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Me: Crazy as ever. Moody too. The drama queen is fussing to start whining about the situation at work but oddly enough the flashbacks to 1991 and the fulfillment of a grateful government's policy to get rid of 20 years and over veterans have induced a strange sense of calmness I'm not used to. Plus most of us work are in a wait and see mode. It helps that our workload is moment by moment as we play our endless game of beat the clock on service. Win some, lose often, be heroes more then you would believe and observe people deal with stress and automotive use interruptions.

A few days ago a Litnetter asked me a question about my real relationship with Logos and if Ruth was the love of my life or not?! It had never ever occured to me that my little quips and jokes were to taken other then gentle teasing and an attempt to poke a little fun at Litnet 'crushes' as I thought I made it clear my wife is very aware of who and when I talk to people here. (NOTE: Kizpaws is the secret. Ruth finally saw a picture of her and went hmmmm. I assured her the heart was devoted to only one Canadian at a time.) See another joke.

But it got me thinking. I have been married to Ruth 27 years and more and I don't think I ever thought of her at the great love of my life. Musing it over I realize that that position in my mind was my first real love, Susan W. from 9th grade. You just never forget that sort of thing when you are young and hormones are running freely. Marrying (to my mind) a bit later then usual in life I have always found Ruth to be God's perfect if somewhat mysterious plan for my life and wonderful gift as time goes by. I've just always sort of accepted her as The Wife--see blog entry #66 as I suggested to my questioner.

But I really appreciated the wake-up call. I believe I have been taking the long suffering one for granted. Too much so. We have our ups and downs and great sins have come and gone in the marriage but at the end of the day I can't see myself with any one else. Even if she never read a Shadow novel or an Avengers comic. Jonah Hex would be asking and hoping a bit too much. Haven't told her yet Clint Eastwood's Man With No Name is finally geting a comics series and Hex was comics first answer to that iconic character and changed western comics forever since 1971.

Anyhow I asked Ruth if I was the great love of Her life and she was equally confused. We both sort of shook our heads at each other and yesterday I borrowed some money from son Dan and took her to Pizza Hut for lunch and attempted to talk about things of interest to HER for a change.

So expect less Logos jokes in the future as I believe that phase has almost run its course. Can't have Litnetters getting the wrong idea after all. I still remember the one Litnetter that thought I was a poor Rich man. For the record I think most here figured it was clean fun and Logos has always been an encouragement to me here. Between Grace86 and her, if not for their joint efforts I might have departed a long time ago and most of my quips are a weird way of saying thanks.

Beside Ruth says my real great love of my life is DC/Marvel comics and it was very hard to disagree but I pointed out that's on a material level. I also reminded her I love her very much but so darn bad at it.

Sometimes the long suffering one is a little too quick to agree with my self-condemnations which expose the pride lurking beneath but that smile--even with the tooth that I again assure you I did not knock out--I have witnesses---is so irresistable.

Sigh 56 years old and still Peter Pan at heart. The Lord is the true long suffering one.