Barmy Blue's Bland Blog

**** IT **** IT **** IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ****ING BASTARD!!!!!!!!!! WHY!!!!
She died this morning. She didn't even make it to her 70th birthday! I didn't even finish the story, I brought it with me so I could continue it, I was enjoying writing it. But it's ALL ****ING USELESS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! USELESS USELESS USELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S NOT FAIR! SHE SHOULDN'T HAVE SUFFERED!
I hear that towards the end she was heavily sedated and probably didn't recognise anyone. She went in her sleep at least.
I knew the second mum said my other aunt's name. The only reason she'd call at such a time was if their sister was dead. The only good thing about this is that I was here, for what little comfort I could provide. I don't know how I feel now. I'm trying not to think about it. It's over now. I can't bring her back.