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Bluebiird
, 02-18-2009 at 03:54 PM (2350 Views)
Damnit. My uncle's dead. The one with the lung cancer. The one I was writing Badgerman for. His birthday was last week. I aimed to finish Badgerman for then. I didn't. It isn't finished. It was never sent. And I am so pissed off with myself.
I haven't blogged for nearly 2 months and lots of things there've been to say I just couldn't be bothered. Pretty selfish to blog now huh? Use you guys to cheer me up? Don't worry, that's not why I'm doing this. I just wanted to let it be known and what better time than now? Seeing as he died today, an hour or so ago. Figured I mark his passing. Suddenly rapidly declined. My dad and other uncle were going to go out to the Isle of Wight and see him tomorrow. They're still going out there tomorrow, they just won't be seeing him.
I could do another rant about how useless I feel about not finishing Badgerman sooner but there's no point. I think I've gotten a little harder towards death since last year.
Remind me to tell you everything about the past two months, later on. I'll try to remember it all.

Bluebiird out.
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  1. Virgil's Avatar
    No you're not selfish. Life is complicated. Sorry to hear about your uncle. I'll be glad to listen about your passed two months.
  2. mtpspur's Avatar
    Hey Blue--I have wondered about your abence but I'm been in and out myself these days. Words are usually insufficient to render sympathy. I am sorry about your loss. Grieve well Blue and try very hard not to let any regrets tear you apart. As young as you are it's easy to think there is time aplenty and you meant well. I would finish Badgerman as a tribute to him. In my own life I have collected things JUST to remind myself of my father. The irony is he would NOT have understood the gesture but I do it for myself. My thoughts and prayers are gladly with you.
  3. Joreads's Avatar
    Oh I am so sorry about your Uncle. Hang in there and do not be pissed off with yourself.
  4. Niamh's Avatar
    Awww Blue! I'm very sorry to hear about your uncle. *hug*

    And yes do blog about the last few months. I for one have a "where ya been!" going through my head.
  5. kiz_paws's Avatar
    Blue, I was sorry to read about your Uncle, but as repetitive as these words may seem, he is in a better place now. His suffering is over.

    I'd not be hard on myself for not completing that story you were working on. If anything, Blue, complete it just for the comfort of knowing that it was dedicated to him, and when you are done, you could say that it was his inspiration that enabled you.

    Take care and we missed you.
    ~K♥zzo