Om

(A letter to an old, yet always new friend... his last letter had asked me what I usually do with my days.)


I apologize for not responding sooner..

What I do in my day, these days, is usually work... then after, I like to study, sing, listen to music, read; study chess... I also like to do yoga, go walking sometimes, work out (a little), go to the library, and meet with friends... I also play chess at a local chess club... and I am now getting into a Sufi dance group.

I am trying to improve my concentration and focus on beneficial things more than mundane ones.

I am doing well. I found a great book, it's called Atom from the Sun of Knowledge.

Anyway, I was reading this book, and feeling a deep and spiritual presence, peace, and love, and my thoughts turned to you. You have always been my friend throughout happiness and sorrow; you are steady when my life is sometimes in turmoil. You have often challenged me and helped me grow into someone stronger. I have also been able to help you grow as well. You are my brother and I love you as one. I hope I do not make you uncomfortable by saying this!

You have always had a great determination for enlightenment; and you and I, through our different, winding paths, have come to the same conclusion that enlightenment exists outside of religions and beyond human thought. The spirit's heights are beyond our reach and its depths are beyond our sight.

But it is still my firm conviction that the true nature of every self is pure love. Yet when I try to say this to others, sometimes they get negative in their responses, which I do not understand but must accept. To say the source of existence is truth, its true nature is infinite joy, peace, and knowledge; pure love... why this would make someone uncomfortable I do not know.

Yet it is my experience that this is true, and realizing it is my ideal. It is my sole thought in this life: to find truth, and to learn to love, to find my own healing and peace and to enjoy life with others. I can contribute nothing: God does everything. To me God is both personal and impersonal, and it was the impersal aspect I understood first. That is the source - the truth, which is divine joy; which begs to be known, it is transcendent peace and perfect harmony. Its self is the self-proclamation: "I alone exist."

Yet, sometimes I feel enlightened and sometimes I feel I'm the least of men, low and sorrowful. Just now while meditating, I did feel spirit within me and around me. That is truly a wonderful feeling. But I am bereft of true vision. I hope one day I will feel it truly.

Take care of yourself, and wellness, happiness, and peace to all of your family, dear friend.