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			<title>Apollonian Delight</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 03 Dec 2008 15:33:30 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>I 
 
You are 
An Apollonian delight to the eye, 
A divine revelation to man, 
 
Your hair 
A million honeyed velvet strands 
Foretelling days of...</description>
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You are<br />
An Apollonian delight to the eye,<br />
A divine revelation to man,<br />
<br />
Your hair<br />
A million honeyed velvet strands<br />
Foretelling days of Spring<br />
<br />
Your eyes<br />
Two bluebirds on high<br />
Twittering black haloed mysteries - <br />
<br />
The love for Hyacinth<br />
And Troilus,<br />
The beauty of Narcissus<br />
And Venus’ dead Adonis.<br />
<br />
<br />
II<br />
<br />
When God speaks, terror strikes men;<br />
Kings topple kings , nations shatter<br />
And vanish from the earth.<br />
<br />
With his fingers<br />
He reshapes landscapes.<br />
Tornadoes, earthquakes and whirlwinds<br />
Enrich or impoverish,<br />
Disease eradicates<br />
And indulgence destroys within.<br />
<br />
But for all of this <br />
He blesses us <br />
With the grandeur of nature,<br />
The rain-drop glistening upon the delicate oak leaf,<br />
The dappled heavens cascading at Autumn twilight<br />
The crystal moon casting her starry blue rays<br />
upon earth’s green carpet.<br />
<br />
And your face - AH!<br />
The crowning king of  current creation<br />
(man is the pinnacle of His craft,<br />
As crime is the nadir)<br />
<br />
III<br />
<br />
With a glance <br />
it calls me like the sirens<br />
With a gaze<br />
it lures me to shipwreck my soul<br />
upon the beach of your beauty, <br />
And to make an idol out of a being.<br />
<br />
III<br />
<br />
Our universe now stands<br />
As testimony to the impermanence of man;<br />
Husserl’s epoch’s, Yeat’s gyres<br />
Will unwind and respin<br />
 <br />
And your beauty will pass away,<br />
with each falling grain in the hourglass,<br />
What time gains<br />
You will lose<br />
Until all is spent in death.<br />
<br />
So let your lips blossom<br />
Forever, like honeysuckle in September, <br />
And transform these honeyed strands to gold<br />
And blue eyes to platinum silver.</blockquote>

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			<title>Halloween Photos</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 04 Nov 2008 18:45:56 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[It was boring, but I got to dress up! 
 
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<blockquote class="blogcontent restore">It was boring, but I got to dress up!<br />
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			<title>Song of Cyberlove: A poem in Song of Solomon tradition</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 02 Nov 2008 20:15:27 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>A chat betwix me and my love turned into something that I used as a base for this poem.  I restructed it a little (the first two I arranged...</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<blockquote class="blogcontent restore">A chat betwix me and my love turned into something that I used as a base for this poem.  I restructed it a little (the first two I arranged rhythmically, etc) but the content is the same...<br />
<br />
<br />
Lover: A peck upon your neckline first then on your chest plant a kiss. <br />
 Let me run my hands from pit to waist with a featherweight caress; <br />
below I’ll save a stronger touch, but soft and light on the less, <br />
and<br />
...palming each muscle, each crevice, each  spot...<br />
 search without aim; but to know.<br />
<br />
<br />
Beloved: I would kiss your foreneck first, and embrace your body strong,<br />
Then falling with my lips to breast rest there fairly long<br />
Mouth your supple arms and hands, from stomach to your back<br />
And<br />
…taking your head in powerful hands,<br />
  Knead your scalp then pull your hair.<br />
<br />
Lover:  Close my eyes to memorize the feel of flesh against my hand, <br />
to see with mental vision, though sensually blind.<br />
Oh love!  To feel your bare skin behind me,<br />
...to let your body's pressure sink me into mattress would be sublime!<br />
<br />
Beloved: I’d turn you round again to plant another buss<br />
Then parting your legs with mine, <br />
Like two octopi entwined, <br />
your inner thigh would I molest. <br />
I wonder, would we take time kissing like wolves?<br />
<br />
Lover:  Constant and unending!<br />
<br />
Beloved: Fervid and flaming!<br />
<br />
Lover: only ceasing to study the other, to drink in the sight and allow the eyes delight in the rapture the soul already knows...<br />
<br />
Beloved: I shall take your arms as reigns, and deal as horse and rider were one,<br />
in a passionate night lighting the fire that fills me,<br />
going into the depths of your body, <br />
ensuring that you do not miss <br />
the pleasure of my perfect kiss<br />
My virile grasp, to hug you tight within me.<br />
<br />
Lover: Curl yourself around me like a zephyr -  <br />
Search me, seek me, try me,<br />
Leave nothing unplumbed<br />
Like Odin chasing Freya.<br />
<br />
Touch me with sunlight fingertips, stroke my skin till my body rages<br />
Command me with your hand, bend me to your will, <br />
the way a man desires.<br />
<br />
Beloved: But lover, what of your happiness? <br />
<br />
Lover: To see you delight in me is my greatest pleasure - the pleasure of pleasing you, the one I love.    <br />
<br />
Beloved: Know there would be no place where I would not be,<br />
Co-penetrated, co-joined, co-possessed until we melted completely,<br />
 in your mind, in your body, in your soul,<br />
 I would strive to satisfy our desires completely.<br />
 Oh beloved, I could spend an eon with you that Hefesto could not stop with a magic chain, because from your arms, your hands and between your legs I could not get out.<br />
<br />
Lover: …though entry would be with such ease and grace.<br />
I am ready for you now; the pump is primed and the flood has begun <br />
- all I need is a hero, a buccaneer, my capitan.<br />
<br />
Beloved: for your treasures, for nirvana, for heaven that awaits me<br />
I am ready to set sail, move towards you, to  port and die between your breasts.<br />
<br />
Lover: Don't be satisfied with that treasure chest, there's more that lies buried, my capitan, in a southern cave no man goes.  Tis guarded by a mad goddess who scorns all but the promised one, like the lost witch of Odysseus, who mourned his flight..<br />
<br />
Beloved: Shall I go to the depths of the cave, to the one I’ve been watching for?  I only need permission.<br />
<br />
Lover: What permission do you need from the one who waits for you, except to come? <br />
<br />
Beloved:  I will go and enter that sacred cave to mount my corsair power and field my desires. Can you feel my heart beating faster as I approach your coast?<br />
 <br />
Lover: I feel it in my inner depths. Like a diligent soldier who rises for battle so do you rise, and meet on the battlefield your goddess, who you slay with a word and a blow from your sword...<br />
<br />
Beloved: Then let us go to the center of the world, quell my desire with a touch of your hand.  Let us go into the heartland, and keep your divine body submerged by mine.<br />
<br />
Lover:<br />
Then melt into me, my capitan, with a final thrust draw me down and sink yourself into the earth, to sleep, to rest in my arms till gyres bid us come again..</blockquote>

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			<title><![CDATA[I'm Sad]]></title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 20 Oct 2008 04:27:31 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>I saw a Dracula ballet today, and just finished watching Frankenstein (movie), and at the end of both I wanted to cry.   
 
Am I the only one who...</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<blockquote class="blogcontent restore">I saw a Dracula ballet today, and just finished watching Frankenstein (movie), and at the end of both I wanted to cry.  <br />
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Am I the only one who cries at horror (rather than cheezy romance) movies?</blockquote>

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			<title>Hablas espanol - anyone?</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 18 Oct 2008 08:04:10 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[He sent me this poem but Google mucked up the translation.   For one it says he's a girl - (-: 
 
Seré yo el joven que hace sus sueños dulces como la...]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<blockquote class="blogcontent restore">He sent me this poem but Google mucked up the translation.   For one it says he's a girl - (-:<br />
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Seré yo el joven que hace sus sueños dulces como la hidromiel?<br />
O es el igneo destello de sus ojos al recordarme el acusador?<br />
Quién es el mas bravo pirata para juzgar mi sín razón,<br />
que llevandola en mi almohada la pienso como un don...?</blockquote>

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			<title>Another Lover</title>
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			<pubDate>Fri, 17 Oct 2008 19:27:48 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>I am wondering when the men in white coats are going to show up at my door to escort me to Holly Hill Hotel for an extended stay. 
 
So, I have met a...</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<blockquote class="blogcontent restore">I am wondering when the men in white coats are going to show up at my door to escort me to Holly Hill Hotel for an extended stay.<br />
<br />
So, I have met a new man online (I usually eschew such advances as they are usually from creepy Turkish men, octogenarians or young, stupid and obscene 20-somethings).<br />
<br />
But, I have met a man - yes - a 20 year old - who isn't cheezy or sleazy, but actually asked me what Byron I've read, and we got into a literary conversation of merit.  He loves Bryon, Yeats, Keats, Poe, has read &quot;The Picture of Dorian Gray&quot;, loves classical music and the Pre-Raphaelites, draws and is en amour with court love, the Medieval period, and the concept of nobility.<br />
<br />
Like me, he feels as if he belongs to a (former) time.<br />
<br />
The only things I don't like are his neo-paganism (dualism/gnosticism) and his pro-Palestinian stance.<br />
<br />
He's from Chile and quite the idealist.<br />
<br />
He knows just enough written English, and I just enough written Spanish, that we have managed to communicate with each other.  I have endeavored to keep my sentence structure simple and my words basic while not diminishing the content or message of the conversation, so if I start sounding like &quot;See Spot.  See Spot run&quot;, you know why. (-;<br />
<br />
It's difficult to pare down when you write at a higher level.<br />
<br />
He is the only other person I know of who is such a literary nerd that he has dressed up and had a picture taken of himself as his literary hero.  While I have my &quot;Oscar Wilde&quot; photograph, he has his Byron.<br />
<br />
We are such DORKS!<br />
<br />
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			<title>The Murder of Edgar Allen Poe</title>
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			<pubDate>Fri, 03 Oct 2008 17:10:27 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Firstr, in honor of Halloween, I suggest reading Phantasmagoria, Tales of the Dead, the book that Shelley, Woolstonecraft, Byron, Polidori and...</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<blockquote class="blogcontent restore">Firstr, in honor of Halloween, I suggest reading Phantasmagoria, Tales of the Dead, the book that Shelley, Woolstonecraft, Byron, Polidori and friends read that fateful night in Villa Diodati helped spawn &quot;Frankenstein&quot;.  You can find it here: <a href="http://www.english.upenn.edu/Projects/knarf/EtAlia/tdtp.html" target="_blank" rel="nofollow">http://www.english.upenn.edu/Project...Alia/tdtp.html</a><br />
<br />
&quot;Family Portraits&quot; is def. responsible for spawning.<br />
<br />
Now, onto the murder...<br />
<br />
<a href="http://www.trutv.com/library/crime/notorious_murders/celebrity/edgar_allan_poe/index.html" target="_blank" rel="nofollow">http://www.trutv.com/library/crime/n...poe/index.html</a><br />
<br />
By Douglas MacGowan <br />
The Dying Man<br />
Ryan's Tavern in Baltimore had been busy all day, men coming in and out   to cast their ballots for the elections.  Most went about their business quickly, either not seeing the man slumped over nearby or choosing to ignore him.  Since the polling place was also a saloon, many men may have felt the man was a sad example of someone who had indulged too heavily the previous night.<br />
<br />
Joseph Walker may have initially entered Ryan's merely to cast his vote on October 3, 1849, but unlike the others running in and out of the establishment, he took the time to see if the man needed help.   Walker may have even asked the man if there was anyone Walker could get to come and fetch him.  The man, whom Walker now believed was clearly drunk, may have rattled off some names, finally hitting one that Walker knew.<br />
<br />
Walker quickly sent a note to a Dr. Joseph Snodgrass, stating, in part: &quot;There is a gentleman, rather the worse for wear, at Ryan's Fourth Ward Polls - and who appears in great distress and he says he is acquainted with you, and I assure you, he is in need of immediate assistance.&quot;<br />
<br />
Upon receiving the note, Dr. Snodgrass went to fetch the man and had him taken to nearby Washington College Hospital, where the ailing man was placed under the care of Dr. John Moran.<br />
<br />
Moran tended to his patient over the next few days, and concluded that alcohol was indeed at the heart of his patient's ailments.   The weakened man seemed to slide in and out of reality, although he was never able to answer questions about what had brought him to such a low state.  Word spread of the man's condition, and his cousin came to visit, but was turned away and told that the patient was not fit for visitors.<br />
<br />
Four days after being brought to the hospital, the man experienced a rapid decline. Dr. Moran attended to his deathbed, as the man reportedly repeated the name &quot;Reynolds&quot; in his delirium. The patient finally died in the early hours of October 7, 1849.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
Edgar Allan Poe <br />
<br />
The dead man, while not prosperous, was certainly well-known, causing the local newspaper, the Baltimore Sun, to comment in their October 8th edition:<br />
<br />
&quot;We regret to learn that Edgar A. Poe, Esq., the distinguished American poet, scholar and critic, died in this city yesterday morning, after an illness of four or five days.   This announcement, coming so sudden and unexpected, will cause poignant regret among all who admire genius, and have sympathy for the frailties too often attending it.&quot;<br />
<br />
At forty years of age, the master of horror fiction and the father of the detective whodunnit story was dead.   Poe was lamented by many, but everyone took as fact Dr. Moran's conclusion that alcoholism had finally claimed Poe's life. Poe's reputation for drinking was known by anyone who had even a passing acquaintance with him.<br />
<br />
Soon, however, in a manner that Poe himself would have admired,   cryptic whisperings began up and down the East Coast hinting that the instigator of so many horrible literary deaths had possibly met his end by another's hands.<br />
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Read the rest at the website...</blockquote>

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			<title><![CDATA[I'm figuring it out...slowly]]></title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 27 Sep 2008 18:34:30 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[It took me a week to "get used to" LJ - give me that much for this new format, please.  Once I'm proficient at it I'll show up at your door every...]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<blockquote class="blogcontent restore">It took me a week to &quot;get used to&quot; LJ - give me that much for this new format, please.  Once I'm proficient at it I'll show up at your door every day. (-:<br />
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The Change-Averse Countess</blockquote>

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			<title>Quandry and Confusion</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 09 Sep 2008 20:11:26 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I am confused.  It seems the format has changed, and now is equivocable to that labyrinth I call "livejournal", that region in cyberspace where one...]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<blockquote class="blogcontent restore">I am confused.  It seems the format has changed, and now is equivocable to that labyrinth I call &quot;livejournal&quot;, that region in cyberspace where one ends up somewhere, unsure of how one got there or how to get back.<br />
<br />
I think I have a tumor in whatever part of my brain is responsible for spelling.  That region is in need of repair (and I used to spell so well!)<br />
<br />
Sorry I haven't been here in awhile - been visiting livejournal.  Found two really intelligent people on that site - wah-lah!  One has been &quot;feeding me&quot; as I call it, with her journal and emails. <br />
<br />
I suddenly want to relearn French and learn German.  I'm jealous she can speak 7 languages.<br />
<br />
So, BIG FAVOR if you don't mind, and I promise to visit more often, although I'll be damned if I can find the &quot;General&quot; blog site.  Anyone with that URL will earn my adoration.<br />
<br />
I'm submitting the following chapters for GRADUATE SCHOOL.  They have been GREATLY REVISED.  Hence, a reread would be in order if you wish to help me out.  I'm looking for constructive feedback.  I posted it on the livejournal fiction site but ran into the same problem I run into on other sites: that deer-in-the-headlights stare/teenagers. (Andave being brilliant is the exception).<br />
<br />
THANKS as always.<br />
<br />
SEE attached.</blockquote>

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			<title><![CDATA[Countess's Bleh]]></title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 24 Jul 2008 22:40:27 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Okay, I've decided not to go to graduate school for literature.  After reading the garbage that is being published under the guise of criticism, I've...]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<blockquote class="blogcontent restore">Okay, I've decided not to go to graduate school for literature.  After reading the garbage that is being published under the guise of criticism, I've decided to apply to the creative writing program.<br />
For those of you who are wondering what qualifies as &quot;garbage&quot;, it is literary theory.  It seems one must chose an &quot;ism&quot; for oneself, and then interpret all literature in light of the &quot;ism&quot;.  Personally, I hate &quot;isms&quot;; multiple &quot;isms&quot; are acceptable because viewed together they are holistic, but divided they only represent one side of the prism, and therefore cannot realistically depict anything. (what is a prism with &quot;ism&quot; removed?  It is PR -  See?)<br />
Of course, the argument is that one's &quot;narrative&quot; (aka subjective experience) is inseperable from how one approaches literature.  Well, okay, but personally, I think we should view literary history objectively, and then as we specialize, take up a specific viewpoint *if it so suits us*.  Instead, the &quot;isms&quot; are being thrust upon us by the political powers, and I hate politics - you guys know that right?  So naturally I hate politics in philosophy, politics in theology, politics in literature.  Shudder.  &quot;Ism&quot; is pretty much a euphemism (LOL) for &quot;political viewpoint&quot;, but what I can't understand is why people major in literature to spout their political views.  Shouldn't they major in politics and then focus on literature?  THAT would make sense - but since when does society make sense?<br />
Furthermore, the &quot;ism&quot; writers can spend pages and pages talking without saying anything.  They enjoy making arguments using big words, but if you reduce their arguments to content, then a few sentences will do.  That is how you know the Emperor is freaking naked.  Sophistry is alive and well in our universe.<br />
Thankfully, creative writing has enough room (I believe) for me.  Granted, the politics of modernism has infiltrated this area as well; shizzle is being passed off as literature.  Same in modern dance.  I remember taking modern dance and being chastized for dancing on-beat.  I was told to interpret the music, so I did my best imitation of Frankentein at swim practice and was praised, but by the by, the star dancer at our school couldn't *keep a beat*.  I used to see her out at the clubs and put her to shame out on the floor.<br />
That's how you know the Emperor is freaking naked.<br />
I can't wait until some little child points out how naked the Emperor is, and everyone else crawls under a rock out of shame for missing the obvious.  I will rejoice that day.  Heck, I'll buy that kid a double decker ice cream cone at Ben and Jerrys.<br />
Revising my letter of intent.  More to come.<br />
<br />
Ciao<br />
<br />
PS: Anyone using an ism as a viable means to approach my writing will be shot dead, and if I am dead, they will be haunted by my angry ghost for the rest of their lives.</blockquote>

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			<description>Er, next two chapters. Meg inspired me. (-: 
 
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Phoenix had been living alone for about a year when she arose one night to discover Byron...</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<blockquote class="blogcontent restore">Er, next two chapters. Meg inspired me. (-:<br />
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Phoenix had been living alone for about a year when she arose one night to discover Byron standing in her apartment doorway.  Dressed in a pair of black skinny pants and scarlet poet’s shirt, with his left forearm braced against the entrance and right fist resting on his cocked hip, he appeared refreshingly lucid and clean, something which Phoenix had not seen in her occasional glimpses of the man across the lawn.   He also was beautifully handsome, the courtyard lights illuminating his figure with a sort of aura and highlighting the long line which ran from his left forearm to his armpit, and down his side.  At once she felt both greatly attracted to and sickened by his presence, conflicting emotions invoked  by his beauty and her memories of his abuse. <br />
“You are not seriously sporting a nightgown, are you?  It’s midnight,&quot; he inquired.<br />
Fiddling with her entwined hands, Phoenix blushed and took step back.   “I just woke up,” she offered.<br />
Byron sighed, and entered the room. “You need to get out more,” he suggested, strolling over to the refrigerator and pouring himself a glass of Vintage Red before returning to stand before her.  “You look horrid.”<br />
“Thank-you,” she answered.  “I wish I could say the same for you.”<br />
Byron laughed. “Ah mes petites panthères, usually you can. I‘ve seen you staring at me from inside his haven of yours,” he added, waving his glass around to indicate her guest house.<br />
“So what is it you want, Byron?”<br />
“Want?  Do I need an excuse to come visit my wife?”<br />
“Quite frankly, yes.  You’ve agreed it’s in our best interest if we no longer see each other. I’ve been living here peacefully for over a year now, and suddenly tonight I wake up to find you standing in my doorway.  Why?”<br />
“Have you reviewed my latest manuscript?” he asked.  “I sent it to you three nights ago.”<br />
“Yes, I’ve read it and responded yesterday.  I gave the letter to your boy Marcus.  Did you not get it?”<br />
“I confess to not having checked my mail today, but if you say it’s done I’m content.”<br />
 “What is the point, Byron?” Phoenix demanded. “ What happened to you and why are you telling me I need to go out more when you‘ve done everything to immure me?”<br />
Shame-faced, Byron gazed down at the floor. “Yes, I’ve been meaning to talk to you about that.  You see, I think I’ve made a grievous error of judgment, and I owe you an apology…”<br />
Phoenix burst out laughing. “…’you owe me an apology’…”<br />
“Please don’t make this any harder for me than it already is,” he begged.  “I’m not in the habit of asking forgiveness, but I am trying to change, and to make amends. You see, I have been reading a great deal, a very great deal, of modern psychology and I think I comprehend myself and my particular brand of madness better - much better than I did during the Age of Ignorance we now call ‘Enlightenment‘.  In any case, I am trying to change and ask you’d not poke fun at my efforts…”<br />
“I’m sorry, Byron, but you must understand my position…”<br />
“Yes, your position,” he interrupted.  “You know, you’ve studied me so intensely that I have become a kind of abstract representation of this static, romantic personality in your mind - a fixed object that cannot be altered or alter itself, but though I am dead, I am in a sense still alive, and I have grown a great deal over the past year.<br />
Anyway, I am sorry for my control issues and the suffering it caused you.  I do miss you Phoenix.  Since our separation I have been suffering in so many ways - so many ways that only you can understand.”<br />
“Like what?” she asked empathetically. Although she was still angry, she could not help but feel pity for his pathetic condition. <br />
Grabbing her hand, Byron pulled her over to the couch and both sat down.  “I received word from the publisher. I am ‘derivative’, ‘archaic’ - the ‘poor man’s Byron’.”<br />
So, he had been rejected again.  Although the news did not come as a surprise, at these times she could not help but wonder how such critics would react if they discovered their own absurdity, that with the same breath they heralded the bard as “genius”, they also condemned him as “plagiarist”, and shook her head in bewilderment at it.  Unfortunately, despite his natural self-confidence, Byron was not immune to such reactions and in response would grow either bitterly hostile or lugubrious.  To ameliorate his suffering, Phoenix often told Bryon that these “emperors” not only hadn’t any clothes, but were in fact buck-naked in the middle of New York City, while Byron, the prognosticating prophet, was standing on the corner and pointing out the obvious.  But this time was different - this time, she had a plan.<br />
“Byron, you must understand, the publication industry is like any other industry these days - exploitative, corrupt, and interested in quantity over quality.  They don’t care to advance literary interests but simply to sell as many books as possible to as many people as possible - to ‘make bank‘ as they say. <br />
You’re a genius, Byron,  and one characteristic of genius is that it is a exceptionally rare gift. Imagine those wretched moles sitting in cubicles all day reading nothing but tripe - and then they come across your work.  It stimulates their neural synapses and forces them to think - or it simply doesn’t translate because of its lofty nature.  It’s intimidating.  Or,, worse yet, they might only publish work that supports their interests, whether it’s a cloying story about a handicapped girl or maybe a tale about Farmer Bob’s struggle to keep his farm.  Whatever the case, it’s their deficiency, not yours.  <br />
One rule of modern political theory is that the self-designated gods of any industry will stop at nothing to maintain control and power over their kingdom.  If you offer a different perspective or philosophy, you will be smashed underfoot as a threat.  To join them you must assimilate yourself by adopting their perspective, their approach, their philosophy, their style; only then will they accept you into their collective.”<br />
Byron balked, and slammed his fist down on the side table “I may have loose morals, but even I am not that degenerate.  I will not sell my soul for fame or money!”<br />
‘I know,” Phoenix smiled, “so now is the time to write.   You have a whole lifetime to fill up with your work -- and amass a small fortune.  Then, in your next life - when we re-invent you - you can establish your own independent publishing firm, and print your own literature.  Not only will you get credit for writing those masterpieces, but also for discovering the talent, which is your own.” <br />
“Perfect! - and that is why I married you, mes panthères.   You are my Hobhouse and my Shelley, though of the female persuasion.  But tell me, you look so frail, haven’t you made your first kill yet, or are you still clinging to that Christian sentiment of yours?”<br />
“Clinging,” she muttered as she thought back on an incident that had taken place several weeks ago.  During one of her evening constitutionals she had happened upon a creature in an alleyway with its teeth sunk in the delicate flesh of young child.  It had looked at her and smiled, its villainous face twisted into a blasphemous grin.  Though it was too late for the child, she had nevertheless crept around to the back, and, silently approaching the creature from behind, severed its head.  Once she had disposed of it, she had bent down and held the girl as she died.<br />
It was not the first time she had murdered a vampire, nor would it be the last.<br />
Whether it was due to her human nature or Byron’s own self-absorption, he  never gleaned her perfidious acts, and she thought it best to maintain his ignorance.  Thankfully, he did not pursue her thoughts, but merely sighed and - sliding down his shirt - offered up his breast.<br />
“My dear Phoenix, you are 41 years old.  How long do you expect me to suckle you like a newborn mother?  Are you going to be a breast and bottle baby forever?”<br />
After nursing her, Bryon informed her he was taking her, in addition to his entire harem, out for the evening.   Once he was gone Phoenix changed into a black dress with black tights and heels, then ventured over to the mansion, and from there departed ensemble for Purgatory.<br />
********<br />
<br />
Following their initial altercation, during which the three young men were brought to deeply regret their decision to attack the two strange males across the street, the urban youth gave the two Noctii a list of several clubs with dubious reputations, with Purgatory named as the most pernicious.  Dorian and Tristan got directions, then departed - after a brief lecture on the benefits of being nice to one’s neighbors.<br />
“Tristan, I need you to do something for me,” Dorian muttered as he strode quickly down the street.  “Go to the hospital and collect as many syringes as you can find.  We need to start collecting samples of our blood so when we will be ready to initiate that phase.  Hide what you can where you can - you know where it will be safe.”<br />
Tristan nodded.  “Dorian, what if…”<br />
“…Xander and these Sang spawn should join forces?  I’ve already thought of that.  Xander is a purist; any alliance he might forge with them will be temporary.  Once he’s eliminated the Noctii threat I’ve no doubt he’ll destroy them as well.<br />
We can also compensate for that possibility by allying ourselves with the humans.  It will be premature and possibly disastrous, but it might be our only hope in such a situation.” <br />
Once Tristan had disappeared, Dorian continued his trek towards Purgatory, taking the opportunity to scrutinize the subtle variations and dialectal nuances that comprised the city and it’s human life.  Off to his right, three corpulent transvestites leaned against a faded brick building, their short dresses pulled tight against their flesh.  The middle one - an aging blonde with a beehive- was applying a taffy pink lipstick to her over plump lips while talking to the others.<br />
“Oh honey, he loved it - simply loved it!  Ran his hand between my legs and called me Betty!  I just feel sorry for his poor wife.  She’s clueless that big ole husband of hers is a tranny queen…”  <br />
“You know Desiree‘s dead, right?” the brunette to his right interrupted.<br />
“What?!” the other two exclaimed.<br />
“Her ******* boyfriend came home drunk and beat her to death.  He’s in jail, but I doubt he’ll get much time.   You  know the law doesn’t care about us…”<br />
As Dorian passed, he locked eyes with the blonde, and was overwhelmed with such a deluge of despair he was forced to stop and steady himself.  Resting with one hand braced against the wall, he sought to comprehend his suffering, and though he could not fathom the entirety, he saw that it started in childhood, with a little brown-haired boy and a faceless man in a room without a view…<br />
“Ellos, lo negaron del hospital porque no tenia seguro medico…” came another voice.<br />
Looking around, Dorian spotted a 30’ish woman with brown skin and long salt-and-pepper  hair approaching him.  In her arms she carried a pallid 7ish year old boy with arms and legs and face twisted from what looked like a childhood disorder.  The woman had been speaking to a young girl who trailed slightly behind her and from what Dorian could tell seemed to be related to the two.<br />
Again he was struck with torrential agony, but this time he was prepared and had braced himself for the impact.  As the family reached Dorian’s position, he stood up and grabbed the woman’s shoulders.  “I can help you,” he said, then reaching down with his right hand, drew out the knife he had used to kill Miranda.  After slicing a small cut in his left forearm, he rubbed is right index finger in the trickle of blood before painting it on the boy’s lips.  <br />
“Go home and let him rest,” he ordered the woman and her daughter, who by now were transfixed by something much more powerful than themselves.  The boy, however, was lucid, and smiling up at Dorian, uttered, “Gracias, senor”.<br />
“You must not remember me,” Dorian whispered with a grin as he waved his hand in front of the boy’s eyes, which seemed to glaze over at that moment.  Satisfied that his good deed would not be recalled by its benefactors, Dorian ducked into the closest alleyway and disappeared down the back road.<br />
After several blocks, Dorian cut right and headed towards Wilshire Boulevard.  Above him, angelic eyes shown down to light his path, which was strewn with small debris and pocked with potholes between broken pavement.   Traffic signals flickered at regular intervals, issuing their commands in red, yellow or green as cars groaned to a halt, or squealed and sped off into the night.<br />
As he neared the intersection he noticed several tatterdemalions stretched out on the sidewalk or reclined against a decaying wall.  Old crumpled newspaper populated the street, along with several decaying cigarette butts and bubble-gum wrappers.  Black garbage bags sagged against their neighbors as if in sympathy for the men who huddled close to each other to stay warm.  Off in the distance, Dorian spotted a bonfire raging in an abandoned oil can, with a police car parked adjacent to it.<br />
A man with his head propped up against a light pole was staring at him.  With a full slate grey beard and brown skin, he appeared to be of Middle Eastern descent and was dressed in faded, grimy black pants and t-shirt, but his feet were shoeless and thus also dirty and worn.<br />
“What do you want?!” the man demanded.  “I have a knife.”<br />
“Nothing,” Dorian smiled sadly.  “I’m just passing through.”<br />
“Cos this is mine,” he continued, grabbing a small brown bag near him. “It’s mine.”<br />
Dorian stared at the bag, but could not identify the contents.<br />
“Yuh, yuh…you don’t even know what’s in the bag, do you?”<br />
Dorian shook his head.<br />
Reaching in, the man produced a partial soda can, a cigarette filter, a white substance wrapped in plastic, two small vials of unknown liquid, a syringe and a lighter.  After depositing the powder into the can, the man added small quantities of the mystery liquids, then proceeded to cook all thee over the lighter.  Once the mixture had completely liquefied, he placed the cigarette filter over the substance, then drew up the solution into the syringe.<br />
“Th, th…that’s how you make it,” he stuttered as he reached down and pulled up his pants leg.  A series of huge boils marred his flesh, and several looked infected.  The mendicant chose the lower one, and proceed to inject himself through the crusty, inflamed pustule.  Afterwards he leaned back against the pole and Dorian watched as his eyes glazed over till eventually, he nodded out.<br />
Beside the sleeping indigent a discarded grey wool blanket lay crumpled next to a jar filled with urine.  Squatting down, Dorian proceeded to cover the man’s body and face with it.<br />
“Sad, isn’t it?” someone asked.<br />
Looking up, Dorian spotted a chubby Afro-American man in a pair of khakis and short-sleeved plaid shirt standing a few feet away from him.  “Yes,” he answered as he rose to face the gentleman. “Their souls are dead but their bodies haven’t noticed.  This place… is a virtual graveyard without tombstones.”<br />
“My name is Frank Harris.  I‘m the minister of Freedom Baptist Church,” the other said, extending his hand.  “Dorian shook it but said nothing.  “And your name is…?”<br />
“Irrelevant,” the prince answered, though with a polite smile.<br />
“Okay, Irrelevant. You said these people are dead.  So you don’t think they can be saved?” Frank asked.<br />
Dorian shook his head.  “Not this one, at least,” he said, indicating the man under the blanket.  “He’s dying as we speak.”<br />
“We’re all dying, son.  The question is, where will you go when you die?”<br />
“Ah, this has to do with your God,” Dorian mused, reminiscing upon the religions he had studied whist on Noctura.  <br />
Frank chuckled.  “He’s everyone’s God.  The problem is people don’t acknowledge him.”<br />
“That may be true.  So, what do you think about aliens?  Do you think they can be saved as well?”  Dorian inquired, although he certainly had his own theory regarding the subject.<br />
“The Bible says “God so loved the world,” so I don’t rightly know about aliens, do I?”<br />
It was Dorian’s turn to laugh.  “You are a wise man, Frank, to admit what you don’t know, but really, you should see to it the police are called.  This man here is dead.”<br />
The minister’s face grew serious, and bending down, he reached under the blanket and checked the man’s pulse.  When he turned back to look at Dorian, his mouth was agape with horror.  “How did you know?  Who are you…?”<br />
“Suffice it to say I’m not your Lucifer or any of his arch-angels,” the prince said, turning then towards Wilshire Blvd. “But don’t give up on these people, Frank.  Human hope based on faulty assumptions has worked many a miracle -- with your God’s assistance, of course.”<br />
And with that, Dorian disappeared.</blockquote>

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			<pubDate>Fri, 13 Jun 2008 17:15:33 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Just a short (okay - when have I been known to be laconic? ) literary note before I proceed to the superficial and shallow note: I made it through 3...</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<blockquote class="blogcontent restore">Just a short (okay - when have I been known to be laconic? ) literary note before I proceed to the superficial and shallow note: I made it through 3 pages of a William Faulkner novel, and then realized I could remember nothing I'd read (because my mind, having grown bored, had wondered off in search of something imaginative), so I gave up on trying to make myself learn to like what is popular, and took up the collection of Edgar Allen Poe stories someone had given me, and immediately fell in love - again.<br />
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I really cannot like what I do not like, which is what is popular, even though I do not dislike it because it's popular, but because it bores me.<br />
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Another day when I've more time before work I'll relate to you the bit I read in Poe's obscure work &quot;Never Bet the Devil Your Head&quot;, and relate it directly to Wilde's aesthetic philosophy in &quot;The Decay of Lying&quot;, and then you'll know - as I do - that the second writer read the first, and borrowed from him.<br />
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I'm thinking - however strange it might seem - that Wilde is Poe's funnyman. <br />
(Someone on another site called me the lovechild of Wilde and Poe btw - lol)<br />
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Okay, now for pictures!<br />
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THIS IS ME DRESSED UP LIKE A GIRL:<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/Sezy4.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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WITH A GIRL WIG ON:<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/Sezy2.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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WHICH IS WHAT I WOULD WEAR IF I WERE WEARING THIS DRESS:<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/Clothes/Dress3.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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TO MARRY THIS MAN:<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/Beautiful%20Men/Oscar_Wilde.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/Beautiful%20Men/Wilde1.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/Beautiful%20Men/wilde.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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WHO, BTW, WAS THE INSPIRATION FOR THIS PICTURE:<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/OscarWilde3.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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BUT WE ALL KNOW I'D MUCH RATHER MARRY THIS MAN:<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/Beautiful%20Men/by1812.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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IN THIS DRESS:<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/Clothes/Dress4.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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ALL OF YOU ARE DEFINITELY INVITED TO THAT WEDDING!<br />
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OF COURSE IF THIS MAN SHOWED UP:<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/Clothes/Coat.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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I MIGHT BE FORCED TO PUT ON MY IDENTICAL COAT:<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/Clothes/leathercoat.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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AND SAIL OFF TOWARDS CHINA with HIM, WHERE MAYBE WE WOULD SEE ONE OF THESE:<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/Clothes/491px-Ailurus_fulgens_RoterPanda_Le.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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(If I were an animal I would be a red panda)</blockquote>

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			<pubDate>Tue, 10 Jun 2008 08:55:10 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Yeah - I'm doing one.  Not sure how this trend got started, but here goes. 
 
Right now, this is the most perfect male specimen throughout the world....]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<blockquote class="blogcontent restore">Yeah - I'm doing one.  Not sure how this trend got started, but here goes.<br />
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Right now, this is the most perfect male specimen throughout the world.  Meet Chase Crawford.  <br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/001ce.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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Chase makes a perfect Dorian Gray, if I do say so myself:<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/LordByonPOse.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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When Chase is not working on his hit show, Gossip Girl, he's practicing up on his Brokeback Mountain...<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/normal103cf7205fzh7.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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...with this guy...<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/Chasez.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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...who, by the way, was in a boy band with this guy....<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/Justin-Timberlake.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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Anyone guess the band?<br />
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This guy, by the way, had a wax statue made of him at Madame Taussaud's museum:<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/1221_waxed_07_full.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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...which strangely enough, is featured alongside this guy...<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/1221_waxed_09_full.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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...who stared in Pirates of the Caribbean, and wore a coat like this...<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/WillTurnerJacket.jpg" border="0" alt="" /><br />
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...which was borne out of 18-19th century fashion, much like this...<br />
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<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v671/mstanyasmith1/OscarWilde3.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></blockquote>

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			<pubDate>Sun, 08 Jun 2008 18:20:57 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I know I usually bore or confuse people with my literary goings-on, but today I'm going to talk about my son. 
 
I usually don't discuss him because...]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<blockquote class="blogcontent restore">I know I usually bore or confuse people with my literary goings-on, but today I'm going to talk about my son.<br />
<br />
I usually don't discuss him because my parents and I talk the subject to death, while I have no one to discuss my thoughts with - they confound my father and my mother never replies, except to sigh or criticize.<br />
<br />
Somehow, I spawned the direct opposite of my self.  While I am highly introverted, he is highly extroverted.  While I am intuitive, he's sensing.  While I'm a feeler, he's a thinker; we both have our share of perceiving/judging qualities, but what we &quot;perceive&quot; v/s &quot;judge&quot; are in direct contradiction.<br />
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Our relationship is always a great struggle for me, but quite easy for him.  Since he loves to talk, I let him, and I try to listen (though it is an assault on my mind to do so). After about 3 hours, though, I can't stand it anymore and have to retreat somewhere to be alone and give myself time to think.<br />
<br />
I always feel guilty for being unable to sustain him.<br />
<br />
The boy also loves sports -LOVES BASKETBALL.  He eats, sleeps, breathes it.  I know all the names of the all-stars even though I didn't  care to know them.<br />
<br />
Me - I always caused my team to lose (like in intermediate school, when my mom stuck me in basketball (?!) and I landed on an all-star team that basically ignored me because I was ineffete and ineffectual).  In fact, I almost suffer from a PTSD when it comes to sports.  If it's merely suggested that I should play - I am seized with a sudden, petrifying anxiety - all the abuse I took as a child for making my team lose is still up there in my head, somewhere.<br />
<br />
As for thinking / feeling - I don't consider myself a intellectual moron, but my son has a greater capacity for mathmatical/logical thinking than I do.  For instance, we bought a game of chess. My dad tried to make sense of the instructions, and got all confused.  My son was equally confused.  I read it, understood it, and came up with a simple cheat sheet which listed each piece on the board and what it could or couldn't do, short-hand.  My dad understood but was intimidated (this is the fiscal genius here), so I taught my son to play.  The first one or two games, I had to help him out a bit.  After that, he beat me - consistently.  My 12 year old wins every game of chess I play with him, and I am the one who taught him how to play!<br />
<br />
Plus, the gifted and talented group tried to draft him into their mathmatic class.   (If I hadn't seen him come out of my body, I would wonder if he was in fact my child).<br />
<br />
Yet my little mathmatician cannot seem to remember to do his homework, or study for a test.  We had to literally imprison him in his room each day with nothing to do except study before he became willing to try.<br />
<br />
And he hates to read.<br />
<br />
I love him even though from my perspective he is an alien from another planet - the planet of normal people, I think - but how in the heck does an literary-lovin intellectual introvert spawn a math-loving, book-hating, basketball-playing child???????????????????</blockquote>

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			<pubDate>Sat, 07 Jun 2008 18:10:21 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>There’s a reason why Dorian and Phoenix are isolated individuals who exist midway between human and something else - it is how I feel. 
 
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<blockquote class="blogcontent restore">There’s a reason why Dorian and Phoenix are isolated individuals who exist midway between human and something else - it is how I feel.<br />
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My parents and son (my only friends are my family) are gone.  My son is moving permanently to Kentucky to live with my brother; my parents will be gone for 3 months.<br />
<br />
I have no one to relate to here, and as I grow older and more eccentric, I am afraid that is becoming ubiquitous.  A wise minister once told me it may be my friends can only be found in books, and he was right.  My best friends are dead authors.  Oscar Wilde is especially dear to me these days.<br />
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I finished “The Decay of Lying” a few days ago, and I wished to reach through the book and kiss the man on the lips.  Not only did he perfectly articulate my feelings about modern lit, but he also justified those feeling with numerous literary references, many of which were French and thus unread by me.<br />
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He argues that art should be beautiful, and that realism is course, vulgar and uncreative.  Since it takes all its subject-matter, material and form from real life, it can be done by anyone without imagination.<br />
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Consider these highlights:<br />
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				The ancient historians gave us delightful<br />
fiction in the form of fact; the modem novelist presents us with<br />
dull facts under the guise of fiction. The Blue-Book is rapidly<br />
becoming his ideal both for method and manner. He has his tedious<br />
document humain, his miserable little coin de la creation, into<br />
which he peers with his microscope. He is to be found at the<br />
Librairie Nationale, or at the British Museum, shamelessly reading<br />
up his subject. He has not even the courage of other people's<br />
ideas, but insists on going directly to life for everything, and<br />
ultimately, between encyclopaedias and personal experience, he<br />
comes to the ground, having drawn his types from the family circle<br />
or from the weekly washerwoman, and having acquired an amount of<br />
useful information from which never, even in his most meditative<br />
moments, can he thoroughly free himself.<br />
<br />
It is simply one example out of many;<br />
and if something cannot be done to check, or at least to modify,<br />
our monstrous worship of facts, Art will become sterile, and beauty<br />
will pass away from the land.<br />
<br />
The horses of Mr. William Black's phaeton do<br />
not soar towards the sun. They merely frighten the sky at evening<br />
into violent chromolithographic effects. On seeing them approach,<br />
the peasants take refuge in dialect. Mrs. Oliphant prattles<br />
pleasantly about curates, lawn-tennis parties, domesticity, and<br />
other wearisome things. Mr. Marion Crawford has immolated himself<br />
upon the altar of local colour. He is like the lady in the French<br />
comedy who keeps talking about &quot;le beau ciel d'Italie.&quot; <br />
<br />
&lt;THIS ONE IS SO TRUE FOR ME! I say &quot;the people in my head are more real to me than flesh and blood these days&quot;&gt;<br />
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The only real people are the people who never existed...<br />
<br />
Pure modernity of form is always somewhat vulgarising. It cannot<br />
help being so. The public imagine that, because they are<br />
interested in their immediate surroundings, Art should be<br />
interested in them also, and should take them as her subject-<br />
matter. But the mere fact that they are interested in these things<br />
makes them unsuitable subjects for Art. The only beautiful things,<br />
as somebody once said, are the things that do not concern us. <br />
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modernity of form and modernity of subject-<br />
matter are entirely and absolutely wrong. We have mistaken the<br />
common livery of the age for the vesture of the Muses, and spend<br />
our days in the sordid streets and hideous suburbs of our vile<br />
cities when we should be out on the hillside with Apollo.<br />
<br />
Even in<br />
Shakespeare we can see the beginning of the end. It shows itself<br />
by the gradual breaking-up of the blank-verse in the later plays,<br />
by the predominance given to prose, and by the over-importance<br />
assigned to characterisation. The passages in Shakespeare--and<br />
they are many--where the language is uncouth, vulgar, exaggerated,<br />
fantastic, obscene even, are entirely due to Life calling for an<br />
echo of her own voice, and rejecting the intervention of beautiful<br />
style, through which alone should life be suffered to find<br />
expression. Shakespeare is not by any means a flawless artist. He<br />
is too fond of going directly to life, and borrowing life's natural<br />
utterance. He forgets that when Art surrenders her imaginative<br />
medium she surrenders everything. Goethe says, somewhere -<br />
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In der Beschrankung zeigt Fsich erst der Meister,<br />
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<br />
&quot;It is in working within limits that the master reveals himself,&quot;<br />
and the limitation, the very condition of any art is style.<br />
<br />
As the inevitable result of this substitution<br />
of an imitative for a creative medium, this surrender of an<br />
imaginative form, we have the modern English melodrama. The<br />
characters in these plays talk on the stage exactly as they would<br />
talk off it; they have neither aspirations nor aspirates; they are<br />
taken directly from life and reproduce its vulgarity down to the<br />
smallest detail; they present the gait, manner, costume and accent<br />
of real people; they would pass unnoticed in a third-class railway<br />
carriage. And yet how wearisome the plays are! They do not<br />
succeed in producing even that impression of reality at which they<br />
aim, and which is their only reason for existing. As a method,<br />
realism is a complete failure.<br />
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Now, everything is changed. Facts are<br />
not merely finding a footing-place in history, but they are<br />
usurping the domain of Fancy, and have invaded the kingdom of<br />
Romance. Their chilling touch is over everything. They are<br />
vulgarising mankind. The crude commercialism of America, its<br />
materialising spirit, its indifference to the poetical side of<br />
things, and its lack of imagination and of high unattainable<br />
ideals, are entirely due to that country having adopted for its<br />
national hero a man who, according to his own confession, was<br />
incapable of telling a lie, and it is not too much to say that the<br />
story of George Washington and the cherry-tree has done more harm,<br />
and in a shorter space of time, than any other moral tale in the<br />
whole of literature.'<br />
<br />
<br />
'Art finds her own perfection within, and not outside of, herself.<br />
She is not to be judged by any external standard of resemblance.<br />
She is a veil, rather than a mirror. She has flowers that no<br />
forests know of, birds that no woodland possesses. She makes and<br />
unmakes many worlds, and can draw the moon from heaven with a<br />
scarlet thread. Hers are the &quot;forms more real than living man,&quot;<br />
and hers the great archetypes of which things that have existence<br />
are but unfinished copies. Nature has, in her eyes, no laws, no<br />
uniformity. She can work miracles at her will, and when she calls<br />
monsters from the deep they come. She can bid the almond-tree<br />
blossom in winter, and send the snow upon the ripe cornfield. At<br />
her word the frost lays its silver finger on the burning mouth of<br />
June, and the winged lions creep out from the hollows of the Lydian<br />
hills. The dryads peer from the thicket as she passes by, and the<br />
brown fauns smile strangely at her when she comes near them. She<br />
has hawk-faced gods that worship her, and the centaurs gallop at<br />
her side.'<br />
<br />
(Or vampires and Sang and other supernatural creatures)<br />
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