... Ah well, so much for philosophy. all is well with us; keep in touch...hugs and a kiss on the forehead...
My mother died in 2007, after having constant health problems since 2005. I think when I was younger, I did assume that people were bad because of need; because they lacked love or physical comfort. In those days, I tried to give people what they needed and hoped that such things would change them. I've since realized that this is not really the case...not with most "bad people...or wolf's" They simply aren't "wired" the same way most of us are, sure, some of them have come from poverty, lacked love; but many of us have and it has only made us more sensitive to others needs. There are alot of antisocial people in the world.
Hi Max, I don't think you left one of my messages unanswered; I just was checking up on you to make sure you were your same old happy self...all was well...so on and so forth. I talk periodically with my youngest brothers wife and she seems to keep the family updated on each other. She called recently to tell me my father was in the hospital, and shortly after, my older brother called because he wanted me to go to the hospital and talk to the doctor; they always call me when someone is ill. It's the life of a nurse; I'll bet people always call you when their computers are acting up.
