day in a life

today I'm going to the funeral when my old friend will be buried. I'm a bit nervous. I don't really want to meet these old friends that will probably be there. I look in a pretty positive way on the time I spent with them but I think it's best left in the past. I don't know... we'll just sit in the back and slip out when it's over. I don't know how I feel about his passing. I haven't seen him in 5 years but I had such a crush on him at the time. I have thought about him often in these past years and hoped he was doing something good with his life. and I always thought I'd meet him again one day. there is another boy that was in this group of friends that I have thought about and want to meet again one day but the rest I just don't feel I want back in my life.

I'm just ranting now..

on to positive things. I'm gonna re due my kitchen soon and I'm looking forward to it and changing a few things around the house. love changing. when I was a kid I changed my room about once a week and now when I have moved out I don't do it as often...

I also need to take my dogs out today or tomorrow for a good run. I haven't done that in a few days. the garden is enough for them usually but once or twice a week they need a good exercise and I am not doing that enough during the winter.

well I'm gonna go do something and try not to think about the funeral later today...