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The Scent of the Reaper

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The only person I've ever seen die was my grandmother -- about seven years ago. Cancer.

My mother, aunts, and wife were in her hospital room. We were on death watch. The end was near. Grandmother had an abdomen so full of cancer it looked like she had swallowed a cantaloupe. She was doped up on morphine to ease her pain. She had as much as she wanted. The end was coming.

I remember watching her chest rise and fall, rise and fall, rise and fall.

MAs & hospice nurses went in and out of the room.

Then, suddenly, I smelt the strong, pleasant smell of fresh baked bread: sweet, yeasty. I remember that smell completely overtook the distinctly antiseptic smell that had previously permeated the room.

I asked the nurse who came in to check her chart -- "are you guys making bread?"

"It won't be long now" she said.

"Huh?" I asked.

"They always smell like bread before. . . ."

Then she left. And we returned to our death watch: rise & fall, rise & fall, rise. . . . . . . . . . . . . .

After I smelled bread, it took about 5-10 minutes for my grandmother to die.

There was no bread. Anywhere.

Updated 11-09-2009 at 11:44 AM by The Comedian

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  1. applepie's Avatar
    I've never heard this... Odd that you would experience something that would otherwise be pleasent in such sad times. Meg
  2. Dark Muse's Avatar
    Wow, that is quite fascinating
  3. motherhubbard's Avatar
    I'm making bread right now. This sure changes the way I think about that yeast smell. I wonder about this. Well written.
  4. Maryd.'s Avatar
    You blown me off my seat...
  5. mtpspur's Avatar
    Grieve well--there are no words--poignant in so many ways.
  6. skib's Avatar
    Very powerful indeed. Well spoken, Comedian.
  7. Virgil's Avatar
    I watched my father. Very bad memory. Rather not talk about it.

    Actually I just came back from a wake. No one I personally knew but from family member's other side. He was 39 years old and had had a heart attack. And his mother had just lost her husband five months earlier. It was not a pleasant experience.
  8. The Comedian's Avatar
    Quote Originally Posted by Virgil
    I watched my father. Very bad memory. Rather not talk about it.

    Actually I just came back from a wake. No one I personally knew but from family member's other side. He was 39 years old and had had a heart attack. And his mother had just lost her husband five months earlier. It was not a pleasant experience.
    Sounds difficult Virgil. I've yet to deal with the death of a parent.
  9. JuniperWoolf's Avatar
    I don't usually read blogs, but I love yours.