day in a life

I decided to read the book 'the world without us' by Alan Weisman bought it in January and think I'm ready for a good read.... school is finally getting on track and I'm getting myself in a school mood. did a lot for my political class today and will continue once I have finished writing this blog entry.

I'm gonna go to a book market tomorrow and buy myself some boooooooksssss. can't wait I love them. and I love rearranging my books and finding a system that works. I'm also gonna buy some books for my boy if I find any good ones. he has a lot of books and we read a lot together both his books and mine, he really enjoyed Don Quixote last summer.

last Wednesday it had been 15 years since my dad died. strange that it has been so long. 15 years since my mom told me he was dead. 15 years since I was 9 years old and was sitting in the funeral wondering why everybody was crying. 15 years. strange. when I was 14 years old a girl in my class lost her mother and I remember sitting on a bench when there was a break in school and her friends were talking about it and said that it's a lot worse to loose a mom than a dad. I was angry but didn't say anything, just cried when I got home. that same year I was in Spain with my best friend and her mother, the last night they were fighting because the mom wanted my friend to spend more time with her dad, they had divorced a few years earlier and my friend didn't want to and her mom said 'Helga is lucky her dad is dead since your dad is so horrible'. I was very angry but didn't say anything just cried when I got home and never talked to either one again. 15 years. and now I have a son who has my fathers name.a strong beautiful name for strong men.

this is life on the ice