A murder of crows
by , 11-08-2009 at 12:42 AM (2393 Views)
It was crappy week. Work was OK, although there's never enough time to get everything done. But we've been extra busy and will be for a few months more, both at home and at school.
And the really difficult part, one of my youngest sons friends got in some serious trouble. The police came to our house and questioned my son. Life is just not the same when the police come to the door.
My heart is breaking for the young man who is in trouble, and for his mother. That has got to be a lonely place to be. We always think of men as tough and strong, but while boys becoming men might appear tough,they are fragile. From where I stand they don't seem to navigate the ups and downs of life as well. Statistics show that more girls than boys graduate from high school. I'm scared, too. I don't know how to keep my boy safe, from the world, from himself.
Anyway, the following was inspired by the vagaries of life, for those days when the world is too much with us.
A Murder of Crows
unsteadily I aim, as carefully as I can,
and although I have no heart for it,
shoot
a mantle of snow falls onto my shoulders,
and I catch glimpses of the lost city,
molting and molten,
a volcano of sin, purified,
through the flakes whirling madly around me
inky jets of nausea
sloshing in my gut,
I’m thrust into vertigo, as a sword into a stone;
huddling on the cracked cement,
my simple cup of hope, nearby, lies bleeding,
then
a hundred black-robed men surround me
I feel their boots through my thin skin,
celebrating my destruction
falling upward into the vortex, I wonder
shall I die?
shall I die?
and time, mortally wounded, falters
a woman, flat-lining,
emotions deserting what’s left of her face,
her ankles fat with sorrow, moans for her children,
but they are gone away,
their soles nibbled by a murder of crows
where are you mother?
where are you mother?
a scurvy tide of blackness
wheeling and keening above me,
reluctantly retreats
and I, at last, open my eyes, blinking, to the gray scrim of the world



