day in a life

I am so tired, but my boy is fighting to stay awake. every now and then he just dosen't want to sleep and cries and screams and calls for me. I sit in my living room watch tv and write a blog hoping he will fall asleep so I can go to bed.

I was just watching the last show of three based on sense and sensibility by Jane Austen, I read it years ago and I always love how Austen wrote. all the sadness and the pain you feel for her characters and how you can't imagine a good ending but it always comes and usually exactly like you wanted it to be. I really enjoy how different the sisters are one so closed but you can feel how the feelings are bursting inside her waiting to get out and the younger one so dramatic and shows every bit of excitement and sadness like it's a matter of life and death. I should read it again. it's hard when you have a long list of books you want to read and start adding to it books you have already read and want to read again...

he is asleep, finally. he needs to wake up to go to ball school in the morning. when I picked him up after school this morning the instructor said he had so much fun and was very happy all morning but when I ask him about it he says he didn't like it and that he was crying the whole time. he is at an age when he lies a lot, I have read that 3 year olds don't understand the difference between a lie and what really happened, I don't know, all I know is that I leave him in the morning almost crying because he just wants to be with me and when I come to pick him up he's very happy and having so much fun. I wonder if all kids do this. like he is trying to make me feel guilty. maybe I am not making any sense right now...

I'm gonna go to bed and read 'the idiot' untill I fall asleep.