A Ramble through Smilie Land

Ive just found out my dad had a mini stroke thing 15 days ago, and my family werrnt planning on telling me till August! They decided that if I knew, I might not want to got to prague and so my mum told my little sisters, even my best friend knew, and Ok so my mum has only known since monday, he didnt tell anyone, and my sister has only known since yesterday and telling the other one is what let the cat out of tthe bag since one of the little ones over heard enough to become hysterical and let me in on what was happening, Im the oldest Im supposed to be the one who helps deal with bad news, if she wasnt planning on telling me about this how can I go away for 3 months anything could happen and they wouldnt tell me... we sat for 3 hours in my grandmothers house while my 14 year old cousin (who lived in the same house) lay dying in ICU because noone wanted to upset us with bad news- we didnt find out till we were in the airport coming back to the uk what happened , and my mum was so mad buts shes done the same thing to me , no worse.... Im the only who is free to go out there and make sure he sticks to his diet and new healthy living plans.... or at the very least I should stay here if she goes ...Sids all very well and good and closer to driving than I am the one whos bname is down as the next legal guardian of the little....

I justr needed to say that because apparantly everyone in RL has been in collusion about keeping me in the dark, or has never seen be go to pieces and well you dont need to saying thing I just needed to let off a little steam, although if anyone can explain this from my mums point of view Ill be grateful cause right this minute I cant say I see it.