Seeking
by , 01-09-2009 at 06:59 PM (3355 Views)
I am sitting here in front of my computer,dying to sleep...I am also having a very interesting chat converstion with a friend of mine about philosophy and "Faust".I feel like one of those famous editors now,fixing his paper and redirecting his thoughts...
I had this physics exam today.It was quite easy,but I've been studying physics thoroughly this year,so it's probably normal.And then,at literature's class,I made my teacher laugh and nobody has done that this far...I'm being pretty funny lately...
With all these I mean that I am starting to achieve part of what I want to achieve.I have always wanted to be an intellectually active person...And I believe I am starting to be.I read a lot.I try to write whenever I have time and inspiration.I debate the whole time.I try to make my line of thought evolve.I try to raise my interest on various subjects.I love history and philosophy,but on the same time I am fascinated by physics and Einstein;I live for literature but I feel amazed by many mathematical theories.But yet?...Is it real?Is what I am trying to do just a play?Is it just trying to be good and brave?Is it a list of things to do this year?I like not to think so.But I might be easily mistaken.I know someone that is very smart and very cultivated.But you can tell he is following a list all the time.In the end,what's wrong with that?Maybe it has to be a list there...
I don't know.For some time now I have been in a constant state of searching.Of searching for what?Maybe the supreme truth...I know,it lasts a lifetime...Several lifetimes...Million lifetimes?Who am I to find this supreme truth if all the greatest haven't?Anyhow,what's weirdest is that everyday more I understand tha the small and ordinary things of life are the ones that help the seeker advance.Or are these the delusions of a sixteen year old?...



