day in a life

I like tea, most kinds of tea but I still prefer coffee. It's better in every way. I only buy GOOD coffee, not cheap or of lower quality. There is a lot of difference in the taste. I don't know that much about tea and tea quality. I've read a lot of books about coffee and the farmers and all the process... I'm gonna try and drink more tea, at night at least.

It's strange the need to be alone. My boy was being very difficult this morning, my friend had her dog on a dog show and me and Gummi went to see them. He won in his category by the way. Gummi was just not listening to me, rolling on the floor and walking away, this is so unlike him, he is going through some period of challenging me. I told him that we would go home if he wouldn't listen and just as my friend was coming to sit with us for the rest of the show, he was rolling on the floor and not listening to me so I just said goodbye and we went home and he was crying and yelling all the way home and this just ruins the day for me. well until I told his dad to take care of him for a while so I could go out for an hour or two. I just wanted to be alone for a while, it's strange this need to be alone. I don't want to live without my boys but sometimes I just don't want to think about anybody but myself. When I was younger I would go to a coffee house alone and read but I just don't do that anymore. mainly because my boyfriend works a lot and I don't want to let anybody babysit unless it's necessary, not just so I can go out. My mom is the only one who has had him over night and that is 6 times since he was born 3 and a half year ago. and those times it was only because she begged me to let her have him. I just want to have him with me..... is that strange. a woman at work said the she wouldn't want to be my kids grandma because of this, but I don't care I didn't have a kid to let someone else have him.

Now I'm ranting so I think I'll stop, you guys are probably getting used to this, ha...