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Note: Well, there is a whole sheaf of these...beautiful poems, and they were all about me leaving this Kris...


Please allow me to explain something I've been praying very hard. A long, time ago I decided that when I was unhappy I would pray to whom or what I don't know...Finally, please send me two women, and I will do nothing with them romantically until I understand which one I would choose...(sometimes I slip, because they always think that I am the one, and I may be, but I don't know until I decide. Anyways, the woman whom shall remain Anonymous that I choose this time now is not Kris. Kris 2007/08 is very cool, and nice, but...she doesn't hear me...she thinks my happiness means I'm gay, and TRUST me I'm not.

Ok, so I have a past with another K~., but I opted out of that Name a LONG TIME AGO! And this Kris would do the exact same in my opinion...but the other women was and is an R~. Now R~. 2007/08 has always said, "No" to me, but then I say, "Hmm?" and then go, then how about this, and she says sure. We communicate. So the one that you have been praying for isn't Kris (although I do believe some incredibly good things will happen to both Kris's...oops), its R~.

And there were all of the vibes on my wavelength with me and Kris, and Kris wasn't getting them she can't hear them, but R~ can. This situation looks like this...
ONLY I look better... now, that was a day of dancing before I met C~. whom shall always dance with me, and should something happen to R~. well there will always be C~. now do you understand? (these are not C~. nor R~. just friends)

OK, thanks for all of your support...these next two poems are prayers...and believe me there is so much pain in one and love in the other.

Questions?
Why do I have to go?
don't I always have to go?
Couldn't someone else go instead?
Why is it always me who goes?

Why shouldn't you go?
You don't always have to go do you?
Could I let anyone else go instead?
Why is it always you who cries?
Why is it always me?

Answers!
When I sit near you
I feel warmth, hot to the touch,
I fear your touch, and envy your warmth

You radiate heat, glowing red
Steam rises as water runs down your head*
Is this love I feel? (!)
* Changed from neck to head

These were dedicated to Pendragon, Mtpspur, Niamh, Kizzo, & Crazefest456 Both were written in 1990 while I was in Germany with the military...not sleeping.

Bye bye, B
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  1. kiz_paws's Avatar
    Well, I can understand you playing the field, Pete. If I can understand this -- you don't want to put all your eggs in one basket until you are sure, and you are not sure unless you have more than one romance going. Hope this is construed correctly, and there is nothing wrong in dating a few people. How else would you ever know what you really want in a life-long partner otherwise. Now about the photo, very nice. My friend from Japan would call that having a flower in each hand (he says it sounds better in the true language, more poetic). As for your two little poems, they are very sweet, they really reach out and earnestly want to know something. I am deeply touched that you mentioned me in the dedication of the poetry to your friends here at LitNet. And that is what we are -- so when you need a friend, you only have to come here and one of us is always on line. You are going through a trying time right now. Take a deep breath, listen to classical music, try to collect your thoughts -- nothing major has to be concluded right this moment, right? Hang in there B. p.s. thanks for the comment you left in my Blog Entry #33, it was sweet. -- Later Bayou Gator
  2. B-Mental's Avatar
    Kind of correct...I haven't let romance go too far, but when Women come to me...they come in more than one...I am having fun, and then they walk into the party, and I just like to be friendly...until I meet the woman that sees me beaten and broken and not unhappy...nor drunk, nor oh goodness if you only knew how filthy or what not...when they can accept me for me regardless...And I find them, and unfortunately they leave, and then I get hurt or vice versa, and well you know...everything...life happens.
  3. Virgil's Avatar
    B., C., K., sounds like a Kafka novel. Nice to see you B-M. I don't think I've ever seen your picture.
  4. mtpspur's Avatar
    Back in the day I tended to pursue one lady at a time. Badly. I tended to overanalyse the situations and misread signals on an alarmingly regular basis. Your Kris sound like my Susies. There are flashback dreams it is to be confessed. Annoying after all these years of wedded bliss and blisters. Hang in there. Only advice I can offer is that if you feel at peace with the lady that is a good thing. Also think of who you can be with this one or that one or the person you aspire to be. Then leave the rest to God's good guidance.

    I too am flattered by the dedication. I heavily related to the first poem. Hang in B. You definitely are kinder to the camera then I. What I could have done with your looks and charm the world is probably better off not enduring.
  5. B-Mental's Avatar
    You are way to humble Rich. Way...way...humble...it was they that couldn't see. Virgil...wait until you see Larry...I will make you laugh so hard I cry...in the good way...just don't wet yourself. B
  6. crazefest456's Avatar
    I see your questions enclosing you and then your answers freeing that much pressure...they're both beautiful prayers. I agree with Kiz, this whole situation is like having a flower in each hand. Now I can't wait to see Larry and you !
  7. Shalot's Avatar
    Nic Pic B - you're a cutie
  8. motherhubbard's Avatar
    OK, Pete. I’m just no good at keeping my mouth shut when I have any inkling of an opinion. Here’s the deal- everyone wants to pick who is right and no one wants to jump in only to find out that Ms. Right is flying in tomorrow. The thing is that it’s so easy to get caught up in the right one. I doubt that anyone who has been married for very long will tell you that they wake up every morning saying “AH, this is the life!” eventually we all ask “what have I got myself into!?!” the thing is a good marriage is not measured like that. I think you should ask yourself if you are willing to do ANYTHING for the relationship and always put them first and then ask if the other person is willing to do ANYTHING for the relationship and always put you first. I don’t know if serious girls hang out in clubs, but you are a great looking and smart guy who should be able to find girls just looking under the drivers seat for change. Ugly men don’t have this kind of problem- I think maybe if you weren’t quite so good looking you wouldn’t have this problem either. Maybe if your looks start to fail you’ll be willing to just pick one that’s pretty good and make the best of it. Love is really nothing like that emotion, and everything like a commitment that feels good and bad. I bet you know that, but you seem such a romantic. WOW, good looking, really smart and witty, well read, vast experience, romantic and employed! You’re a real catch! I’m posting this private. I wouldn’t normally just talk this way. I hope my blurbing my thoughts right out there doesn’t offend or embarrass you, but I think you can take some blurbing. The poems were great, by the way.
  9. applepie's Avatar
    First, I love having a face to put with everything else Pete:) I don't think I've seen you before this. Keep hanging in there waiting for the RIGHT woman. She will come along, and she'll likely appear when you've all but given up on finding the correct one. I'm not going to say the perfect one, because I don't think that there is only one perfect person for anyone, but there is always that one person who isn't perfect that you're willing to work to make it all turn out good anyway. Regardless, she's out there B, just keep waiting and maybe not look so hard. I bet she'll fall into your lap (literally if you are lucky;)) Take Care my friend ~Meg~
  10. B-Mental's Avatar
    Ohh man, you guys rock my world...this is so nice...to have so many kind comments...that I actually sleep for 5 hours before work tah moro. B
  11. Niamh's Avatar
    So how did everything go with R~? has she fallen for you yet? Hopw she gets better soon.
  12. B-Mental's Avatar
    Well, in two words...I overslept!
  13. Pendragon's Avatar
    You my friend are a lady magnent, it seems. I will continue to pray for the lady in question. It isn't how you play the game of love, it's how you find one jewel among the basket of them that you can treasure above all the others.

    Much love and peace, Mon ami
  14. Niamh's Avatar
    Well!! Must have gone rather well then!
  15. Countess's Avatar
    I have to confess, I'm a bit confused - but then that's standard operating procedure for me. Are you doing okay admist the mire of confusion, B-Mental? Take care of yourself first - I worry about you. As to romance - I am the last person to give anyone advice in the love department, seeing that I will never marry because it would take 3 men (an old man, a young man, and a gay man) to make me happy. So...good luck and God Bless with the women. That's all I can really hope for you.
  16. Countess's Avatar
    I have to confess, I'm a bit confused - but then that's standard operating procedure for me. Are you doing okay admist the mire of confusion, B-Mental? Take care of yourself first - I worry about you. As to romance - I am the last person to give anyone advice in the love department, seeing that I will never marry because it would take 3 men (an old man, a young man, and a gay man) to make me happy. So...good luck and God Bless with the women. That's all I can really hope for you.
  17. Captain Pike's Avatar
    Well, my friend, I have a little less than half the problem you have! The only thing missing from any situation I'm ever in is what I've failed to bring to it. Keep your guard up and your heart open._P.