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I let people walk all over me. Not so much at school, no, but yea, in the work place. Restaurant business- or with mine, at least - isn't... I mean, you just have to learn to work with people. But today, the girls were just... I realized how incredibly mean they can be when they want to be.

I was checker, for the first time tonight- basically, you close, and no one can leave without you checking their side-work and tables-

I was checker for the first time on a SATURDAY. ...

Daughters of Discord

They silence us
without mercy
only contempt held
out of their own
fragility.

They fear
how easily they
may be cracked
and left bleeding.

Trying to enforce
use few who are
unwavering
to obey their rules.

So their soft skin
may not be marred
those who shrink
away from our
discord.

We remain ...

I feel so alone on the road
Not lonely,
lonely is a terrible word
A word associated with fear
with weakness
with pain


Behind the wheel, I am free
I have no worries
no doubts,
no fears,
no nothing

Inspired by a week of angst

I don't know why, but somehow, for some reason...

I thought things would get better.

I have a great boyfriend. There's not the chemistry there that there ever was with Thomas. but I am happy, it's a good relationship.
I have friends who care about me.

but.

I feel most alone when I'm surrounded.

• Mom is "moving out in May"
• They therefore want me home
• with dad, alone
• But they don't want Sunny back
• Sunshine and I

...

It's not a poem, really, just something I wrote because ... I confuse myself, and I'm so sorry I hurt him, and I hope that it's ok that we're friends and this wasn't a bad choice. I don't date for many reasons, and one of this is because I'm so... weirded out by how lost I get when I'm with someone -- lost, that is, in an Alice in Wonderland way, like this:

What am I doing here? Why am I having a tea party with crazy people and enjoying it? Is that mouse singing? I like this - I'm ...