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I have several things to talk about but I wanted to start with Bailey’s birthday and how wonderful it is to be her mother. I’m so lucky to have her. She’s 14 today. How did that happen so quickly. In just four more years she will be an adult. I can’t tell you how it feels to be looking at having an adult child. For those of you who say I’ve still got four years- BAH! Four years in the life of a parent is equaling to a snap for the rest of the universe. Time flies! One moment you are rocking them to sleep and the next you’re watching them go off to college.

I know that my emotions are unwarranted and unreasonable but I feel betrayed. I feel like she’s growing up on purpose with absolutely no consideration for her mother. I almost believe she’s doing it to spite me! I must be crazy. On one hand I look forward to the day that all the children move out but at the same time I want to put the breaks on. I guess there is no way to please me.

All of my kids are good kids. Bailey is exceptional. She is. I’ve never had any trouble out of Bailey and she’s so good to come to me with everything that I don’t expect to have serious trouble. She makes mistakes, but she deals with it. I’m not a micromanager so she knows how to be responsible and how to deal with the repercussions of her decisions. As far as that crappy teenager stuff that every parent fears goes she hasn’t been bad at all. I do hate to see her go through the different things that adolescents brings, but she’s got a good head on her and will come through just fine.

I just want my little girl back. Once an age has passed there is no going back. I have enjoyed every moment so much it’s hard to know that she is this much closer to going away to college. I hope she doesn’t move off somewhere.

Bailey, there’s plenty of room right here on the farm for a pretty blue house. You can even build off in a corner somewhere and I won’t come over very often and never without calling first. Really.

In other news-

Mason had his echocardiogram done yesterday but I don’t know when we will know what it showed. I’m really sure it’s nothing. He also had a bunch of lab work done to try to find out why he feels so crummy all the time. Poor boy. I hope he gets better soon.

I got my grades and I have one A and four Bs. I feel like I pissed four As away. One B I’m proud of because I had to work for it. My husband thinks that it was a good trade off because the kids have been happier and the house has run smoother this semester. I said in the beginning I wasn’t going to worry about my grades this time, but now that I have them it stinks. I don’t know if I can slack off again like this. I want As. I have to choose between being a great mother and being a great student and it really stinks. I know there is no real choice to make there, but it’s still hard.

We are planning all of our Christmas events and I’ll be so glad when it’s over. I got Bailey cake decorating classes for Christmas. We wanted it to be a surprise, but they called to confirm and she answered the phone. Total bummer! I think she was proud of her gift though. Next time I have a surprise for someone I’ll not be so lazy and answer the phone myself!

Merry Christmas everyone.