Questions & Answers
by , 01-21-2008 at 11:51 AM (2596 Views)
Note: Well, there is a whole sheaf of these...beautiful poems, and they were all about me leaving this Kris...
Please allow me to explain something I've been praying very hard. A long, time ago I decided that when I was unhappy I would pray to whom or what I don't know...Finally, please send me two women, and I will do nothing with them romantically until I understand which one I would choose...(sometimes I slip, because they always think that I am the one, and I may be, but I don't know until I decide. Anyways, the woman whom shall remain Anonymous that I choose this time now is not Kris. Kris 2007/08 is very cool, and nice, but...she doesn't hear me...she thinks my happiness means I'm gay, and TRUST me I'm not.
Ok, so I have a past with another K~., but I opted out of that Name a LONG TIME AGO! And this Kris would do the exact same in my opinion...but the other women was and is an R~. Now R~. 2007/08 has always said, "No" to me, but then I say, "Hmm?" and then go, then how about this, and she says sure. We communicate. So the one that you have been praying for isn't Kris (although I do believe some incredibly good things will happen to both Kris's...oops), its R~.
And there were all of the vibes on my wavelength with me and Kris, and Kris wasn't getting them she can't hear them, but R~ can. This situation looks like this...
ONLY I look better... now, that was a day of dancing before I met C~. whom shall always dance with me, and should something happen to R~. well there will always be C~. now do you understand? (these are not C~. nor R~. just friends)
OK, thanks for all of your support...these next two poems are prayers...and believe me there is so much pain in one and love in the other.
Questions?* Changed from neck to head
Why do I have to go?
don't I always have to go?
Couldn't someone else go instead?
Why is it always me who goes?
Why shouldn't you go?
You don't always have to go do you?
Could I let anyone else go instead?
Why is it always you who cries?
Why is it always me?
Answers!
When I sit near you
I feel warmth, hot to the touch,
I fear your touch, and envy your warmth
You radiate heat, glowing red
Steam rises as water runs down your head*
Is this love I feel? (!)
These were dedicated to Pendragon, Mtpspur, Niamh, Kizzo, & Crazefest456 Both were written in 1990 while I was in Germany with the military...not sleeping.
Bye bye, B





