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[I]On the thread "the Spiritual path"[/I]

The whole point of this discussion has been the "inexpressible" wisdom or spirituality- if there is such a thing, universal peace. Blaze is maintaining that there is no mandatory or only spiritual way- I am saying that I've seen it written very well, in many different authors I've pursued.

[I]Sources of knowledge when they are true, are very refreshing to me. However, the source of true knowledge and the source of false are both empty in nature.[/I]

Beginning with Buddhist philosophy, and continuing studying this, and later Western philosophy, always comparing my ideas with many people, and more recently writing as much as I can down. Practicing meditation, Tai Chi movements, and trance, as well as fasting, and reading, studying, meditating upon the Gita as well as others, I've had greatly numerous insights.

[I]Meditation is related to nonmeditation, and trance is related to Tai Chi. Reading and studying expand the mind, and are related to the mind expanding of Tai Chi. All of these forms are conducive to spiritual growth.[/I]

One time I had the very clear implication that everything in life was a dream- impermanent- and that none of it affected who we really are- our soul. I experienced myself as outside of the dream for an extended period of time, and I saw myself as a buddha of our age, and the light of buddhas in all things.

[I]The feeling I had is similar to a beneficient acceptance of the world, in all of its realms, of nirvana and yin and yang in material nature. It was different though in that it was the perceiving of my true nature. I am but a nexus of information, of skills, directions, habits. I am not more at peace than the next person, but in my head are ideas influenced by deep meditations. If a person cannot contribute something after 19 years, isn't there something wrong with this picture? The fact of my life is that it is shaped by infinite growths, progresses, learnings, experiences. I am universal only in that I've seen and spent much time in the company of astounding people, like grandmasters, politicians, professors- I am influenced and in a way, cultured, although my manner is precisely that of the suffering intellectual who is alone and misunderstood. I am also very passionate, and am somewhat like that of a Werther, or any other soul that felt the burden very greatly. Another name brought itself up to mention myself as, but I forgot. Alas, I am that stranger that disappears into the sand.

Any person who has lived the life I have, with the learning experiences, will not hesitate to claim happiness for themselves. If any person can win against the struggle of exhaustion, they deserve happiness. There is no time or use for energy spent contemplating negative or competitive views. These are forgotten and what should be the natural fundamental in communication is respect for each other's ideas.

One thing I believe is that no one is more intelligent or less intelligent than anyone else. We are all limited, and perhaps the only credible thing is to be aware of and satisfied with one's limitations. Yet what I mean about intelligence- if there were only 5 people in the world, if 4 of them were below average intelligence, I submit they will be good tempered and better company than almost anyone else.[/I]

This occurred before and after meditating upon the Heart Sutra. I realized that I could not understand the Heart Sutra completely, but viewing it I saw it to be the same as my own nature.

[I]The Heart Sutra is a set, it is one that is beyond our grasping. Its limits are there at our edge of understanding, just like ourselves. What are we- are we good or are we bad? [B]We do not know.[/B] But in a way, we can know. We cannot know if it is not in our vocabulary to know, however.[/I]

Everything is of the nature of the heart sutra and the self- they are empty. This great truth I meditated on many times since then. I think about it in many ways.

[I]The heart sutra is not that long. It may be impudent to say this, to give such a simple paraphrase of the heart sutra, but it could be summed up like this: there is no suffering, and there is no sufferer. The are no senses and there is nothing which is affected by them. There is no enligthenment and nothing to be enlightened. This is crude, and there is more of it, so if you wish to correct me, I more than welcome correction.[/I]

Later I re-began and read more of The Joyous Cosmology, and as I recently had much more love in my life, I was able to understand this well, and simply- penetratingly, and with new good insights (the value of output, of creation, and learning from one's self, the value of keeping record and meditating upon it). I began to see things in this way.

[I]In the joyous cosmology several things become real. Time becomes different so that in two weeks we can experience two years or centuries. Time is not a factor, and since it is not, we are not bound by the present but can go into the past or future. Information fields exist which cross over times. The lives of our ancestors are written into our minds, too subtle to see but dancing in our vision, senses and mind. In the joyous cosmology an hour is like a week, and we see things as much greater representations than what they are. The people we are with shift from the harried and harassed personalities to become their primeval archetypes. We are carved into eternity. The years of our present are told to us as children in the past. We link to our past selves with, say, five years of marriage, or study.

We see an apple as it is eaten once but also countless times. Or breath goes into and out of our body like a wind. A minute breathing becomes our whole lives of breath. As we inhabit the world without anything but our observations, the present moment looms like the entire universe. We are no longer great or small, and we look closely at the tiniest point in our field of vision, a small hole in a leaf somewhere, where, hovering, is a single point, and in this point is a universe being created- is our own universe being created as a bang. In split seconds the world is created over and over and over again. As soon as the joyous cosmology is perceived, nothing else is the same. A moment in the joyous cosmology is one which gives us the impression of our whole lives all in the same instant. If we simply delve into our memories, it is no different from being there, it is as if we traveled. So we go back into our memories with the knowledge we know, about our archetypes and love and spiritual progress we will make, and we believe we've known about it our whole lives- we believe it's our destiny.[/i]

Etienne, I do not need you to taste what I taste when I drink a drink, but if I am going to have a philosophical discussion, I will bring all elements of my knowledge into it, and so I will keep coming back to the only important thing I ever learned: it doesn't matter if we take the drink or not.
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  1. kiz_paws's Avatar
    Well, the things that you speak of in this entry, Alex, are things I know not much about, really. But this was interesting to read and it is cool that you are so able to make yourself clear in writing as to what you believe in.
  2. NikolaiI's Avatar
    Thank you for your comment, Kiz. :) I would like to write essays- I know this is not an essay. My writing does so much good for me, and if I can share it then it's twice as good- I mean for every person who gets value from it. I am almost afraid of one thing, that people would be scared off from writing a post, even if they agree with me, because they don't want the irrational criticms of them it might stir in others, to write an agreement. Because it's becoming clear that my ideas are highly unpopular, and I believe, I am somewhat unpopular because I speak them. - Also, it's clear (some people, not those important to me) think my views are very inaccuarte, and often these people believe these things very strongly. Like for instance Christians I might know who have a violent reaction to Hinduism, which I have become integrated into, for more than one reason. I write and share, and write about what's important to me, precisely becaues it is important to me. There's only one thing that's important to me, one idea, and it can't be expressed in any amount of words, yet I find it so refreshing to find it expressed clearly and completely elsewhere- so to this end I write. My writing does good for me, and I wish to share my ideas because I know without a doubt they are absolutely true for me, and they've developed and are very advanced- but to present my ideas to a hostile audience is a struggle, and not an enjoyable one. The message is one that brings ultimate peace, but knowledge of ourselves- if it's something we learn, shows us our limits, and we've lived our lives without this knowledge; what I'm getting to is that I'm very tired. I know beyond doubt the truth that there's nothing to mourn over, and I believe that everyone is destined for knowing the truth, but I can't not live, the only way to stay sane is to live until you die. Lastly- I do not speak out of this tiredness, or let it affect what I write- I do not speak out of cynicism, though who in this world should not be allowed cynicism if they so choose? Is a thousand pounds of shi*t equivalent to one cynical remark? Then I am allowed cynicism, but I do not express myself in this way- at least it is really, really not intended.
  3. kiz_paws's Avatar
    Like for instance Christians I might know who have a violent reaction to Hinduism, which I have become integrated into
    that sounds like an oxymoron, considering that the command that Christ gave was to love one another... but nonetheless, there are many who may step up to the plate for a war with words on defending their beliefs. Sometimes I wonder if the more heated the argument, the more that the opponent is beginning to doubt their own basis of argument... Because why the anger/hate/childishness when it comes to a discussion on religion? Well, thats all I shall say, lest I start up a real wasp nest. You just stick to your beliefs, Alex, they have given you comfort and peace. And you are a good person, I feel on the right track for sure. Cheers, Kiz
  4. B-Mental's Avatar
    I just whisper your name...
  5. NikolaiI's Avatar
    Yes, Kiz, I think it's only when we think someone has nothing to teach us that we'll lose all ability to learn...or something like that. ;) And thanks for your words, they're good to hear. I sometimes wonder if other people feel what I feel when I speak to them, interact. Good influences affect me strongly!!! And B- good to see you. I got wet today.
  6. B-Mental's Avatar
    LoL! You got wet? Well now there is a story I would like to hear.
  7. NikolaiI's Avatar
    Well just that I felt the snow and water-- how are we different from water anyway?