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I Have A Blind Date

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Countess
, 05-07-2007 at 10:36 AM (1569 Views)
...with another woman!!!

Feeling sorry for me (I have no friends), my mother has talked to one of her friends who also has a daughter around my age, and they have set up a luncheon with us tomorrow so we can meet. I guess you can call it a "double date".

Anywho, I think I must be nervous, because I dreamed about it last night. In my dream the girl was a total nut, and I discovered that a mental facility was paying her/my mother to find a mentor for her, and they chose me. So, they were getting kickbacks from the friendship, the girl was getting a mentor, and I was getting...nothing.

Well, less than nothing since I was constantly working to keep her under control and trying to help her.

But then I have always been, contrary to other people, the foul-weathered friend. I'm the person people go to when they are hurting, and I do what I can to help them. Then, once they are happy again, they go have fun with other people.

It's all I know.
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  1. kathycf's Avatar
    I think your dream expresses anxiety quite a bit. Are you nervous meeting new people? I tend to get like that. Hopefully, this woman won't be a nut and you guys will have a nice time.

    A foul weather friend seems at first glance to always be the giver, but have you considered that you get something from helping people through difficult times? Maybe that is the way you feel comfortable relating to other people, as the "helper"...there is altruism in that and also a measure of control. This is in no way a criticism, and of course I am only speculating based on a short blog entry, so that is all it is...sheer speculation. Well, at any rate I hope you have a nice lunch!
    ~Kathy
  2. andave_ya's Avatar
    yowch! I know what you mean in your last paragraph. But think about it this way. If it wasn't for foul-weathered friends, the world would be a much drearier place.
  3. Countess's Avatar
    Yes, I am nervous meeting new people, Kathy. I do get something from helping other people, but it's not a measure of control (LOL), it's simple pleasure. When I see someone get better, I know God has used me. This infuses my life with meaning and gives me a fantastic sensation.
    But, pleasure from helping others only fulfills a certain part of me. Like any human, I need love too - that is the part that is left wanting in the end.
  4. kathycf's Avatar
    Well, as I say, I was speculating...so I hope I didn't cause offense to you. I guess what I mean was sometimes people help others because it is a role they have become accustomed to..."the helper". I think I understand what you are saying re: getting your needs met too, which is just as important as helping others.
  5. Countess's Avatar
    You didn't hurt my feelings - you worded it nicely. I appreciate it.