Sci Fi Story

After reading this entry, I don't really know what to say. It looks like you're in a bad place right now and I can relate to all that. When I start to feel like that I just pray. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Hey, Pete, ouch! I'm really sorry about the mess, but please, don't wish you're dead! I don't know you as well as I do others on this site but please know, my sex notwithstanding, that I think highly of you and pray for you. Just, not quite alone, please, because everyone (and I mean everyone, because it's obvious) on this site thinks the world of you.

Hey Pete, I called you tonight because I was just worried about you after I read your blog tonight. I almost feel guilty sometimes for reading your blog. I feel like I'm reading your personal diary. But to be honest we are a lot alike. If I was brave enough to write my feeling down in a diary it would read a lot like yours. I try not to show it but there are a lot of days that I get depressed and ask why me, why can't I be normal and fit in to this world like everbody else and have a happy normal life. I'm happy but I've never been truely happy if that makes any since. I've found myself a few times asking God to just take me because I'm ready to go, I'm tired of living alone and not being truely happy. But then I know I'm here for a purpose so I try to live life with a possitive attitude and have faith that God has a plan for me and he will help me through life. I have to believe that or I don't think I could go on some days. I'm not writing this to get you more down but just as a friend that can relate to how you are feeling. I do believe in my heart that God sent Maggie to me and he brought me and you together for a reason even if we do end up just being best friends. I have felt a lot less alone in the last few months than I have in a long long time. I pray that we both find true happiness one day but just know that you will always have a best friend that you can always talk to and you are never alone. Love you always and forever, Suzie

Take care of yourself Pete. No wishing that you are dead, I for one would miss you. Much Love, Meg

Well Pete I'ld be a liar if I didn't somewhat agree about women and that three of the very worse times in my life were caused by women (two of whom claimed they loved me) BUT three versus an uncounted amount of blesssings from ladies over the years SHOULD more then make up for it. But those darn failures!! They cripple and stunt the growth. We need to seek light in the darkness. For me it's knowing at the end of the day the Lord Christs loves me more then I love myself and I can be very self-asorbed--ask Ruth.

But you are not alone and for my sake at least a little less talk of being dead. Some pains never go away and I would mourn your ghost.

Yours friend always Rich

Friends, if you only knew how painful my life has been. I saw Renae tonight. And she told me to **** off. She cursed me. That woman is an idiot. She has no right! She asked me, "Why don't you ever call?" I did, but she is too retarded to even answer the phone. I'm now going to pine for a woman named Linda. Its a powerful name, but the Lord calls me away. Please, Lord, don't let me break this woman's heart. God Bless, Cheers, B

I do wish I was dead, Renae cussed at me while she flirted with another man. I don''t know how, but I won't survive this curse. I've begun to hate her! She is not worthy. Suzie is worthy, but I still feel incomplete. I'm always alone. My heart aches. B

F***.
Just. F***.
Ouch.

Day ALWAYS follows night. Follow your conscience. We love you, Pete.

Pete, no matter how low it gets, don't wish to be dead. Life has a lot of beauty in it -- you yourself have written about it earlier on in this blog of yours. Think of nature. Think of that story you were writing, the joy you had. Think of music -- you are talented in this area -- go and blast some music, pour it out of ya. It always makes me feel better. I don't know a recipe to find inner peace, but if I ever find it, I will share it with you. You say your troubles are with women? Well, remain aloof with them for awhile. The right one will come along without your agonizing over it, I am sure. My hubby came along when I had totally sworn off men and marriage. Now why is that?? Anyhow, I won't say 'good luck' because that is too cliche. I will say 'peace' and you will know that you are in my thoughts. Love K♥z

Actually, I'm not going to pine for any women, PERIOD. There are way too many fish in the sea!