My Blog...How original.

i normally don't do double blogs. but hey, there's a first for everything.
i realize that my previous post didn't really mention anything so i thought to um, add it.
So, i don't know if i ever told ya'll but i DID start voice lessons. actually, i've been in it for like four weeks. to be frank, i am disappointed with it. we hardly do any singing. it's only about 20 minutes of focasing on singing, the rest in a lot of music theory. in other words, i have learned nothing NEW since i have joined this class. i already know music theory from my piano. that's why i'm taking piano, for the music theory. that and if i want to major in music, i need to have two years of piano. might as well get it down with.
it's funny what happens in two years. When i first joined, (almost two years ago) i had no mission in life other then to defy the law of growing up and be the biggest fantasy freak ever. lol. it's so funny to read my old writing.. i'm like "DID i write that?! oh, gosh, that's embarresing." My grammer was so bad when i littler.( not that i'm THAT great now. lol) now that i'm "older", my grammer has improved() and i'm not dreading growing up. that in itself makes me mad because i still have something knawing at my soul saying--
"Don't grow up! Peter will never forgive you!" (yes, i'm still just as crazy for Peter Pan as ever, i don't think that'll ever change.)
but i'm excited too. When i "grow-up", i'll most likely go to collage and pursue my "dream". Singign and acting. I'm so happy to see my life fall into place, it's truelly something to look back. It's also truelly scary. It kinda haunts me to know that just 6 months ago, you mention growing up and my blood would boil. now, it seems ALMOST fasinating. i feel that i'm being untrue to myself. I don't want to give into peer presure and i'm sometime afraid that why i have "changed". Another reason why i think i started to "grow up" is because i was tired of being considered crazy. now, i'm not saying i'm NORMAL, but i'm just not crazy. *sigh* it's going to take years to get rid of that title with some of my friends. that kinda hurts, ya know. i'm goofy not crazy. and i know they are just teasing, but i think sometimes they really do mean it. the worst is with Joe... It's terrable. The way he looks at me when i do sometimes if i do something "unnormal", drives me mad! but at the same time i love it. lol. maybe i really am crazy.
alrighty i have to go. sorry if there is any REALLY bad grammer or mistypes/bad spelling, i was speed typing cause i only have a few minutes. lol.
Peace out,
Rock on,
love,
~Argetlam