A Ramble through Smilie Land

Another post already .. I swear my brain must be in overdrive.
Do you know another trhing that is sad? Hvaing something to say and no being able to say it for all the ridicule it will get. So Ive decided Im just going to say it.
Here goes.............................................. .................................................. .................................................. .................................................. ............. and then you get stuck.

Maybe I should just say up front that I know its unfashionable and unpopular in our great enlightend age, and millions probably trillons of people dont agree with me but you know what? Accept me as I am or move along. What we belive is great big part o who we are and ther is no escaping that and when you start to lose focus on what it is you belive life just tramples you up and you begin to lose who you are. I guess thats part off the fire of life.. going through all the changes, like clay on a potters wheel you never quite recognise the shapes at first but slowly andsurly they emerge( after alot of fairly painful looking twists and turns ) as something truly amazing. And sappy as it sounds most people are amazing.

So where was I oh yes...

So its really easy to lose sight of who you are and what you belive in this world we live in a little compromise here a little bending of a principle there just this once and suddenly you dont know who you are anymore. And sometimes it takes months for youy to realise that that is wrong with you. You become something completly different and have even noticed. Now theres a scary thought for you.
Now Im not saying change is bad, nor addaptation , we all need to survive but if you dont realise youve changed you just end up miserable without quite knowing why. I guess what Im saying is we all need to be grounded in the knowledge of who we are, because if we don't know who we are then how can we expect the world to know how to treat us?

But the most suprising thing is the strangesness of the things that sometimes wake you up and make you remember who you are. I was reading abook the other day and the authour said something and just 8 words later Ive realised whats bveen wrong with me for the last year or so, Id forgotten who I was or more correctly I was refusing to acknowledge who I really am and its been making me miserable. You twist yourself into all sorts of knots trying to give people what they want when the truth is you should be just who you are or rather you should accept who you are and move on from there. Otherwise the life you build is based or a lie or as Wilde put it shifting sands.

Accepting your Self (or soul if you will) for all its ugliness and beauty is , I think, important to being happy because the triteness is true the one person you can escape is your self and if you cant get on with yourself youll drive both yourselves crazy.

And now that I look at this post I havent said what it is that I belive that makes me who I am and yet now that I think about it I dont need to and lets face it all that babble was simply because I havent the- shall we say- stomach to face sneers. I like people too much. And maybe it doesnt matter as long as I dont forget again. But Im not going to go back and edit this post because I don't belive in editing what you want to say when youve written it already it makes things so much more stilted and less intresting.

A newly rediscoverd and rejuvinated Night



course none3 of what Ive said is actually new or original self help people have been saying itfor decades possibly centuries but knowing something and knowing something are differnt things , no?