Halls of the Dark Muse

Something posted in another thread made me think of this. But pretty much I was born an old maid I think.

In high school I never bothered with the whole dating thing, I never felt the slightest inclination or desire to do so. It all seemed like such a pointless waste of time to me. As a teenager I would think to myself, why bother getting into some meaningless relationship, that is just going to end anyway. What does that accomplish? It is just a waste of my time, effort, and energy.

And that is pretty much how I always felt about the whole dating thing. I just never saw the point of meeting someone based on some initial physical attraction and then wasting a bunch of time just to find out that you really have nothing in common and having the whole thing go nowhere anyway.

But even as I was in high school I would watch other girls acting all dramatic carrying on as if the world ended, and crying, and woe is me, just because some guy dumped them, and I completely failed to understand that.

I would think to myself, what is the big deal, I mean you were not going to end up spending the rest of your life with this guy anyway. Why are you crying for hours, just because some random guy you dated in high school dumped you. Surely you had to know form the beginning that the relationship was eventually going to end anyway.

And I am really not actually completely cynical about love in general, I just don't see the point in going about it the way normal society does. That never appealed to me.

I am currently in a long distance relationship right now, with someone who I met online, and though I know a lot of people disvaule that, it works for me. The way I see it, we initially connected on an intellectual level and found out that we had a lot in common without being distracted by all the other crap. Physical appearances were not particularly important to either of us.