https://www.online-literature.com/forums/blog.php?14264-title The largest classic literature discussion forum on the Internet. Read Write Teach Share. en Fri, 05 Jun 2026 01:03:55 GMT vBulletin 10 https://www.online-literature.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg https://www.online-literature.com/forums/blog.php?14264-title https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?3213-Shinigami-s-Hellhole Sat, 22 Sep 2007 09:55:22 GMT I'm fond of this word.. it fits my life so aptly...

Well, today was the competition...
I was contestant number 1. Of course when you are contestant number one they are reluctant to give you the higher scores for fear that somebody will be better but I delivered a fine speech. And ducky ducky was there... :) :p :D so that was nice. But I LOST. well, I'm an admitted agnostic and the theme was God-based so I can't really complain. It's just that, I knew I was better than that 2nd placer from DLSU. One of the judges was biased because he's also from DLSU. that gay misogynist!!!

I so hate him.

On a lighter note I was with ducky ducky during the competition but I was really nervous and we really couldn't talk much because it was a contest...

I'm so UNLUCKY. HOW THE HELL DID I MANAGE TO GET NUMBER 1??? :bawling: :bawling: :bawling: ]]> shinigami https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?3213-Shinigami-s-Hellhole https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?3203-Shinigami-s-Hellhole Fri, 21 Sep 2007 12:00:41 GMT Tomorrow I'll be the representative for my school for the Extempo Public Speaking Competition... I'm nervous to say the least, the theme for it is " God's Vision for the Youth: Stir-Up Obedience, Awaken Courage and Inspire Hope in Greater Possibilities"... by the way, I'm an admitted agnostic here so this is really hard for me. Good thing I have a wonderful trainer. He's amazing...

*Wala Lang*

well, just wanted to post here again. hay... feeling a little blue :( ]]> shinigami https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?3203-Shinigami-s-Hellhole https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?251-Shinigami-s-Hellhole Fri, 12 Jan 2007 15:36:56 GMT the lyrics to the song Oh, Oh I’m not missing you Been through just about everything that I could go through When it comes to... the lyrics to the song

Oh, Oh
I’m not missing you

Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don’t know what I was missing or why I ain’t listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiousity
Now that it’s over
What else could it be, he just has to cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn’t I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

(CHORUS)

(But) I’m not missing you
I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I’m not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time it’s different
I don’t even feel the distance
I’m not missing
I’m not missing you

It’s a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn’t I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

(Chorus x 2)

(But) I’m not missing you
I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I’m not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time it’s different
I don’t even feel the distance
I’m not missing
I’m not missing you

No I can’t be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can’t keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when it’s right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

(Chorus)

(But) I’m not missing you
I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I’m not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone (I used to hate it)
Oh different, oh feel the distance
I’m not missing
I’m not missing you

I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin' at my door)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because (it's the best day of my life)
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
I’m not missing
I’m not missing you I'm not missing you (oh baby)
I'm not missing you
I'm so over you
It ain't even a problem

I only have my Filipino, my emcee jobs, my charity project, my choir, my bulletin and my AP movie-making left...
:sick: yes.. I'm dying from the stress... not to mention the research ]]> shinigami https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?251-Shinigami-s-Hellhole https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?239-Shinigami-s-Hellhole Wed, 10 Jan 2007 14:38:11 GMT Since school has started (January 4, 2007) I must say I have been lacking sleep since... Normally, my body can hack it but these days, it's too much. i still have this annoying cold that makes me cough a lot. There has already been so many projects and so many extracurricular activities to do, not to mention the charity project I am working with. In History we have a video report about the Philippines... The video being a telenovela that should last 1 hour. In Math we are supposed to make a survey for the whole high school levels... in Chinese, I'm in the class choir, the poster making contest and I still have to do the documentation for the charity work I joined in. On top of all that i am to be one of three masters of ceremonies at the opening of a basketball tournament whch is to be aired on channels 2 and 4 on January 20... :)

Why am I doing all these things? and more by the way...( that's just the tip of the iceberg) Because I want to keep myself busy so that I won't think of him.. That and because people assign these things to me... :sick: I'm dying from the stress and constant pressure school gives me.

I do hope that I get to rub it in his face that I'm better w/o him...

Sings "I'm not missing you"
I love the line - I don't even feel the distance... ]]> shinigami https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?239-Shinigami-s-Hellhole https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?211-Shinigami-s-Hellhole Thu, 04 Jan 2007 12:54:44 GMT Well, we broke off... He found sum1 else... how grand... :( :bawling: I do so miss him... December 27 to 30 I went to camp.. at sum place really... Well, we broke off... He found sum1 else... how grand... :( :bawling:

I do so miss him... December 27 to 30 I went to camp.. at sum place really cold that just makes you shiver even nder 5 layers of clothing.. I got backl with a cough... no wonder there... but he went to camp too... We aren't fighting.. but we aren't exactly talking either... there is resentment but I know I'll get over it... there is still some attraction and the fight has made my grades drop.. poor me... oh well... I'll just have to do better... so now I'm living my life and I'm trying to live with no strings attached... till my heart stops bleeding and my heartstrings tie another knot... ]]> shinigami https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?211-Shinigami-s-Hellhole https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?48-Shinigami-s-Hellhole Wed, 15 Nov 2006 12:53:43 GMT It's been 4 days since we fought and I've apologized and did my part but if he does not reciprocate my emotions I hope that he'd at least tell me he wants out. Men are such complicated creatures,.. My heartstrings are so tight they feel like they want to yank my heart out, it's already bleeding... bleeding... As much as I love him, I know that I can't be desperate... I just hope that he knows I love him... Funny thing is.. he did the exact same thing I am doing before... We did have a grand time together... A great wonderful lovely picturesque perfect time just talking and sometimes, just enjoying each other's presence... Those were happy times.. sweet happy times... ]]> shinigami https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?48-Shinigami-s-Hellhole https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?41-Shinigami-s-Hellhole Mon, 13 Nov 2006 12:19:31 GMT My boyfriend and I had a little spat... It was my fault but I was really unreasonable at that time enough to say sorry right away or just talk to him... My boyfriend and I had a little spat... It was my fault but I was really unreasonable at that time enough to say sorry right away or just talk to him some more, instead I signed out and diverted all calls and didn't reply... I cried that night and talked to bestfrined - someone whi I shall call Atchie. Well, Archie really helped me out but I couldn't sleep easy knowing that, he may not love me... So I e-mailed him and asked for an apology in the most indiscreet way I can muster and also saying that if ever he hated me or just wanted out.. He could just tell me and I' d stay away from him if he wanted me to- even though it's hard to think about and will certainly be harder to do. It's just like breaking out of a glass cage. You come out bleeding, howling in pain. But, I want to be in that box, and I was happy when we broke in it. He hugged me tight and we broke through together, we shared the pain and I mended his wounds and he mended mine and we stayed there. In our own lil' world. Free from any strife. I'd like to think that he can't go on without me, that life for him will be devastated but I have a nagging thought that says that if ever I was gone he'd flirt with some other girls from other girls whom I don't know... I've said my apologies yet he still hasn't replied. I may be unreasonable to think that our love dies in that instant where I said I love you and heard not an echo back... I just wished that I didn't wish to grant his wish to love me. I feel so heartbroken that this is the longest time we'd fought seriously over something so insignificant as the words " Bahala ka nga" .. Which I suppose, can be roughly translated as " It's your choice" or something like that- but still... I just can't help but feel bad everytimeI see him now. That everytime I pass by him my heart has love pangs and I feel terribly empty.

Should I keep myself hanging? Or should I just let go?

I'm hanging by a moment here with you,
I'm letting go of all I've held on to.
I'm standing here until you make me move,
Just hanging by a moment here with you.

And indeed I'm hanging- by this moment just hanging waitng expectantly for someone who may not come back... For someone I love to save me from this drowning feeling...

Yes, love is a messy thing... it's crazy but I'm crazy... I want to be in love and I hope our relationship of 2 years and 4 months does not end here...
I just hope it doesn't... ]]> shinigami https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?41-Shinigami-s-Hellhole https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?38-Shinigami-s-Hellhole Sat, 11 Nov 2006 10:39:53 GMT Yes.. I am a girl scout... A very good one at that... Very adventurous and I guess that they know how good I am... haahaha...

Hm... [ By the way that's the place where I met my special someone]

I love knowing about new knots, can anyone help me find a good "knot-site"? Well, decorative knots are the best but I know practical one's as well... My room is filled with assorted scout stuff and I have so many ropes.

I've been on a lot of camps and the best part is not sleeping. I've been to hellcamps and funcamps and the difference is when you're in a hellcamp you don't get to sleep and people work you like dogs and you practically eat like one too. As for funcamps, you get up early and the dat is done by 11 or sumthing... thing is, most of funcamps are really corny, tacky and just soooo stupid.

I've met most of my close freinds from scouting because when you sleep with someone in the same tent/bunk/room... it's inevitable for you not to be close to them except if you're really a jacka*s...

Ahahahaah ]]> shinigami https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?38-Shinigami-s-Hellhole https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?34-Shinigami-s-Hellhole Fri, 10 Nov 2006 14:39:00 GMT I suppose I'll start with my lovelife.. This is always a juicy topic...

I have a special sum1.
Who'se close to my heart
We've been playing around each other
Right from the very start

And I never thought I'd see the day
Where playing meant more,
Than playing with each others thoughts,
To relieve each others bore

So now we play with each others hearts
It hurts like hell but what the heck
I can't get away now from his love
And the world compared to him is merely a speck

He makes my heart go ga-ga
Makes me talk incoherently
He pulls at my heartstrings hard
And does all this so innocently

He says I love,I say it back
Yet to others we're still single
But we both truly do love each other
And to others we do not mingle

And so we swear loyalty
to each other, to be true
But I just hope that you truly know
How much I do love you.


He's this amazing guy who is SOooooOooO annoying. He makes me so angry at times but let's just put it this way. If you ask me why I like him... I'd give you an infinite amount of reasons... But if you ask me why I love him. I can't give you an answer because I love him just because I do. And if one day I were to wake up and realize that he doesn't have anything that I like about him anymore... I know, that I'd still love him.

When he went to Taiwan once, we didn't get to talk or chat for 3 days...
On the last day he texted me. And he's only got a limited amount of load left so I was surprised because he's a good prioritizer... Work before Play, same with me. But! He texted me.. even though a single text costs 25php... He told me that he missed me, he told me that he loved me... And I wept that night that he may know how deeply I love him... How much love I have for him and only him.... ]]> shinigami https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?34-Shinigami-s-Hellhole https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?33-Shinigami-s-Hellhole Fri, 10 Nov 2006 14:19:38 GMT Why hello there dears? I didn't expect to see you again. Well, here I am again, just watching some criminal writhe in pain... Well, I thought, why not let people see how Lucy-Jennifer thinks? So read, comment and be amazed as I write down my day to day views on my life as an Immortal. So enjoy!





[Bye Bye... Come Back Again] ]]> shinigami https://www.online-literature.com/forums/entry.php?33-Shinigami-s-Hellhole