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integration of knowledge (a mystical experience!!!
by , 02-14-2008 at 12:17 AM (1475 Views)
Well, I've sort of got to the highest point yet. But then, it's either my highest point of knowledge or sheer insanity, and I realize they're quite close. If I explain this you might think it's insanity; but that's fine with me. It won't bother me if you try to negate me, as I've integrated knowledge better than this. It's like how will you think you are beautiful if everyone thinks you're ugly? This is one of the points of integration of knowledge, to transcend this. To be what you know, or what your knowledge shows.
Now I've thought a little bit about what truth is, and I realized (for one) that I don't know truth by first principles so much as that I have a continuum of thoughts, and I value some as true, and I relate some to others; and in general this is mostly an intuitive process. Sometimes, quite often, I will perceive an idea as awakening possibilites or closing them off. Expanding the mind or shutting out options. So on and so forth- this isn't so important.
Integration of knowledge is yet to be defined (by me), I suppose. It sort of means "feeling" knowledge. It has a lot to do with affirming life. It has to do, as I said, with achieving something from the knowledge. Don't we mostly think in possibilites instead of absolutes? Do we know things so much as dance around them and tag them down with spears of possibility? Am I good or evil? Well, I [I]could[/I] be good, virtuous, good; but only if I [I]am [/I](or do). Anyway enough of that-- integration of knowledge is when we learn from somoene and it gives us more of an affirmation of ourself, knowledge, and ideas, and its opposite of course is when we're negated, and if we are all alone, how can we do as much as if we have others affirming us? But then, Nietzsche was alone mostly. Maybe I am too, we shall yet see.
So the idea that I'm speaking of as my highest point, as my greatest affirmation, is that division is illusion; not metaphorically, but literally so. In buddhism it's taught that phenomena is illusion. I've come to the conclusion that this is not metaphorically but literally true. Without any drugs, I've come to the state where I can take in all information and integrate it together. This makes me aware of practically everything, and I can see it all down to great detail. I'm speaking of physical the environment- solid, real, things like this. Can these things be an illusion? What type of experience could possibly show that they are literally an illusion?
Well, I believe they are, and further, it is an illusion that we are separate. Now, it seems obvious that we are physically separate from each other, by space, by reality, or whatever. But is this really true? Without further ado, I'll try to explain.
Before now, I thought that saying phenomena was illusion was only because it is temporary compared with eternals, dream-like because of our difficulty in distinguishing consciousness from reality. Now I think it's literally true because of an experience I had. Phenomena, time, and division all literally illusion. What I experienced was a certain knowledge. I will not say it is true, but for certain reasons I believe it's true.
The interesting thing is that I was experiencing this, I was having a so-called mystical experience, and suddenly it became a shared mystical experience. I was at work. Customers were coming to the window. I had a knowledge-- and they shared it. I had come at the precise moment that they had to my 'true self,' to my self-longer than my life- self, and had the mystical experience of being at one with everything; outside of all the phenomena; and I will be damned if these people who were with me did not feel the same thing. [I][b]I began to see it[/b][/I]. How can I say what I saw!!?!?!? I saw these people [b][i]come into existence[/b][/i] before my eyes. I would have the thought of a person and they would come to the window. And I had the knowledge, the idea that I'd created them, and I could see they shared it. So I now stipulate that these people are everywhere!! They come out of the woodwork just to smile at you!! What I mean is, they will let you into their circle, they will let on that they have a shared knowledge with you. After this experience at work, I experienced it in the library too. So for these reasons, I believe that division and phenomena are not just metaphorically, but literally illusion. This was a mystical experience had with no drugs. No LSD. This is why I believe in God- because of this; and a similar experience I had about God, perhaps leading up to this.
Everything we experience; impacts us through our senses; and everything that we sense is infused with meaning. Well, the meaning builds on itself. Is any of it real? We see things, and it appears to be entirely consistent; reality is always there, after we stop believing in it. But how do we know? Well this question gives rise to the interesting place we can go to, where reality is entirely different. When we experience everything like this, when we experience such a reality, the knowledge is immediately in our minds, and this is seen by others; either ignored by someone who doesn't know, or seen and recognized by someone who does. Such a shared mystical experience only requires both people to go to that place-- where the "everything" is realized, where knowledge is integrated, where, perhaps, the self is realized. What, truly, is the obstacle to this? I saw, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that when the illusion is perceived to literally be illusion, the possibilities become endless. Then phenomena is illusion, and all of our false concepts fade away.
It's like, when we see something is illusion; when we really do, then we see something real in comparison. The world fades and spins away out of existence, it doesn't exist any more.
This is a mystical experience I will never forget; and if it has been enjoyable to read, I'm thankful of your interest. Thx guys.
Just a little bit more, then I'll sign off and let the snowball roll. ;)
Nietzsche wrote about integration of knowledge. I may study him again sometime, but I don't really need his guidance. He was a genius, a genius writer too, beyond all doubt. Nowadays we have our own advantages (and Nietzsche lacked many of these)-- I'll give just one for instance. Well, two, okay.
"her fiery green gown sneers at the grassy ground."
in reference to Queen Envy, in Hendrix's song Axis: Bold As Love. I think these words have meaning, rather than being nonsense!! :D They signify envy, jealousy, as it is manifested in our shared consciousness.....what a thing! I had a dream about it; envy, or green, was crawling everywhere, or oozing, or seeping, or however you would describe. I was trying to slash her down with a sword, but every time I cut through her she would laugh and say "You've not hurt me, but you only let me bring out a new form, which you cannot even slice with your sword!!" Interesting?
The other is
"I received a message from my brother, across the water, he sat laughing as he wrote 'the end's in sight'". From Night Flight by Zeppelin. :) Good song and one of my favourite lyrics; I won't say what I think it is here. ;)
So thx for reading. Bye.
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