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Nikolai, you are so like me. I love your "about me, "you must have added to it. I was praying in a graveyard today, and I saw a blond woman in the corner of my eye. I think it was the woman I was praying for in her youth. It scared me and confused me, because I could not find her when I looked. There is a world of spirituality that is so confusing to me. I will hold all judgement until I must be judged, but on that day I shall bring forth witnesses of friendship, and witnesses of harm. I hope I am judged to be your friend forver. B

it can be a coincidence or it can be a sign ....I feel the same way about life as you have written.I just feel that there is more to life than just to live it and watch everyday pass by. I am an Indian and "Srimad Bhagvad Gita" forms the core of my life.I have been following it unconsciously and now i have decided to read it. I know there is enlightenment and moksha and have been seeking self realization since i was a child but working towards it on my own has not lead me any where till now. I am confused but my belief of uncovering the truth is still as strong as it was before.I have found my connection with 4 things ...God or the supreme being and His colossal power;knowledge of existence of universe,time,space and matter;writing and the plight and status of women in our society.

Many people feel similarly but all are limited...my goal is to work towards spirituality. For the devotee of the Lord, it says in the Gita, the future is very bright. I've seen glimpses of this future and now I am working towards being fixed in Krishna consciousness, of which I've had moments of peace. It's very wonderful, and you describe it perfectly: there is more to life, than to just live it, there is more to life. This could be a mantra, and I've seen it innumerable times. There truly is reality above us, of whcih we see only perverted shadows, until we still our mind or purify our hearts, or become fixed in knowledge. We can't have peace unless we are fixed in knowledge, or until we come to trust ourselves and come to realize our divine natures. For truly our natural state is divine. And in relation to everything else in life it's on a different level. I'm glad you wrote me, I'm very interested to continue this. Please write again, I have much much more to say.