https://www.online-literature.com/forums/blog.php?52676-Diary-Of-A-Shadow The largest classic literature discussion forum on the Internet. Read Write Teach Share. en Fri, 05 Jun 2026 11:14:56 GMT vBulletin 10 https://www.online-literature.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg https://www.online-literature.com/forums/blog.php?52676-Diary-Of-A-Shadow https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6962-Where-Have-I-Been Sat, 13 Dec 2008 21:25:50 GMT I've been away on a existential hiatus.

As for being a apart of this website I have decided to create my own website as most of the literature I'm interested is philosophical.

http://philosophy-opinions.alldiscussion.net/forum.htm


My new username is: The Fool


I consider this blog free advertisement.

If you love philosophy as much as I do please join my site. ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6962-Where-Have-I-Been https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6628-Pictures-Posted! Wed, 22 Oct 2008 20:29:44 GMT Look at my profile picture or my picture album.:thumbs_up Look at my profile picture or my picture album.:thumbs_up ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6628-Pictures-Posted! https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6622-She-stood-me-up Wed, 22 Oct 2008 16:19:26 GMT There I was calling the latest girl I've been interested with the feeling that somehow this one would be different.

( Boy wasn't that complete BS and garbage.)

( This happens everytime too. I fall head over heels for women very stupidly only to be betrayed.)


Basically either she didn't pick up the phone or she stood me up with the knowledge that I was going to call her 3pm.

I even left two replies on her answering machine telling how I myself have a answering machine too in which she could leave a message for me if somthing came up that didn't allow her to talk to me.

Did she leave a reply on my answering machine for me to reply with later?

No she did not.

What is with women giving men their phone numbers only to not talk to the them when they call?

I much prefer a woman to tell me to f*ck off in person by telling me that they want nothing to do with me than for them to not say anything at all in dead silence.

What a complete lack of f*cking respect.

I'm tired of being nice and respectful to women only for them to act like complete b*tches in return.

And women wonder why I don't have a very high opinion of them. :crash::flare:

( This will be the third time I have been rejected by a woman in the past two months.)

I'm done chasing women for awhile.

The money I saved up for dinner this weekend on the date I thought I was going to have I think I'll just spend on the liqour store down the street this afternoon. ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6622-She-stood-me-up https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6621-Photos-Developed Wed, 22 Oct 2008 16:07:13 GMT I have my photos developed on a disk to be uploaded onto the internet. :thumbs_up

Unfortunately I don't own a computer but instead go to the library everyday where they don't allow you to upload anything. :crash:

However my game plan and strategy is to use a friend's computer today later this afternoon where hopefully I can upload them.

Wish me luck! ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6621-Photos-Developed https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6615-If-your-lost-in-translation-this-is-what-I-really-mean Tue, 21 Oct 2008 19:27:50 GMT I know many people are excited by my announcement of posting my photos and writings. I am too! :):thumbs_up:D However I feel people are lost in... I know many people are excited by my announcement of posting my photos and writings.

I am too! :):thumbs_up:D

However I feel people are lost in translation understanding me when I construct a due date.

First let me explain how much of a procrastinator that I am.

I'm the type of guy who will say he'll do somthing on a weekend and not actually get to it until a month and a half later.


( Grabs the procrastinator encyclopedia.)


When I say I'm going to do somthing wednesday or thursday chances are I won't get to it until the weekend. :p

For those of you who might of been lost in translation I'm hoping this lesson of the day in understanding and exchanging with individual procrastinators will help you in your daily lives.

This classroom is adjourned.

:p:lol::lol: ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6615-If-your-lost-in-translation-this-is-what-I-really-mean https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6614-Dating-Anxiety Tue, 21 Oct 2008 19:18:02 GMT It is now 2:14 and I'm about to call the girl I'm interested in at 3:30.

( Looks at watch nervously.)

I'm wondering if our conversation goes well if it would be too soon to invite her over for dinner at my house this weekend.

( I just met her Sunday night.)

(It would involve Dinner and a movie by candlelight.)

( Maybe some wine and champagne to relax the atmosphere.)

I'm very worried that because I've been going through some tough times financially if that will be a issue with her or not in that my expirience with women within the city I live in has very much been a materialistic based one.

I'm trying to think of some witty remarks to open a conversation with her later on.

( Hope they don't blow up in my face.)

( I feel like she is out my league.) ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6614-Dating-Anxiety https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6607-Internet-pictures-post-poned! Mon, 20 Oct 2008 00:54:01 GMT Until Thursday! ( Only then will they be posted as I ran out of time to take them to a photo shop today.:sick:) The enticing mystery of the man... Until Thursday!

( Only then will they be posted as I ran out of time to take them to a photo shop today.:sick:)

The enticing mystery of the man behind the dreary pessimistic writing along with the smug cynical sarcasm on Literature Network forums deepens.

Who will unlock the man behind the avatar?

The plot thickens................ ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6607-Internet-pictures-post-poned! https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6606-Sneak-Preview Mon, 20 Oct 2008 00:46:08 GMT I have decided to post a sneak preview to the book I am writing by posting some of the first chapter. *In contempt of Utopias By: Username:Mr... I have decided to post a sneak preview to the book I am writing by posting some of the first chapter.

In contempt of Utopias By:

Username:Mr Hyde

( My first name in real life is Nicholas.)

( Don't you now feel special knowing that?)

Feel free to review it or criticize it as that would help me write even more.

I'll probally post it Tuesday night or Wednesday.


The first chapter is where the two main characters meet and where the long debate between themselves begin. ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6606-Sneak-Preview https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6605-Yowsa!!-Wink-Wink Mon, 20 Oct 2008 00:37:25 GMT So I was in the library chatting on the internet as I usually do. ( I don't have a computer at home so basically I'm at the library everyday.) when all of the sudden the emergency lights went on for the entire building where two hundred people had to be evacuated from the inside to the outer parking lot area.

( Including myself.)

( Probally some punk kid pulled the fire alarm thinking it was cute.)

As random luck would have it I met one of the librarians working who is a attractive girl around my age in the parking lot where we began to converse as fire trucks encircled the library.


To my surprise when I asked her out for a coffee in her free-time she did not reject me but instead actually accepted my request by giving me her phone number. :blush: :)

( Could it be my new clothes and boots?)

( I did dress up today as a result of buying new clothes.)

Anyways she told me to call her Tuesday 3 p.m. sharp.

To say I'm excited is no over-exaggeration as the thought of being in a relationship with this beauty has me enthralled. :thumbs_up:blush:

It's been three years since I have ever done anything like this and to say I'm out of practice when it comes to dating would be no over exaggeration at all.

I'm excited where right now I feel giddy wanting to jump up and down but at the same time I am filled with anxiety worrying if I will come off well or not in her eyes.:crash:

( Not to mention that currently I'm a financial train wreck looking very un-impressive when it comes to status and social influence.)

( Will she see past all of that? I don't know.)

( My expirience with many women is negative on all of that but still there is somthing peculiar about her that I'm hoping is somehow different.)

I try to be a person who expects nothing who feels no sense of hope in anything where if nothing should come to happen afterwards I feel no pain or loss from such a emotional stance but I would lie if I said that I didn't want this encounter to go just right.

For now I am caught amongst a haze of day dreams until me and this girl meet again. ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6605-Yowsa!!-Wink-Wink https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6595-Coming-soon-a-ugly-mug-will-be-near-you! Sat, 18 Oct 2008 17:47:08 GMT Yes that it correct folks, Tuesday the pictures of myself will come out where everyone will scream ( no joke.) and somewhere in the world a... Yes that it correct folks,

Tuesday the pictures of myself will come out where everyone will scream ( no joke.) and somewhere in the world a butterfly flapping it's wings will be hit by a stray bullet.

Is the world ready for the imagery of my very being? For now nobody knows but we shall find out!

Will women swoon with lust for my attention?
( I wish.) ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6595-Coming-soon-a-ugly-mug-will-be-near-you! https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6594-From-poetry-to-playwright Sat, 18 Oct 2008 17:42:35 GMT I tried my hand at poetry in prose and although I like it I must say that it is not really my own style of writing. Instead I have gone more... I tried my hand at poetry in prose and although I like it I must say that it is not really my own style of writing.

Instead I have gone more playwright and theatrical with my writing under heavy influence of Shakespeare.

So in a way my book is going to be written alot like a play but I don't think it would be performance oriented.

I suppose my writing would fall under philosophical or expressional dramatism.

So far I have two chapters written for my book:

In Contempt Of Utopias. ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6594-From-poetry-to-playwright https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6558-Btw Tue, 14 Oct 2008 16:05:32 GMT To anybody that is a fan of my blog, threads, or character it should please you to know that I hope to be posting pictures of myself on the internet... To anybody that is a fan of my blog, threads, or character it should please you to know that I hope to be posting pictures of myself on the internet real soon. :p:thumbs_up:idea:

( And since I'm desperate to find love in my life in having some form of a relationship with a woman I will probally join some dumb dating website like Eharmony or somthing.)

I'm not all that impressive to look at but I'll let everyone be the judge of that.

I'm a short haired blonde man with green eyes and I'm 5'9 tall and about 185 pounds medium built.

I also have facial hair as well.

( Go ahead and let your imaginations run wild.) ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6558-Btw https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6557-A-new-way-of-writing Tue, 14 Oct 2008 15:53:39 GMT On the book I'm writing: In contempt of Utopias

I've decided to incorporate prose poetry and philosophy together in order to write it.

In a way I want my writing to have the element of poetry with the insights of philosophy.

I'm not sure if it is going to work but I'm going to try it anyways.

Of course the poetic usage I'm using I want to be dark, maccabre,pessimistic and illuminating like Edgar Allen Poe or Baudelaire. ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6557-A-new-way-of-writing https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6540-Her-Presence Sun, 12 Oct 2008 23:18:38 GMT I'm in agony for her presence as I melt in a thousand pieces forever weak.

My only cure is her smell, her touche, her embrace, her kiss, and her grace. Her voice, her mind, her expression, and her character which is kind.

Once a paradoxical thinker now transformed into a paradoxical philosophical poet for she has reached inside me where I now come to simply just be.

Come with me love away from this world for all eternity until the void of existence for there is nothing more that I desire beyond that which is your very essence. ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6540-Her-Presence https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6506-Family-Life Thu, 09 Oct 2008 17:24:43 GMT My grandparents came from Europe. My grandmother came from Marseilles France and my grandfather came from Munich Germany.

Most of my family's ancestory comes from France so I feel more closer to the French side of the family instead of my grandfather's German side.

To this day I love French culture and I speak French quite well. ( Although when I was younger alot of the language was lost to me growing up when English became my dominant language.)

Although my grandfather was German he spoke French which is how he met my grandmother.

My grandparents were the only people I respected in my family. I say were because they are no longer living.

The rest of my family I have completely disowned largely because they have disowned me.

I still keep in contact with my mother but I do not get along with her at all. My father walked out on us when I was younger and has never been seen ever since.

The reason I don't like my mother is because she is a ex-hippie from the 60's and due to all the drugs she was on half her mind is mentally destroyed. She lives totally on governmental assistance as she can't live independently on her own because of her old drug habits.

Although she doesn't do any of that stuff anymore the consequences of her early life have completely destroyed her living.


I was adopted at age 9 after being in many foster homes by a elderly Italian man who became my adopted father.

My adopted father is the only real family I acknowledge to this day. As far as I'm concerned after he passes I have no family.

Unfortunately my adopted father is in the hospital. He has been ill for four months and has become quite disabled. (He is 75.)

The doctors say that he is in such bad shape that he will never be as he was physically ever again and that most likely he will never be able to fully take care of himself independently.

Me and his other son are trying very hard to get him into a assisted living home when he gets out but the costs are so enormous.

Until then I visit him at the hospital for two hours everyday struggling to watch the person who raised me be so disabled.

( It's depressing to watch.)

So now you know my disorganized family life. ]]> Mr Hyde https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?6506-Family-Life