Poetry

Oh that is terrible Guardian. Please don't do anything rash. If you are this depressed you need to see a doctor. For now just go and visit a relative or friend. Things will be ok. There is nothing so bad that one needs to end one's life. You're a good and decent person. You should take pride in that.

My friend, what has prompted this loneliness?
I, too, have been feeling this way lately...

Just missing someone

Loneliness can eat away at you if allow it. Not sure what your situation may be but thinking of fond memories of that someone may help. I would suggest perhaps a quiet walk--driving while depressed is definitely NOT a good idea for your well being and that of others. If you worship a God prayer can comforting. I think posting here is a start. Admission of being lonely is a step towards helping yourself.
The brain shutting down is to protect you from overload. If you can relax--playing music and just resting. When you settle down think of someone you haven't talked to in awhile and maybe make a connection with them. Hope some of this helps. I wrestle with the problem on a daily basis even though I have a loving wife and some friends it somehow often doesn't seem enough and I can't understand WHY I am so unsatisfied when my life such as it is is going fairly well. I generally get out of the mood by having the Lord hrist reveal His many blessings to me. This is NOT meant to preach at you--just give you some ideas. Going to read your next entry next and see if any thing else comes to mind. Rich

i don't know who is the one you are missing or what you've been through. i don't have the least idea of who you are or the way you think. but please let me tell you that everything will get better. i see this is an old entry so probably now you are in a better disposition. i hope you are. i just want to tell you that i understand the way you feel. i might not be able to understand the reaons that have led you to this situation, but i do understand your feelings. i won't tell you to ignore them and pretend that you are ok and everything is fine. you have to live every single moment of your life the way it is in order to be able to get through it in time.but that does not mean that you should not try and make an effort to feel more relieved. you know, the best thing i can do when i feel really really awfully, is to be the psychologist of myself. funny ha?well, it does wonders with me. try to talk to yourself and explain why you have these feelings. it will help you find the real causes, face them rationally and get through them.